I've become numb.

By Squidneyy22 Latest Reply 2014-05-15 20:21:39 -0500
Started 2014-05-07 03:13:18 -0500

I just got my a1c results back and its a 13.3. Im 18 and still can't get a license because of my diabetes, well I guess because of me. I have been in denial about my diabetes for years and it's time for me to wake up and accept it. I just don't know how to. After I got my results I think I'm in a depressed numb state and I need to get out of it so I can get a lower a1c. Please, tell me how you've learned to accept it and stay motivated to keep your diabetes under control. Im really struggling and I need help.

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Hops 2014-05-15 20:21:39 -0500 Report

South Minneapolis has at least two groups of diabetics who meet once every week or two to discuss and share our challenges managing diabetes. We are all about diabetics helping supporting diabetics. We do not give medical advice per se but when we can we tell each other what helps us deal with ups and downs of diabetes and we encourage everyone to consult with a certified diabetes educator or and endocrinologist for precise medical advice. If you want to check out what we do visit
A-Partnership Of Diabetics on Meetup.com.

Hops 2014-05-15 11:05:35 -0500 Report

Greetings Squidney, It helped me to learn that I feel much healthier when I fill up on fresh green vegetables. I never feel hungry between meals and snacks. Do you share your diabetic needs with friends and family? I ask because too often we harm ourselves by not drawing attention about our requirements. We proceed to live as if we are non diabetic and suffer the consequences. I start by setting attainable goals then move on to tougher goals managing diabetes while appreciating improving health. Forty six years into juvenile diabetes I know we can be healthy.
Best regards, Tim

artqween 2014-05-09 22:35:16 -0500 Report

Hey Squidneyy22, above all never give up. Always give feedback… some days maybe better than others. Cravings as well. Always be patient with urself,…

artqween 2014-05-09 22:21:58 -0500 Report

consider low sugar based foods.. possibly salads, lean meats, see what high fiber fruits u can eat to actually help u??
There are a lot fruit with minimal sugar.
Most importantly know ur sugar count blood sugar meter??
blood pressure number also??

artqween 2014-05-09 22:18:50 -0500 Report

Involve ur folks and ur family Dr in ur concern. That's how progress can get startd. The numb part concerns me. How r u diabetes? U were diagnosed diabetes already? D2? Is it in ur family? Hey btw..
Never recover alone. Create a survival group ur folks, dr, ur College, church,… the more in ur circle of recovery the better u will be cured possibly?
High blood pressure??
U aren't a sugar sort of addict r u??
Good luck… Always know u r never alone and u have a support team. Join ur local diabetes support group possibly at ur local clinic??

Jan8 2014-05-09 09:01:16 -0500 Report

Numb is a feeling and because you are on the road to accepting the fact that you have diabetes. It's a process anyone goes through when they have a loss such as your health condition. It doesn't happen right away and it takes some time. At least you are being honest with yourself and for that I give you a big pat on the back. There are good suggestions on this web site. it has helped me so much.

Nick1962 2014-05-08 12:18:50 -0500 Report

I’m not a T1, so my input here might not be worth anything. I know your struggle is far worse than mine. However, as a T2 I don’t want to become a T1 either and later have to deal with all the things already mentioned.

Your comment “….tell me how you've learned to accept it…” is what I’d like to address. At first that’s what I thought – learn to live with it – but after a while I decided I wasn’t going to just sit here and let it rule me. That was “unacceptable”.

I went out and studied, tested, studied more, came here, learned more, tested, logged, researched foods and diets and what they do to me, made both major and minor changes in almost all areas of my lifestyle. In the end, I guess I still have to “accept” I have the condition, but since then I’ve pretty much made it my _____ and not the other way around.

Much of the motivation to do that came from a T1 acquaintance who has done the same. She commented that educating yourself and getting your management regimen to the point that it’s almost instinctive (becoming a “professional T1” as she puts it) is very empowering, and the more you learn and accomplish, the more motivated you become to continue.

You still have lots of things to experience, good and bad, and still have to take a few of life’s inevitable beatings. This is just one of many, and if you can stay on your feet now, the next one might not be so tough. Just a thought FWIW.

