Falling behind

By mariacjuan Latest Reply 2013-12-05 01:30:49 -0600
Started 2013-12-04 13:23:59 -0600

So 2 weekends ago I was in the hospital for DKA. When I got out of the hospital I was scared I'll revert to my old ways. Not taking my insulin or checking my sugar. But I was doing good! Sugars were better than they ever were. But now, I have been slacking. I've gotten a couple HIGHs on my monitor, I feel like I'm letting myself down again. It's so stressful.

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8 replies

buffy360 2013-12-05 01:30:49 -0600 Report

Read recently that daily journal logging food, drink, exercise, cheats, are all really helpful in keeping oneself accountable AND provides a guide to look backwards after bad day to reflect on issues that might've contributed. This helps build hope and confidence to continue working to balance the scale with more good days. Last year I enjoyed using HealthMinder made in Eugene, Oregon (also on Amazon) to help me stay honest in learning which choices I prefer.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2013-12-04 16:53:03 -0600 Report

Hey mariacjuan,

Nice to see you. And glad you are here.

Here is a link to an article about diabetes burnout I wrote awhile back:


Getting support can help. Are there people in your life you can ask to check in with you, to help you to stay accountable? To offer you some encouragement?

You might also play good cop-bad cop with yourself. The voice of the good cop reminds you of how good you feel, emotionally and physically, when you stay compliant. The voice of the bad cop remind you of the risk of not being compliant. Keeping yourself motivated, day by day, is important.

You have lots of support right here. So I hope you will stay in touch with us!


mariacjuan 2013-12-04 14:33:12 -0600 Report

It felt great to see normal readings. They weren't so good these past days and I don't want to check and see a bad one. But just gotta do it. Thanks gabby.

GabbyPA 2013-12-04 14:20:44 -0600 Report

Hold tight to the feeling you had when you looked at the meter and it gave you a good reading. Remember that feeling and help it motivate you to keep feeling good that way.

mariacjuan 2013-12-04 14:02:18 -0600 Report

That sucks, and I hope he gets better. I almost didn't make it either. I scared my husband and my mom, everybody. I feel ashamed. I don't want to do dialysis either. I don't know how to turn my life around 360 right away. But I got to. Thanks for the advice, tough love lol thank you.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2013-12-04 13:57:50 -0600 Report

Maria you have to ask yourself this question. "Do I want to take proper care of myself or do I want to keep having the problems I am having?" Only you can answer that question.

Early last year I asked my cousin that question. He went into ICU the Sunday before Thanksgiving and was still there Thanksgiving Day. This is is 4th trip to ICU since I asked him that question. He was moved from ICU Friday but is still in the hospital because he treats his diabetes like a game. When he is released he will take care of himself for a month or so. Then back to doing what he knows he should not do. By March he will be back in ICU or worse dead. He nearly died this last time because he stopped breathing twice in the ambulance and was on the very edge of a diabetic coma. He also has DKA and if he keeps that up, he may end up on dialysis. He has gotten to the point where none of the other diabetics in the family listens or helps him because he will not take this seriously and refuses to help himself.

The choice is yours? Once you start properly taking care of yourself, life will be less stressful for you. Good Luck to you.

mariacjuan 2013-12-04 13:55:27 -0600 Report

No I don't think I'm invincible. My youth does have a advantage over my diabetes. But yes, it will catch up to me. I'm trying my best. Just have to get back to those good sugar readings. Thank you :)

kejo 2013-12-04 13:49:29 -0600 Report

You really have to ask yourself if you want to be hospitalized again or if you want to suffer from secondary disorders. It's easy for me, I work on a renal floor in the hospital and I see kidney failure due to diabetes on a regular basis. It just reminds me that I need to get my shit together and just do it.

You look young and at that age, people think they're invincible… Well, it'll catch up to you!

Good luck to you! I wish nothing but the best for you!