how do i face the tomorrows?

By highlandcitygirl Latest Reply 2009-01-17 17:08:06 -0600
Started 2008-12-17 11:09:19 -0600

in the last five years i have been faced with a lot of health problems along with severe mental,emotional stress. it seems that all i am doing is waiting to die! i know i sound like a crybaby, but unfortunatly that is how i feel. it is a terrible strain. please forgive me, this is probably the wrong thing to put in a discussion.

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shannonlynn 2009-01-17 17:08:06 -0600 Report

No it is never the wrong thing to put in a discussion, in fact you are doing the right thing by reaching out and not shutting out. The more you talk to friends the better you will feel. You have a lot of people here who are willing to help. You have to take one day at a time. You have to pray, and people will pray for you too. You will feel a little better each day. Never feel like you are talking about the wrong thing because you are depressed. That is what friends are for to listen. You are doing the right thing by reaching out. I wil pray for you.

myrtle - 28871
myrtle - 28871 2009-01-17 16:25:57 -0600 Report

I also know how you feel somedays are worse than others some days are better than others I thank heaven for my son dont give up if you would like to we can talk any time

highlandcitygirl 2009-01-17 16:34:29 -0600 Report

thank you, i will probably take you up on this offer from time to time. i am trying to sort out a lot of emotions right now and it is sometimes hard to get a grip on my thinking!

highlandcitygirl 2008-12-19 10:06:28 -0600 Report

i think a lot of my feeling down, was my last doctor visit. one day they will have to replace my mitral valves and arotic valve. the trouble is they wait til' it is "bad" enough to do it. i am having some terrible symptoms and it is painful,also i can hardly do anything, then with recently being dianosed with polyneuropathy it just became overwhelming! when i came out from the doctors visit my husband never asked me 'what did he say", made me feel worthless! i have to bear in mind that he has his problems too. i put up my christmas decorations and i feel better!

Richard157 2008-12-19 12:36:09 -0600 Report

Citygirl, I had poor diabetes control for so many years and I also had a lot of stress and depression during those years. I was told by two doctors that I would probably not live past my 40s. That added to my stress. Then, after 40 years of that, I found out about carbs and the new age had arrived with modern day insulin and treatments. I then had good control and my stress and depression gradually went away.

I am wondering if you run a lot of high blood sugar like I used to before I knew how to take care of myself. I realize there are many other possible reasons for depression but blood sugar that behaves like a roller coaster and causes all that shock to the body can certainly cause stress and depression. Maybe your situation is due to something else entirely, I don't know. If it is your diabetes then a good endo and support team and your own willingness to work towards good control should make things sooooo much better for you. I hope you don't mind me making this post. I am trying to help!

highlandcitygirl 2008-12-19 13:40:07 -0600 Report

i don't mind at all! five years ago the doctor told me that i had diabetes ,the numbers were 147. i lost some weight and didn't take metformin anymore. something terrible happen to my husband and myself on december 23 2005. it took til' april of 2008 for it to be over. during that time my weight went up. the doctor than said i had pre-diabetes. as of 3 months ago he said there was no such thing as pre-diabetes,said that i had metebolic syndrome. when i had lost weight i still went ahead testing my numbers and have been in the range of 35 off and on for weeks, doctor told me to eat more snacks. i did, the lows stopped and i started gaining the weight back. now beacause of the heart symptoms and polyneuropathy i can't walk the two miles i used to walk. i guess i have just gave out of steam. there is no encouragement here at home, as others have their problems also. i do go on,but want you to know i appreciate your concern.

Headsup 2008-12-18 00:09:46 -0600 Report

Barbara, I want to remind you that high blood sugar can make you very depressed. When my blood sugar is under control I have a brighter outlook and no feelings of depression. When I start feeling low and having "bad" thoughts I try to stop and ask myself, "what's going on here?" Then I figure it must be my blood sugar levels and usually that is what it is. I know that isn't the case with everyone but maybe you could try keeping your numbers low and see if it makes a difference.

Also, remember that there is no one on the face of the earth like you. You are special. There are things you can do that no one else can do. There are people that you can reach and help that no one else would be able to reach as well. We all are given special gifts. You, Barbara, are special to us here and to God. I have to control my thought life or I would be lost. Thinking positively helps me a lot. God Bless!..Rhonda

sisson 2008-12-17 19:21:33 -0600 Report

I kind of think I know how you feel! I have felt that way many times but then I start to think about who I would leave be hind and it is not worth it! I hate those times when I have my pitty party and like my daughter say's mom get over it! In these last few day's I have been in more pain than I have been in in a long time and it dosent feel good and the stress and depression dosent help! But we all have alot to live for weather it is family friends our pet's if we have them but most of all for ourselves that is what is most important! Take Care and best wishes Penny

highlandcitygirl 2008-12-17 17:01:10 -0600 Report

first,i want to say, no one on this site has ever offended me. what i have found is a diverse group of people that care for one another. and it is precisely for this reason i can come to you all and be myself! i have always felt that i was in the last position possible! so when i found myself being first in the bad luck it was maddening to the me that is me! i have talked to ministers in the past, and they have their love for the ministry. but never have i recieved the acceptance as the imperfect person that i am. yes my sense of humor saves me most of the time! but even so i can not bring myself to put on a false front. so sometimes i'm makeing it and some times i skate the thin ice. i have come to realize that a lot of people are suffering and some don't seem to suffer anything. i guess that is life! i have family and i have put them first. do i have them to live for? i would have liked to have lived a little more for myself! selfish! so be it! but i love you guys, because i feel you really care! something that my church friends never seemed to accomplish! bless each and everyone of you for putting up with the ramblings of this ol' girl! i'll get up again! you've helped me! thanks!!