MicNeil 2014-05-07 23:18:59 -0500 Report

Hi Squid, Just accepting that you have been in denial is a step forward. Good advice below. It's amazing how many little helpful tips you will pick up here…but no one can do this for you except you. We will look forward to celebrating your progress…and getting your driver's license…so come on back with updates so we know when to plan the party :-)

wraithmb 2014-05-07 10:18:43 -0500 Report

Jigsaw gives some really good advice. Complications are a pain to say the least. My mother has lost a leg from the knee down, and I am most likely losing my ability to digest food. It's time for me to get back on track too.

I have been on my new schedule for a week now, and have seen a huge improvement in my sugars. If this keeps up, my a1c will be around 8 from 11+ at my next appointment. I find though that if I go off my schedule by even a half hour my day is shot as far as sugars go.

I'm personally a bit of a nerd, so technology helps me keep on track. I use the ibgstar meter which connects to and downloads to my iphone. I keep track of all of my insulin and carb intake with the ibgstar app as well. Where I work, it is a HUGE safety issue to use a cell phone for anything, so I have ordered a cookoo watch so that I can have a watch alarm for my calendar appointements. Coincidentally, that's how I remember when and what to do.

What motivates me to do this? Well, I'd like to live long enough to use my retirement money I've been saving (my doctor recently suggested saving for retirement might be a waste of my time). My kids… Yeah I'd like to see them graduate at least. I like having my real legs to walk on. I'd rather not have to inject food through a tube sticking out of my abdomen to survive… I like eating and digesting solid food. And of course like I said above, the tech toys are pretty cool :)

The key to success is collecting information. Do it on a schedule that works for you. Look at what you do naturally everyday. Then try to do it the same everyday. Collect information… Adjust what you do as needed, but above all, keep an open dialog with your doctor, and keep him or her informed of patterns that you are seeing.

I have found that over the last week, I have felt better than I have in years. I suspect you would find the same as well. Maybe that will help with motivation? Also, find out exactly what you need to have to be able to get your licence. At least then you will have a short-term goal.

I'm sure you will find out, like I am, that it is a very tough job to get everything under control. A high sugar isn't the end of the world, so correct the bad, and celebrate the good.

…and pay attention to what you eat and how it affects your sugars. Read the nutritional info… It may surprise you that for a 355 ml can of regular coke, you will need more insulin than for thanksgiving dinner… Stay away from sugary foods is my best advice, and cook at home as often as you can. I know for a fact that my insulin dosages work almost perfectly, however some fast food chains, not mentioning any names, are a little off on their nutritional info, if I calculate my dose based on the info on their website, I'm always need a 2 or 3 unit correction about 2 hours later.

Keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. A small success is a good reason for us all to celebrate! In difficult times, we all depend on others to help keep us motivated.

jigsaw 2014-05-07 05:01:46 -0500 Report

Some may feel my words are a bit harsh! I'll try to be as gentle as possible. First, talk to your doctor, a diabetes educator, and a registered dietician, if you haven't already. Next, consider the facts, which consist of both positives, and negatives. How you view the circumstances for long term management of your diabetes is up to you. Personally, I would prefer to keep my eye sight, kidney function, healthy heart, and avoid a stroke, for all if not most of my life. This can be accomplished with good diabetes management! The only way to avoid diabetes complications, is with good diabetes management. Knowing this is the major ingredient to motivating myself.
I have been managing my diabetes successfully for 20 years. I eat a substantial variety of healthy foods, and exercise regularly. Managing diabetes gets easier with time and experience. For many of us, it's really a matter of learning how to live a healthy life style. Primarily, knowing what foods to eat (HEALTHY FOODS ONLY) and exercising, are two of the most important steps.

artqween 2014-05-09 22:30:13 -0500 Report

Eating lean meats, broccoli, cauliflower, staying active, know ur blood sugar number,… know what to eat and when,… is a consideration?? Avoid hamburgers, fries, pizza these can hurt u. High cholesterol and blood pressure can be deadly..
Mine close to 300 in cholesterol I Aldo have high blood pressure, and I weigh 260.
:-/. Now I am eating turkey burgers, no fries,
salads, grrrr. Pizza gives acid reflux for 4 days after I eat it, starting early on the morning.
Can't have grill cheese,
I am 49 years young. And compromised.
Foods that r easy to digest possibly??
Lots of high fiber veggies, consult ur dr. On the types of fruit safe for u to eat. Personally I mod. bananas. Love'm. Blueberries, yum

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