On May 22 I went to the ER because of a lump under my jaw bone that was making it very hard to chew anything solid. The doctor told me I had an infected lymph node and gave me antibiotics and pain medication. After 10 days it was no better.
For about 3 weeks I have been living off of cream soups, milkshakes, sugar free puddings and jello. I have opened a can of spaghetti and put it in the blender. I boil eggs and mash them into paste just so I won't have to chew them. I had chicken and was in tears from the pain but I ate it. My next foray into eating will be spinach soup. I am going to cook the spinach then blend it and heat and eat. I wish I could afford a juicer.
Today I was able to see a doctor. My doctor is out of town. The woman asked a thousand questions and examined my lymph node. .She looked at me and told me I have cancer in the lymph node. When she said that, the room went black. I think my heat stopped and I was in tears. It took about 10 minutes to recover. I chewed the doctor out so bad I almost felt sorry for her.
Then I asked questions.I told her the lump does not stay the same size. It shrinks, gets larger and at times it drains. She then said well it could be an abscess or a cyst. I want you to have an ultrasound and possibly a biopsy to see what it really is.
I was stunned. I asked her why on earth she would tell me if was cancer without first knowing what it really was. She asked if I had a fever. I said I did before I started the antibiotics but not once I started taking it. She told me if there was a tumor in my lymph node, it would stay the same size and it would not drain.
I told her that a smart doctor never tells a patient they have something they are not sure of without doing the proper test. She would not admit that she should not have done what she did so she proceeded to try to be my new best friend. I told her kissing my butt was not going to help the situation. I did not appreciate what she did. The only good thing she said was that I have lost
a grand total of 75 lbs and my blood glucose was 100 when she did a finger stick. That was great since I had to eat 2 milkshakes for breakfast.
I am now waiting to get the ultrasound and to see the ENT specialist next week. She gave me percocet for the pain and I was able to eat solid food for dinner. I asked if I should drink Glucerna to replace meals. She said she never recommends diabetics to use shakes to replace meals.
Today was not a good day for me. I am praying that I just have a nasty infection or cyst and it can be drained. Had I not recovered from my initial shock and asked questions, I would be in a funk tonight thinking I have cancer. Doctors really need to think rather than spin a wheel and pick an illness then inform their patient what they think they have. It is always best to talk to your doctor and asks questions. I hope she doesn't do this to anyone else.
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