Everything was going smoothly. Life could not have been better. In all fields of live I was doing better than good. Then TADA …pronounced T1 D. Being from a family of strong and healthy people this came as a rude shock to everybody. It's been 16 years already and dunno how many more are there. I still find myself as a loner everywhere, in the middle of nowhere.
Anyway,the point I want to make is that there has been a drastic change in my outlook, perspective, point of view towards life more like the philosophical type. For eg, no matter how much I excel at anything but the real happiness is missing. The way I look at things , everything. I was the live wire, soul of my pack of boys but today I am the most laidback. The things I used to do with interest, no I have to think twice thrice and then even if I do it the enjoyment is not there. I used to be a emotionally tough guy, but even to my amusement my eyes swell up real fast now. I mean things have changed and probably I am left somewhere in between.
The needles, numbers, doc's constant warnings, social stigma, compromises with life, from carefreeness to extra carefulness,forced discipline , medicines, regimented life style have probably made me like this.
I just want to know, have you changed after D or ur still the same. Are you emotionally withdrawn at times, do you feel lost in a competitive world. Would love to hear your experience, in case you wish to.
Thanks again for your time.
Love and hugs to everybody. : )
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