Frustration city with my diabetes

Tia Shirley
By Tia Shirley Latest Reply 2014-05-06 22:31:24 -0500
Started 2014-05-03 16:04:12 -0500

Hello everyone. Every once in a while in my emails I see where one of you have shared by way of discussions I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I get so frustrated with all the life changes that I need to make that I shove it under a rug and eat what I want and don't take my medication. My blood sugars got up to 526 last night. I am going to schedule an appointment with my doctor for next Friday. May I draw inspiration from you so I can be healthier for my husband, myself and my family. Thanks for being here


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Tia Shirley
Tia Shirley 2014-05-06 22:31:24 -0500 Report

Thank you everyone for sharing from your heart. I needed those statements and I am bound determined to smarten up, eat better and do what I know I need to do. I have my drs. appointment on Friday. God bless all of you in your handling yours. Together we can do this.

number 2
number 2 2014-05-05 10:24:51 -0500 Report

i get frustrated from time to time also, but the lifestyle change has to be for the right reason, I eat as healthy as i can I exercise, just about everyday. I do it because i want off medication, and i want to be healthy for my beautiful wife, and my young sons, who i want to see grow into the men I know they can be, so find your thing that keeps you wanting to improve your health, and don't let go. best wishes and god bless

wraithmb
wraithmb 2014-05-04 21:02:35 -0500 Report

I used to do what you're doing. That was up until last week. My last appointment with my endocrinologist was an eye opener, besides having digestive problems that are likely due to my poor control, if I don't smarten up, "it's probably not worth saving for retirement". I'm 33.

If my digestive problems are what we expect them to be, I will ultimately be feeding myself through a tube into my intestines/stomach if I don't smarten up.

I like chewing my food and knowing what it tastes like, and I want to be around to see my kids graduate, get married, and see my grand kids. So smarten up I will.

I challenge you to do the same.

Today my 6 year old son had a salad instead of ice cream, "so dad wouldn't be the only one without ice cream". I just about cried. If things were better and I had looked after myself, I could have maybe afforded the privilege of an ice cream. My choices in past years were stupid ones…

Lakeland
Lakeland 2014-05-04 10:06:56 -0500 Report

You sound like my brother. most of my family is diabetic, but at least your test! my brother won't do that, Rich says I'm not going to do anything about it. well, rich stepped in a tack & got an infection, had to wear a vac on his foot to try to heal the wound & he changed his mind. I had to get scared to take my diabetes more serious, my eyes went blurry. a traffic light looked like 6 & blurry. I couldn't read road signs. so when I talked with an eye doctor he told me, I may not need glasses if I can get my diabetes under control. (I was at 550) He was right, I don't wear glasses.

So what motivates you? fear? ok— used Blindness, sores that don't heal might need body parts amputated, kidney dialysis, it's a slow painful death (my dad experienced it).do you want your life to be weaved in around doctor appts?

are you motivated by food. oK— experiment— try foods, test see what foods raise & spike blood sugars, Add high fiber carbs, see if it helps your sugars, then come back & post to me, because that's what I'm motivated by. make desserts out of beets, carrots, sweet potato & test & see how you do.

Just curious? take a walk test see what your numbers do.

for me diabetes is easy, My brother in law has bladder cancer, He now has a bag,but it can come back any time.

Thank God, I have something that I can control, I can test, I can take a short walk, I can eat, split meals with my husband, play with recipes. watch how these changes effected me

Then come back & post tell me what works for you so I can try it. I have rough days where I can eat a whole 9" cake, but I know if I walk I can drop 40 points. (it's a shame it don't cut calories that quick) I was shocked when someone told me there is 3500 calories in a pound, & somehow I have to cut that out to lose 1pound, that fact alone helped me watch what I eat.

I look at diabetes differently than some others, it's a science experiment, but I see in my other family members, who didn't care, how it affected them, over time & I just don't want to suffer like they are.

Blessings
Diane

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-05-04 13:50:24 -0500 Report

Diane, I have cousins who are diabetic and I am the best diabetic in the group. They don't care. I told one of my cousins that he was going to keep on eating what he wanted, as much as he wanted that he was going to kill himself. His doctor gave him insulin. His pharmacy was out so since he really needed the prescription he went to another pharmacy. Thankfully, he lives in an apartment building and his downstairs neighbor heard him when he hit the floor and called him. He didn't answer so she called the manager and the maintenance man and his brother. His brother gave them permission to enter his apartment and they found him unconscious. The medication put him in ICU which turned out to be a blessing because his blood sugar was over 300. He had a severe allergic reaction to the insulin. They kept him in the hospital until his blood sugar came down to 150. He is now taking his diabetes seriously because he cannot take insulin. I saw him 3 weeks ago and he has lost a lot of weight and watching everything he puts in his mouth.

