Depression and Diabeties

By PRINCESS KIMBERLY Latest Reply 2013-10-16 00:44:59 -0500
Started 2013-10-03 01:22:56 -0500

Ok maybe I'm crazy for having this issue. But I am so depressed anymore with being a diabetic.I don't want to check my blood sugar and I am to the point to I hate taking my insulin. I know I jhave to do it and I am still doing so. I am tired of being sick. I have 2 sisters they drink, smoke, and sometimes smoke pot. They live where it is legeal. They have nothing wrong with them. I don't do any of that and I have all the medical problems. I don't understand it. I know GOD only give you what you can handle,but I have had Non Hodgkins Lymphoma, 2 brain surgeries, Hole in heart closed, 7 Pulmanary Emblolis, Liver problems and Diabeties. How much more can I take? I cry all the time. :'( I hate it. I feel like I am a walking pin cushin from giving myself 4 shots a day. Can someone justtell me some good advice on how to bring myself up? Please any advice will help. Thank you all for being there for each other.

24 replies

Stuart1966 2013-10-16 00:32:48 -0500 Report

How would you like us to help you? I can only speak to the diabetes…

As you know the insulin keeps you alive right? Those other holes we make in our bodies, they are more debatable…

Maybe a "diabetes vacation" for a weekend, might do the trick? Not sure your age, living situation but the idea is someone who you trust intimately, will play doctor/nurse/EMT, and give you the shots, do the tests for a couple days, a weekend?

Sometimes we just need a tiny itty bitty break, a reset, if you will? Maybe that will work?

PRINCESS KIMBERLY 2013-10-16 00:44:59 -0500 Report

Great idea! I could have my husband put on some scrubs and play med tech. like they had in the Military hospitals. That might work. It might lead into the husband and wife duty. If you know what I mean. I am 45 will be 46 on the 10th of Nov. People guess me at being in my late 20's. No lie. Thanks so much for the wonderful advice.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2013-10-06 14:47:02 -0500 Report

Hi Princess Kimberly,

I know Rachel provided you with a link to an article I wrote on depression awhile back.

I really encourage you to let your doctor know what's going on with you. I also encourage you to get lots of support. Sit down ant talk to a friend or a family member who can just listen without trying to tell you what to do. You might also want to reach out to a mental health professional and have a talk with them.

Don't go through this alone, my friend. And stay in touch with us, okay?


PRINCESS KIMBERLY 2013-10-06 15:16:18 -0500 Report

I talked to my theropist the other day big help. My husband is a big support. I also have a friendd who is a diabetic as well she helps me out a lot. I loved you link. Great. Helped me a lot to read it. THANKS DR. GARY. YOU ARE THE BEST!

GOD'S CHILD45 2013-10-05 22:07:55 -0500 Report

Kimberly, Believe Me When I Tell U That God Gives The Hardest Battles To His STRONGEST Soldiers And U Are One Of Them. We May Never Understand The Reasons We Were Picked To Go This Life He Has Given To Us But One Thing I Know For Sure-YOU ARE MEANT TO BE HERE! Honey, STAY PRAYED UP! When He Has Pulled U Completely Thur These Situations U Are Going To Be A POWERFUL WOMAN FOR GOD. HE LOVES U. When This Is All Said And Done He Will Send People Ur Way That Is Going To Go Thru The Same Thing (s) U Have Went Thru. And U Will Be There To Give Ur Testimony And They Will Look At U For The HERO U Are. Continue To Be Strong And Fight. U WILL WIN THE BATTLE. I Will Pray For U Continuously. U ARE A WINNER AND DON'T U EVER FORGET IT!! ★★★★★

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2013-10-04 18:36:22 -0500 Report

Find something else to do besides feel sorry for yourself. Volunteer and give back. Schools always like for people to come and read to the little ones as do library's. Visit nursing homes and offer to write letters or read or just talk to someone. If you got to church, join a church group, serve people at homeless shelters, collect personal items for the homeless. There are all kinds of ways to give back. This will take your mind off of your problems.

Make a bucket list of what you want to do in life and try to do them. Your sisters may be drinking, smoking and doing weed but who knows what will happen to them later in life. Never compare yourself to others or what others are doing.