Anonymous 2008-12-17 17:28:20 -0600 Report

I think we all have our issues this time of year and with the economy as it is. Some people just disquise it better than others. I have friends that have had everything happen to them and they have never shown it, other have fallen apart. But as we deal with emotions and pain and family it is a small line between handling it and being down. these days since I do not know what is wrong with my stomach, I will admit I am worried about it but on the other hand I have other things to dwell on. Like my blood sugars staying under control. My husband does not let anything bother him, he never seems to worry about anything. Maybe because he knows I will worry about it plus I will work it out, because I always do. I have just here lately realized that I cannot control everything and giving up doing alot of things. But I have my house, my family, cars and a little money so I am doing ok. Health wise I do not know yet but I will deal. Everyone has to find the bright spots in their lives and build on that. Everyone on this site can help everyone else by being positive with our posts and not dragging people down. We do not know how what we write can set someone over the edge. Just my thoughts.

2008-12-17 21:11:58 -0600 Report

Do something for yourself for a change. You deserve it. Sit down and make a list of the things that YOU want to do. Even if it's as simple as an uninterrupted bubble bath. Remember you need to be on top of your game to deal with all you have health wise so take care of YOU. I know it's not easy to take the time for yourself but you really should try. You are a funny gal and I hope that you can pull yourself out of your slump. Picture yourself with big ol fireman's boots on and tell yourself you are 'pulling yourself up by the bootstraps' and have a better day tomorrow. Self talk is important and so is self care. Be nice to yourself hon..


BeckyJ 2008-12-17 16:23:14 -0600 Report

This is the perfect discussion to start. Many of us right now are going through a rough patch with our illnesses and need to know that it is going to get better. As many have said, the one day at a time approach seems to work the best with me. I just changed some of my depression medications because I was feeling suicidal. Sometimes you just need a little sympathy. So go ahead and have that pity party and be a crybaby. It releases the stress and afterwards you can have a good laugh at yourself. Know that you have people here who care for you and a praying for you to get through this. God Bless!

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Meridian - 26751 2008-12-17 15:52:44 -0600 Report

Sometimes when I get really down I need to talk to my Minister. Sometimes, all I need is to be alone and sort out my thoughts and feelings. Sometimes, all I need is a pity party. Every time is different and so is everyone of us. A Pastor maintains your secrets. It's not a job I could do because I am too quick with suggestions. Clergy have their jobs for a reason and most of them are very good at what they do. Plus, it won't cost you a thing. I always confide in my Minister and always, I repeat always feel much better after our talks. Please try this.

Remember, God Loves You!

caragypsy 2008-12-17 15:28:32 -0600 Report

Sometimes thinking about the tomorrows is so very hard. I am a lot like you and I have this problem too. Sometimes I have to live one minute at a time to just get thou a bad day. I hope bout of us get better at this. Cara

jaclyncrystal 2008-12-17 15:24:16 -0600 Report

this is NOT the wrong thing to put in a discussion, although I have a lot on my plate at this time, I too have had some bad moments in the past weeks. All I try to do is change one thing for just one day, one day at a time, I could read a book, talk to an old friend, read the back posts on here, we all go through this it is natural and normal expecially when you have a lot of medical issues, if I had taken to heart all the letters from my 12 specialist about my fate, I would not be here today, do like I did prove them wrong we are strong survivors on this site and all here for one another, hugs jackie

2008-12-17 14:20:58 -0600 Report

I think you posting this discussion is a cry for help. Well, this is where you can get it. You have friends here who you can talk with and get comfort from. No matter what, there will be someone here for you that will listen to you and help you. I hope it helps you and cheers you up some to know that we are here for you. I will be thinking of you and hoping for the best.

barbiesue 2008-12-17 11:46:20 -0600 Report

Oh, please don't say that!!! But I know what you are saying. Somedays it's hard to keep the bad thoughts away. I have been diagnosed with Self-Destruct Syndrone and I pay the price for all my suicide attempts. Please see a Dr and tell them. I know that is hard when everything seems to be going against you, but you have friends here that are willing to listen. God's Peace be with you. Hugs too

barbiesue 2008-12-17 14:07:20 -0600 Report

I am so sorry that I came across so mean and rude in my previous reply. This is a public apology to all that I have offended.
It's just that the words sent up a red flag for me. I have been there too many times. I am very concerned for you. Most of the time you seem very up but you have posted some very down posts as well. Please accept my apology. Just one minute at a time is all we can do sometimes. Take a deep breath and think a happy thought.

Anonymous 2008-12-17 11:45:58 -0600 Report

I am so sorry for your emotional state of mind. But remember we are all here for you if you just need to talk. Just write a discussion like this and we will all help you. But remember every day that you wake up should be a blessing to you. Try to do something during the day that you like. Read, candles, baths, bake or clean(i like to do that when I am stressed). In answer to your post questions, since I have many problems besides diabetes I just take one day at a time. If I am not in too much pain in the morning, I try to get some housework done or laundry. If I am in pain I will make my bed and get a cup of coffee and be on the computer. Everyone seems to deal with their diseases the best that works for them you just have to find something that will bring you joy and happiness in your life. I know you have had alot of problems but is there not something you enjoy to do that could be done now. I will pray for you and be thinking about you today.

Debe Pendice
Debe Pendice 2008-12-17 11:31:46 -0600 Report

Are you saying you have nothing to live for, no family or friends? Or you are in so much pain, or are you just stress out or in depression?…Debe

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