I'm diabetic type1 for four years . I'm really starting to get depressed . I'm facing a great problem which may end up with me by entering the ICU for the third time :( that's starts with just eating any sugary food like chocolate . It spikes my BSL and I feel like I wanna eat more. I'm in an interpersonal conflict..: if I take extra dose (in case of eating sugary or any carbohydrates) I will gain weight!!!!. I know that people may think that ' but u r destroying ur body.' , yes that's right but I'm obsessed with my weight. I may skip dose in order to reach ketoacidosis and Then I start to lose weight. I know that sound stupid, but I'm telling the truth and I'm describing what I think during eating sugars .I used to take novorapid and levimer. And I may not eat at all at this period and thus I was allowed to not take novorapid dosage and that's why I was losing weight easily. After that I switched to lantus instead of levimer for 2 months or so. I started to notice that I'm putting on weight and that made me feel bad and made me eat more ( emotional eating) I told my doctor about this and I went back to levimer . But unfortunately I was started to get used to a bad habit which is —— loving food — loving to skip dose— loving to reach ketoacidosis . I went to hospital last September and i determined and promise myself not to enter this cycle again . I stick for that promise for a month then I get back to bad habit and closed cycle of thinking. Eating more.. Skipping … Lose eeigr obsession. Last march I went again to hospital and promised myself the "fake promise" and the doctor switched me to take novomix 2 times per week . now I'm experiencing that I'm entering this cycle again. I searched for anyone who is feeling and doing the same way and I found that it's a condition that's called diabulimua.. But I swear I'm not bulimic I never throw up what I eat but all the other symptoms of diabulimua is the same as mine . I'm really feeling depressed cause I used to be able to manage my BSL but now I
Can't . I walk almost daily or 6 days per week for an hour or more. I rally want to recover from this these days . I want to hold myself up. I need motivations from people and tips from u Anyone can help ??
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