Journal, write down your feelings. Another thing that works is get up in the morning and say, "Today I am going to_____________", then go do it. Life is short make the best of it.

PRINCESS KIMBERLY 2013-10-04 18:47:03 -0500 Report

Thanks for the advice. But don' t tell me I am feeling sorry for myself. I bet you have not gone through 1/2 the shit I have gone through. I am A WORRIER! Don't you forget it.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2013-10-05 17:02:27 -0500 Report

If being angry at me makes you feel good. Go right ahead and be angry. It won't bother me at all. But when you ask for something, you shouldn't get mad with what you get.

One Step at a Time
One Step at a Time 2013-10-04 04:30:41 -0500 Report

Do you journal?
I haven't had near the experiences you've had, but I've had the same thoughts "why me?" "I'm healthy, active…how did this happen?"
I was diagnosed with Type 1 at 29 years old. Strange enough- but I've never been sick- ever. I ended up in the hospital after battling the flu (first time ever getting it) I've been through the same emotional roller coaster.
Here's what trying- I keep a small journal, I went to B&N and bought a nice one. Splurge. I keep it in my purse and whenever those cravings, anger, pity, or frustrations hit- I wrote it down. It's almost like I'm venting to a good friend, but I can do it anytime, anywhere. It helps some.
I also pray. A lot. More like conversations with my best friend. I don't want people to think I'm whining, because it could be so much worse. But sometimes I need to say it put loud. I turn on a warm shower or bath, and have a good old fashioned rant session with God.
I've decided that my job now is to spread awareness. I am so thankful I am diabetic and not my young boys (2&4) I don't know how parents handle it. I'm a mess and they're healthy as can be. I try to spread the word and raise awareness and money for JDRF and ADA. The general population thinks "you're skinny, how are you diabetic" "so you just don't eat sugar, right" "take a walk, you'll burn it off"…UGHH!
Find an outlet- we are all here for you. Maybe volunteer as a counselor at a school for kids who are going through illness; talk to them about your journey and let them know they aren't alone.

GabbyPA 2013-10-03 20:13:50 -0500 Report

Find a way to give to someone else. Any little way. Send thank you cards to your health care people. Find a child who needs a new pair of shoes and buy them for them. Give hugs to everyone you meet for a day. Little things like that can help you focus on others, even if for just a little while.

PRINCESS KIMBERLY 2013-10-04 00:44:15 -0500 Report

Gabby, Thank you so much for the advice. I do buy my neighbors little girls things just because. We really can't afford a lot. My medical is not cheap. Tonight was a hard night but I have friends I call and they help a lot to. Thanks again.

RachelChavez 2013-10-03 12:18:15 -0500 Report

I am so sorry to hear about your difficulties in dealing with your diabetes. I can't imagine how it feels to have as many trials as you have had. Here is a great article from our Dr. Gary that might help you address some of the emotions you are having. I wish you the best. Let us know what else we can do to help!

GOD'S CHILD45 2013-10-03 18:06:54 -0500 Report

Hi Rachel-How Are You. I'm Doing Pretty Good. I Have Been Off The Insulin For A Good While. I Was On It For 9Mos. I Lost Over 40 lbs Then Was Immediately Taken Off The Insulin-Just Taking Pills Now. :-):-)

tracyMCS 2013-10-03 11:16:57 -0500 Report

hi, im not good at giving advice but you are a strong person and to go through what you have gone through you are a very beautiful and strong person, my advice is to think of 10 things everyday which are positive..its hard i know i fight depression everyday..these things can be small things such as the sun is shining or it can be closer to home, example— you got up. i try and remind myself that yeah god only gives you what you can handle so you just show how strong you are. find someone to just give you a long hug especially when your crying..if possible go for a walk even a short one …these are all suggestions that ive done and have worked for me…and dont be afraid to vent to someone i'll be a friend if you want another one…

PRINCESS KIMBERLY 2013-10-03 12:53:34 -0500 Report

Thanks these are all great advice. My wonderful husband is my rock as well as GOD. He has been here with me through everything. He helps me through this as well as my phyic dr. I love her. She will even call me if I need to talk to her.