An epiphany

Silicone eyes
By Silicone eyes Latest Reply 2014-01-27 08:42:41 -0600
Started 2014-01-18 10:55:34 -0600

I have reached the age that getting together with all of your old friends isn't always for the best reason. Class reunions don't happen in January, nobody is getting married for the 2nd or third time, so…today we will all be together and help a friend bury another friend, his high school sweetheart, mother of his children, and wife of 20+ years. It was a sudden infection that lead to cardiac failure. Just yesterday another classmate buried her husband. Due to brain cancer he was given 6 months to live…in 1999. He kicked cancers ass for 14 years.
The point I am trying to get at is not all teary eyed and weepy. I have a treatable, manageable condition. When my time is all cashed in, I will not have been a willing participant in it. For 27 years I have lived in denial, defiance, and at best I've celebrated mediocrity as a destination rather than a stepping stone. Well, I am taking what I have and putting it in a Stranglehold. When it's all over it will be out of left field, or an overdose of adrenaline, just not from this. For me, from now on, excuses are for people that wish to remain victims. I don't know if I'm running from something or to something, either way, I'm outrunning this. To my friend, put your gym shoes on, you're coming along. Anybody else?

31 replies

Nick1962 2014-01-23 11:47:52 -0600 Report

Instead of putting gym shoes on, I put on flippers. Will that work? Outswim this?

jigsaw 2014-01-26 05:58:33 -0600 Report

Not if your playing basketball or jogging! What a vision!!

jigsaw 2014-01-27 07:48:56 -0600 Report

So now, you 're just a skinny white boy?
Makes sense cause it looks like your getting a ton of exercise, and you have'nt even touched the water yet!

Silicone eyes
Silicone eyes 2014-01-23 11:51:56 -0600 Report

excellent, I'm actually looking into getting certified for Scuba. YMCA is supposed to have a good diabetic protocol. One eye is silicone, so, pressures won't affect it.

Nick1962 2014-01-23 12:12:20 -0600 Report

I started the PADI course a few years ago after my epiphany and first real snorkel experience off Bonaire. Did the first 2 confined dives at the Y thinking I’d get the open water on the next vacation. Wife got Lasik surgery which keeps her on the surface, so I never finished. Swimming with sea turtles, mantas and barracudas in their natural habitats – even just snorkeling - is still an adrenaline rush, and the rewards of my epiphany.
Best of luck on the certification!

Silicone eyes
Silicone eyes 2014-01-23 12:29:54 -0600 Report

did not know Lasik excluded you, my dad has had that and still dives. My dad and my son are certified, would love to see Graveyard Alley off San Diego with both of them.

Nick1962 2014-01-23 13:36:47 -0600 Report

My wife had bad eyes to begin with, and her Lasik was pretty extensive. Also fixed several areas of retinal tearing, plus she gets ocular migraines which leave her with only 10% vision for a few minutes. She’s good to about 15 feet. She actually found about $25 in bills this last trip – first time cruise ship tourists forgetting to take the cash out of the swim trunks. Lucky us!
I’ve never snorkeled/dived anywhere in the continental US, but would love at trip out to wreck alley if I could snuba that one (sorry honey, you’re staying up top).

Nick1962 2014-01-23 15:19:12 -0600 Report

Currently in NC, but grew up in WI. As a teen I did do some dry suit in Lake Michigan as a scouting thing, but only saw the underside of a navigational pier. Wasn’t a good swimmer (still aren’t) so it scared the ___ out of me. Lake Erie has a good number of wrecks too.
I prefer the warmer coral formations and wildlife (and the infinitely more buoyant salt water) of the Caribbean myself. Great Barrier Reef is on the bucket list.

GabbyPA 2014-01-23 09:35:38 -0600 Report

Your statement "excuses are for people that wish to remain victims" is very profound. Reasons and excuses are not the same and far too often I will use an excuse. This is very sobering indeed. Thank you for sharing and thank you for setting the example.
I too want to die from an "overdose of adrenaline".

