Over the holidays I was diagnosed as T2. Although diabetes runs in my family I have found that I still have not gotten over the initial shock of the diagnosis over a month later.
I am only 22 years old, have an active lifestyle, eat very healthy, have great cholesterol, and a healthy BMI. Because it runs in my family and it was something I was made very aware of at a very young age because my grandfather never took proper care of his diabetes and even lost a leg to the disease, I have always tried to make healthy preventive choices that led to my above shape. My father then was diagnosed in his early forties but he also has never been a healthy person (refuses to eat anything green and I've never seen a person that drinks more Mountain Dew than him).
Therefore, I thought I was doing everything right to stave off the disease as long as possible. And yet, a couple months before my diagnosis I started noticing all of the signs and symptoms at once and scheduled an appointment with my doctor.
Overall, what I have been most overwhelmed by is the anger I feel. The day I was diagnosed I bought a stack of books to start learning what in my lifestyle I now needed to change. The doctor put me on metformin as well. As I've been learning about diabetes in these books and they talk about the preventive measures you can take and power foods to eat and how you shouldn't really have to worry about it until you're about forty for T2 if you're generally healthy it has been confirmed that I was literally doing everything right and I've only gotten more angry.
I wondered if any one else felt just angry at the world? It's been over a month now and I'm still feeling like this. It's not even angry at my dad or something, I don't blame him at all even though he has admitted to feeling really guilty ever since we found out. It's literally just anger without a target.
On top of all of this I go to a really really competitive and difficult college and am in my final semester and therefore am already really really stressed about that. I keep reading how badly stress can affect diabetics but there's nothing I can do to get rid of it. I chose this stressful path four years ago and I can't change it now during my last semester. Anxiety is another thing that runs in my family on my moms side and I'm already on medication for that as well. How true is it about stress and diabetes?
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