UGH!

Trishee_71
By Trishee_71 Latest Reply 2013-06-02 18:42:11 -0500
Started 2013-05-31 18:30:29 -0500

Sooooooooo, I am a long time, Type 1 diabetic. Going on 38 years now. To be perfectly honest, I've never taken especially great care of myself. I've had a traumatic experience in my life, that pretty much made me not care anymore. I was also not the world's smartest teen.

I am now experiencing "problems". I am extremely overweight, and think I have the beginning stages of neuropathy. Neither my husband or I went to college, and recently moved to a new state. He just found out today (as a matter of fact), that he was hired for a part time position that only pays minimum wage. I have been trying to find a job, but so far, no luck. I don't have health insurance, but have "pending" Medicaid. As most of us know, diabetic supplies are expensive!

I am stressed out, and stress makes me nauseated, as well as having high blood sugars. So, for the past week or so, I have been having both extreme "highs and lows", as far as blood sugar goes. This is one of those times when I just really hate having this stupid disease. NOT that I wish anything bad for my family members, but it makes me wonder why I was the one in my family who had to inherit this from my father. I have a lot of the same "bad stuff" that he has, and I'm having a moment where it just doesn't seem fair. *sigh*


5 replies

Type1Lou
Type1Lou 2013-06-02 18:42:11 -0500 Report

Hey Trishee! I was diagnosed in 1976 as a Type 1 but was already 27 years old then. I feel lucky that I did not have to deal with diabetes as a kid or a teen like you did (those years were tough enough!). My Dad developed his diabetes at age 61 when I was 4 or 5 years old so I watched him give himself shots and test his urine every morning for glucose while I was growing up. The cause for Type 1 and Type 2 may be very different but the truth is, they don't really know what triggers Type 1. I really didn't start getting serious about my diabetes until about 10 years ago when I cut way back on the carbs I was eating. I have some minor neuropathy but not really a problem. My greatest fear is losing my eyesight because Mom had macular degenration and Dad and Mom both had glaucoma. That's one of my prime motivators for taking care of myself now. My younger brother doesn't have diabetes but he was just diagnosed with bladder cancer (longtime smoker)…I wouldn't trade diseases with him. Diabetes is one chronic disease that we can usually control by making the right decisions. You're right that stress can aggravate diabetes and make it harder to control (as if it already weren't tough enough!).
This is a good place to vent and seek out advice if and when you want it. Hoping things get better for you soon!
Hugs,
Lou

Debbiejf
Debbiejf 2013-06-01 04:37:53 -0500 Report

I empathize with you Trishee, I have been diabetic for 29 years, only on insulin for the last 8, but I was 28 when I was diagnosed. Both of my parents were diagnosed the very same year I was…my mom was 50. Both of my brothers are also diabetic but diagnosed much later in life. So my issue isn't so much the 'why me' as to 'why me so much younger than everyone else'?

Trishee_71
Trishee_71 2013-06-01 08:19:37 -0500 Report

Debbie, I was diagnosed at the age of 4 and a half, back in 1975. For the first 6 years after that, we had NO idea where my diabetes came from. Then in 1981, we found out. My dad had had a couple of minor heart attacks, and was hospitalized. Since he was already in the hospital, and obviously a bit overweight, they were asking him routine questions, one of them being "Does anyone in your family have diabetes?", to which he replied, "Yes, my daughter does." They asked him if they could test him, since he was already there. He allowed them to, and that's when he found out he had Type 2. Probably had it for at least a few years and never knew it, where my symptoms were the typical ones. I was often tired, always thirsty, and constantly had to go to the bathroom. I also have my dad's high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and sleep apnea. I have 2 older brothers who have very little health problems. Just makes me wonder why I was the "chosen one".

Debbiejf
Debbiejf 2013-06-01 11:57:46 -0500 Report

I can't imagine being diabetic so early in life. Everyone in my family had/has type 2. As far as I know only one of my father's brother has diabetes (out of 11 children total) and my father. No idea where it would come from in my mother's family, her mother having passed in 1971 and I never thought to ask her about her father. I have friend who has 2 brothers that are type 2 and have been for years but he was only diagnosed about 3 years ago at age 59. He didn't know about his brothers' diabetes (men don't communicate) until he mentioned being diagnosed…so I guess what I'm saying is that they may not develop type 2 until later in life and they may not develop it at all. I have high cholesterol also but actually have low blood pressure (really weird!). LOL last dr visit it was 90 over 62! Go figure :)

Trishee_71
Trishee_71 2013-06-01 19:03:54 -0500 Report

Wow! I certainly don't wish diabetes on anyone else in my family. It's been hectic for me, and my dad would be a "do as I say, not as I do" person, so he wasn't the best role model. I hope it skips a generation at least, because I certainly don't want any of my nephews or my niece to get it. Thankfully, I have a doctor's appointment soon. My blood sugars have been yo-yo-ing from high to low. I can't get them to balance out. It's very rare that I ever have a "normal" reading. They're usually either too high, or too low. :(

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