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-01-23 11:35:02 -0600 Report

Gabby I said something similar in another post yesterday. I am sure I will be handed my head but their comes a time in life when you have to stop being a victim.

Joan Rivers was famous for saying "Oh Grow Up". She is correct sometimes people simply have to grow up. In a sense, this is what Silicone did. He grew up into a person who now is no longer a victim and a person who I truely believe is going to die from an overdose of adrenaline. He is now facing diabetes and making his life better.

Excuses and resons only get you so far. Taking positive actions will eliminate the excuses. The only person you are fooling is yourself. You have to at some point in your life become responsible for your life. This is also a part of growing up. I am not one for coddling adults. Grow up, face the world and your problems. Grab the bull by the horns and take care of yourself.

I have a large magnet on my fridge that says "Anticipate Miracles" I am going to make one that says "I want to die from an overdose of adrenaline"

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-01-23 09:19:35 -0600 Report

Kudos to you Silicone. I agree with you 100%. When you become angry, frustrated and live in denial of diabetes you have made yourself a victim and your own worse enemy.

There comes a time in life when you have to stand up on your own two feet and face the problem at hand. I will gladly will lace up my gym shoes and join you.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2014-01-20 17:12:39 -0600 Report

Hey Silicone eyes,

When I read your post, I was reminded of that old saying, "life is not a dress rehearsal." Yes, this is the real deal. And I appreciate your empowered attitude. Let's all make the best of the life that we have.


Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-01-23 09:28:38 -0600 Report

Dr. Gary,

I was listening to Macy Gray the other night. Her song Do Something had me thinking. The lyrics

Get up, get out
And do somethin'
Don't let the days of your life pass you by
You got to
Get up, get out
And do somethin'
How will you make it if you never even try

I started a discussion in part that said you have to get up, get out, and do something to get yourself out of a rut. My head was handed to me on a silver platter.

Life isn't a dress rehearsal. Everybody has a life. What you do with your life is up to you. At some point you have to stop being the victim. Many of the problems people have in life are created by them because they don't want to face the reality of life. Sometimes something devasting has to happen to them to join the real world. Anger, frustration and denial can make a chronic disease worse and you have to carry all that negative weight around. If you don't get up, get out and do something, you are simply drowing yourself in self pity and that alone is harmful.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2014-01-25 22:12:51 -0600 Report

Hi Joyce,

That is a great song. And empowering words.

And I agree on the importance of having a really positive attitude and pushing forward. All that negative energy just helps to bring you down. I always encourage my clients to power up!

Thanks for following up with me, Joyce. Always enjoy being in touch with you.


Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-01-25 22:33:04 -0600 Report

Thanks Dr. Gary. Macy Gray only has one CD that I like. I have down periods but something always happens that causes me to do something so I get out of it immediately. It is getting close to a Brain Break. Have to clearn the mind, body and soul.

Silicone eyes
Silicone eyes 2014-01-19 10:31:05 -0600 Report

The interesting part about irony is the unexpected fashion in which it presents itself. While doing quite well with dealing with all of my emotions at the memorial banquet, a few of us were discussing who couldn't show up. Someone asked if anyone remembered David, you remember him, that kid that was a juvenile diabetic. Did you know he just passed away 2 weeks ago?
Well that makes three type ones that I have known personally, that are no longer here, directly from being type 1 and not managing it.
A very eye opening curve ball and harsh reminder of life's' cruel realities. Nonetheless, the beat goes on. I shall finish the race..

Sherelle112 2014-01-18 12:08:23 -0600 Report

**lacing up my sneaker as we speak!!**
When I was first diagnosed I most certainly thought my life was over!! After all being 27 and diagnosed with diabetes WAS the worst thing that could happen to me, right?! WRONG!!! The worst that could've happened was me continuing not to care about myself… Mentally or physically!! I have confidence now & God knew it would take something BIG! So, less than a yr later I'm a happier, healthier version of myself and I can PROUDLY say that I LOVE ME!!! If I have complications later on, at least I can say I did the best I could and that this experience/lifestyle saved my life!!

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