He said I was the only one who said I told you so. I said under no circumstances do I or will I ever feel sorry for any human being who refuses to listen and take proper care of themselves. That what he did was his own fault so nope I don't feel sorry for you.

I told him, diabetes is not a game. The end results is diabetes will win. When you do not take care of yourself, you are slowly damaging your body and your organs. His brother did the same exact thing and is now on dialysis. They simply did not take diabetes seriously. They should have because it killed their mother.

Lakeland
Lakeland 2014-05-04 14:23:17 -0500 Report

Joyce, My dad had the attitude, he'd over inject insulin & say "I'm woosey" so he could eat the cake & junk, It caught up with him,but he was in his 80's when he died. I do take it seriously, my aunt, is blind from it, my mom— she lost a toe, Rich, my brother & my other brother dale, had to wear vac's on their feet, but they almost lost their feet. if you don't watch it's bad. & the doctor told me, if my sugars are high, then my blood is like syrup & that thick stuff screws up every organ & artery in the body. I write that I'm glad I can check daily, so now you know why.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-05-04 17:43:14 -0500 Report

Diane,
I went on a cruise and my best friend couldn't ended up not being able to go and be my roommate. Another friend who was going said she had a roommate for me. I ended up with a roommate from Hell. We talked on the phone for several hours and got along fine. She said she was a petite 30 year old. She was 5'9, 250 lbs and around 55 years old. She was also a Type 1 diabetic. On the 3 morning of the cruise, my next door neighbor who also is a friend called me and asked if she could borrow my clothes steamer. I told her I would unlock the cabin door and tell my roommate she was coming in to get it. I was going to take a shower. By the time I got out of my shower and came out of the bathroom, there was the Cruise Ship doctor and my girlfriend in the room with my roommate. This woman who was drinking all day everyday decided she would take a double dose of insulin and lowered her blood sugar to the point she passed out. Thankfully, my girlfriend saw the needle and the insulin on the floor and called in the emergency. On the fifth day, she drank all day and ate nothing but sweets and very little food. Same thing happened only this time my girlfriend called for orange juice. She had come to bring back a book. To make matters even worse my roommate is an RN. She knew better.

I was not a diabetic at that time and but I knew what to do. This woman thought nothing of it. When people don't care enough to take care of themselves, there is very little anyone can do for them.

You use your diabetes as a science experiment. If that works for you and keeps you on track, you found something that helps you. I never thought to do that. Good luck to you.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-05-03 19:17:26 -0500 Report

Tia, all I can say is this. Please do not be offended because that is not my intention. All of this is your fault. You choose to be frustrated with your diabetes. Until you change your views of being diabetic and making life changes, you are always going to be frustrated.

Shoving things under the rug is the same as sticking your head in the sand. When you look under the rug or pull your head out of the sand, the problems are still there only at times they are much worse than they were prior to hiding them.

When you do what you are doing, you are allowing diabetes to damage your body and the end results could be health problems that could have been prevented or delayed had you taken proper care of yourself.

What is making me happy is that you recognize the problem and realize you need to do something. The doctor is the first step. The next step is diabetes education. Even if you had a class before, you may need a refresher. Talking to a registered dietitian will also help you.

The person you need to be healthier for first is yourself. If you aren't healthy for you, your family will end up taking care of you. When I was first diagnosed, I made lifestyle changes immediately. What helped me the most was a sign on my bedroom mirror that said, "Just for today, I am going to______________. I filled in the blank each day and stuck to what I decided to do. When I did this each day, diabetes became easier, my eating habits became better, exercise was fun and my A1C came down.

You can do this. The first step is always the hardest but once you take it, you will find that each day gets better and better. All it takes is believing in yourself. Know that if you learn to eat properly, test as you should, take medications when you should and exercise each day, maintaining and monitoring your diabetes will get easier each day. Please stop being frustrated, diabetes isn't the enemy. I have diabetes, it does not have me. It doesn't stop me or slow me down. I control my diabetes, it does not control me. I wish nothing but the best of luck and much improved health to you.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2014-05-03 17:07:26 -0500 Report

Howdy again Tia
Sorry that you're feeling so bad. Glad to learn that you're now motivateed to get healthier in your life. Husband, self and family are important motivators in your journey to a healthier lifestyle.

Whatever I can do to assist your journey, would be glad to do.

God's best to you and yours

James

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