T2...still kicking my arse

By rickbond1973 Latest Reply 2014-03-24 19:52:54 -0500
Started 2014-03-22 20:23:36 -0500

So…I put off my blood work for like 5 months…fasting sucks. Finally got to my doctor for other issues (trigger finger and numb arms) however we did do some DB talk. Checked my a1c…went from 5.6'ish to 7.2'ish. Weight went up from 272 to 290… Ugh. I know why…I know I'm a dumbass…I should be on the treadmill right now, but I'm here instead. I am trying AGAIN to fix myself…cutting out the junk during the morning coffee run, getting just coffee instead of a half coffee half hot chocolate mix. I've been eating a bagel every morning for years…trying to change that. Need to figure out the food thing. My wife started some 21 day fix diet…sticking to her changes…some of them I have joined her on, but not all. I've never been into cooking or preparing food. I can boil pasta and nuke sauce from a jar…you're all cringing at that one. Haha. I haven't had pasta for a while. When I have it's been Dreamfields, though I eat too much of it. If it's tasty, I go for more. So weak. Lunch at work has been PB&J on wheat for a while now…that obviously needs to change. Having never learned to cook is biting me in the ass now. I've been home with the boys all day today and with crappy weather I am inside wanting to keep nibbling on food…I get pissed at some of the stuff I almost eat…and some of the stuff I do eat. I cut out my diet soda addiction 2 or 3 weeks ago. Drinking coffee in the morning, water all day and a Redds Ale or Woodchuck Cider with dinner. I'm not stopping those. I Ike burgers…though I have a hard time eating a burger without a bun…hard as in…hasn't happened, though I am trying to figure out what I can use instead of a bun. It's gotta hold my onion and condiments. Am I looking for responses … Ehh…feel free, but a big part of me came here to spout off and get it out somewhere at I can assume it'll be read. Doctor said I either get it under control or my next visit will consist of prescribing an injectable med…really don't want to go there.

9 replies

MrsCDogg 2014-03-24 15:01:57 -0500 Report

The first thing you have to do is stop beating up on yourself. It doesn't help when you are mean to yourself. I know, I'm the queen of kicking my own arse! Like Gabby said, take one thing at a time. Do you know how to eat an elephant? You do it one bite at a time. Just remember that when you feel like you've messed up. We are all in this together.

GabbyPA 2014-03-24 10:36:59 -0500 Report

You and I suffer the same issue...we know what we should do. It's the doing part that's hard.

When I am faced with the big hole effect (that I dig from time to time for myself) I take on one thing at a time. Since cooking is not your deal, maybe find a few healthy venues to work with.

Or maybe look into those little faces you are hanging out with and realize that you want to be a dad in their lives and have fun doing something together to get you moving. A snowball fight? Flying kites in the park? When it warms up those bike rides will be good for everyone.

Or you can clean the pantry. Take out the junk that tempts you and tell everyone for a month or two it can't come in the house. That usually gets you enough time to overcome the cravings.

Tackle one thing. Just pick one. Work on it hard and then when you feel you have it under control, take on another. This is how I get myself back on track.

Glucerna 2014-03-23 15:20:42 -0500 Report

It sounds like you've been making some excellent changes, and the fact that your A1c was in a healthy range just a few months ago tells me that you know what to do and can reach that goal again. I really like the idea of making small, realistic changes that fit into your lifestyle. For example, if you're used to eating a bagel for breakfast perhaps try a mini-bagel; use thin-sliced wheat bread for your lunch sandwich; adding more vegetables to your meals to help you feel full and satisfied. Exercise is going to be really helpful as well; what do you enjoy doing besides the treadmill? ~Lynn @Glucerna

rickbond1973 2014-03-23 17:40:15 -0500 Report

I didn't say I enjoyed the treadmill. Lol. I really want to get cycling again, however I have been having an issue with my head after large amounts of exertion. Like tennis though all off these require an ability to get away from my boys (4 and 6) for some amount of time. The decent a1c was not due to my knowing what to do… it was due to the Glyburide I was put on…unfortunately…I had begun to rely upon that as a miracle drug…

Glucerna 2014-03-24 19:52:54 -0500 Report

When my boys were that age I would get exercise by playing soccer with them, going for a walk while they rode their bikes, taking them to the playground, etc. Maybe you can make exercise part of family time? ~Lynn @Glucerna

jayabee52 2014-03-23 05:15:30 -0500 Report

Howdy Rick.

I would urge you to be emotionally kind to yourself.

One doesn't learn what one needs to know about diabetes in a day or two or even a month or two. In fact I have had T2D since 1995 and I still continue to learn about it, even though I consider myself to be pretty knowledgable about it now. It did take me quite a while and a change of attitude to get me where I am today.

I am not big on preparing food either but I do prepare rather simple fare (I live alone). You can see what I do (ever since 02/2011) to manage my Blood Glucose (BG) without the use of diabetes medication of any kind (I had formerly been on injectable insulin for about 5 yrs and pills prior to that). I had had my A1c levels in the mid to lower 6s. with insulin but went to 5.5 and I lost 65 lbs in about 5 months on this eating plan: ~ http://www.diabeticconnect.com/diabetes-discu... You will see that it is rather simple and the Geo Foreman grill works well for most of it. The only other cooking I do is to use a fry pan and cook eggs.(which is rather quick and easy to do).

Here lately I have taken canned chicken breast and added either mayo or miracle whip and sweet relish to make a chicken salad (not much cooking with that). I eat that with a fork off a plate or bowl.

There ARE solutions to your troubles, and should you adopt them you might be able to avoid the injections, at least for a while.

God's best to you and yours

James Baker

Trudie Ann
Trudie Ann 2014-03-22 23:54:26 -0500 Report

I know how hard it is to find a good menu and stick to it. What helped me the most was I didn't go all or nothing at first. I took my time and before I knew it I was getting the hang of reading labels, weighing my food and plating it as suggested for diabetics. There are a lot of sugar free, and no sugar added foods, desserts, even ice cream out there. It sounds like you have a good wife who cares about what you eat. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to try some of her ideas. I hope you manage to work it out so you don't have to take shots.

diabeticdummy 2014-03-22 21:04:32 -0500 Report

Best bun in the world lettuce learned that one years ago when I used to do high protein diets when lifting

JaredLahti 2014-03-23 06:43:46 -0500 Report

I totally agree. I thought it was lame the first time I ordered it but it was so good. The key for the lettuce is to use like 6 layers on each side of the burger. Then it is thick enough to hold condiments.