I was diagnosed with type one diabetes when I was five years old. Now, almost 15 years later, I still can not get my diabetes under control. My grandpa was diagnosed with diabetes three or four years after I was and because he didn't take care of himself, he ended up with a lot more problems than just diabetes. In the end, what killed him was due to him not taking care of his diabetes and letting it control his life. So every since then, I ignore my diabetes even more because I am ashamed of it. And I just get so mad sometimes that I have to deal with this stupid disease. A couple months ago, I went to the doctor and my A1c was 13. 13. I was so embarrassed and ashamed of myself and I know I need to take better care of myself but I just don't know how to motivate myself. In month following that appointment, I got it down to 10.9 but that is obviously still extremely dangerous. I just don't know how I can get myself to test more often and give myself the insulin I need so I can finally be healthy again. My parents always give me the "you're killing yourself" and "you need to take care of yourself" lectures, but they can't relate to what I am going through and I can't explain to them that I am embarrassed of my own disease. I know I need to get better but I just don't know what I can do. So I guess what I am really asking is if anyone has any tips or any ideas of what I can do?
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