Can I gripe a little?

By ANYSA728 Latest Reply 2013-06-07 16:42:40 -0500
Started 2013-05-29 10:36:39 -0500

I am a happy going - life lovin person, I'd say about 95% of the time. I was diagnosed Type 1 a year ago & my A1C is 6.7. I follow try to follow the rules but I break them alot too. I just get back up and pick myself (and my insulin pen) back up again. But sometimes I just HATE this stupid disease. I hate having to add everything up, I hate having to say NO to certain things, I hate pulling myself back together after a low, I hate feeling guilty for being to high. UGH! I hate even trying to explain to anyone without Diabetes how it sucks and why I hate it. They look at you like either you're not really sick or like you're dying. And then I look at MYSELF and thing "hey you didn't get your legs blown off in Boston" or "you dont have to go through Chemo" or even "OMG am I actually going to die from this or have my legs cut off one day" And I hate to hear someone say "my Aunt Louise has Diabetes "real bad."" What the h3ll does that mean???
Ok I'm done. Thank you all for listening …

17 replies

Cathy Simpson
Cathy Simpson 2013-06-07 16:42:40 -0500 Report

Right there with you.. I went so far as to have a day that I said I wasn't diabetic and it took my blood sugar up to 547. I've only had it for a little over 2 years and I hate it as well. It's just not my idea of fun to wake up to two shots before my eyes are even opened. Lol that's why I'm glad this is here. That way we all have a huge support team that actually knows what it's like because we have all had the same feelings. None of us are alone and we can vent with people that feel the same way. Lol

g-maRobbi 2013-06-03 23:52:50 -0500 Report

I am a type 2——but girl I know how you feel. My problem is they get me on a good medicine combination works great 6mo to 1yr later blood work up. Comes back not good medicine changed—blood sugars all over the place weight gain—IT SUCKS. Thanks for letting me know there is some one out there that feels like me

Maggielynne 2013-06-02 11:19:12 -0500 Report

The only thing different between our stories is am a type 2 diabetic. I have my melt downs too. Then I stop and decide that as long as I have a breath in my body that I will keep trying do what I have to do. Forgive yourself for the meltdowns, your human and this is hard. Just keep getting up!

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2013-06-01 22:53:49 -0500 Report

Hello ANYSA728, I really appreciate your honesty. 95% is a pretty good optimism quotient! But when you are having a rough time, and you just want to vent, then I think it is a good thing to get let those pent up feelings see the light of day. I hope you have a safe place to talk about your feelings, and to give yourself a break from the "positive thinking police." You can certainly vent here! Take good care of yourself, physically and emotionally! Gary

GabbyPA 2013-05-30 08:15:31 -0500 Report

Gripe...just means we are human. At least when we gripe about it, we are in an attempt mode to deal with our emotions. It is healthy to do so, as long as you keep a tight hold on that other 95% of the life lovin' person. I know I get in the gripe mode too from time to time, usually when I am not paying good attention to my care. Gripe away.

locarb 2013-05-29 15:53:51 -0500 Report

Now you can "rant" better than that! That was actually fairly tame, but I do understand. I rarely tell people that I have this condition. It's nothing to be ashamed of, it's that I am physically healthier and in better shape that I was two years ago (when I was diagnosed). People know that I exercise and have come to learn that I "eat healthy." As you know, there is no "diabetes diet", just healthy food and some adjustments for each of our unique sensitivities to specific foods. I do hear people talk about "sugar diabetes" and it reminds me of more than a quarter of a century ago when that's what people understood.

Having any health condition is a cross to bear. I'm sorry that it frustrates you (and me..and all of us) from time to time. Fortunately, it is easier to control our BG than it is to control ignorance and insensitivity.

Harlen 2013-05-29 13:45:05 -0500 Report

I feel like that to from time to time
Real bad means that they are not taking care of D

IronOre 2013-05-29 12:33:46 -0500 Report

Well, I have been T1 for almost 38 years now, since age 14, and I have broken every rule in the book a zillion times over, and I still have no complications from diabetes. My a1C is almost exactly what yours is. I can relate to all that you have written above.
I strongly feel that the stress that comes with being diabetic can be worse on the body than diabetes itself.
As far as going high . . . just know how to bring it down, do it as soon as you notice that you are high, and you will be just fine. For me I take one unit of Novolog for every 40 points too high.
I also strongly feel that I am living a much healthier life as a diabetic than if I was not a diabetic. My eyes are perfect, and every other part of my body (I will spare you the details) is surviving diabetes just fine.
So just sit back and enjoy life, and the next time someone tells you about their Aunt Louise, just tell them that you don't give a S**t about her . . . oh, and what does it mean when someone mentions "having diabetes real bad" . . . it just means that they don't take care of themselves.

ANYSA728 2013-05-29 15:43:44 -0500 Report

I was actually being rhetorical about the "real bad" part. Just listing my grievances as a part of therapy if you will. I know everyone probably has the same issues but sometimes I feel like throwing a fit. I know I could eat celery, drink water and hike up mountains but I prefer to eat what I like (in moderation) exercise a bit (in moderation) and have a beer or two on the weekends. Sometimes I go to take a bite of a sandwich or a burger and it hits me…"Dang it~! and I go prick & stick like they tell me." I'd hook up to a monitor & pump but I'm just not ready to hook up to "The Matrix" yet.

IronOre 2013-06-03 14:54:37 -0500 Report

Sorry about the two replies.
I posted them a almost week apart, and thinking the first one would never show up, I posted again.

IronOre 2013-06-01 22:26:20 -0500 Report

well Anysa,
I can understand the spikes that you are mentioning after eating a burger or a sandwich, but there should be nothing wrong with eating what you want here . . . including the beer.
If you are not seeing an endocrinologist for your diabetes then it's best that you find one and it's best if they are associated with a diabetes clinic.
They will teach you how to adjust your insulin based on what you eat, and your activity. It is a very easy thing to learn, and it will make your life much more livable.
I can understand your comment on the monitor and pump. I doubt if I will ever go that route.

IronOre 2013-05-30 12:28:39 -0500 Report

There is nothing at all wrong with having a burger, beer, or whatever you want, and I can understand the spikes ~ so what you need to do is learn how to adjust your insulin to avoid those spikes.
Since you are somewhat newly diagnosed I would suggest that you find an endocrinologist who is associated with a diabetes clinic. It will only take a few visits for them to teach you everything you need to know on adjusting your insulin to what you eat and drink. There is nothing difficult involved and you will really enjoy life more.