I've been a bad girl...

By almostlate Latest Reply 2013-07-14 10:41:42 -0500
Started 2013-05-11 16:37:05 -0500

I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes about three years ago. I've been taking 1000 mg Metformin twice a day from the very beginning. Just recently (a few months ago) 5mg Glipizide once a day was added. That has seemed to make a big difference. My blood sugar was really out of control, hitting anywhere from 200 to over 300 on most days. My A1C was over 10.
So, you see, I really was a bad girl because I wasn't really taking diabetes very seriously. I had no idea that I could start to have so many problems and manifest so many serious symptoms so early in the diagnosis. I thought I would have plenty of time to bring it all together before things got bad.
Very wrong! Things are getting very bad very quickly. I suffer terrible pains and numbness in my feet from neuropathy, I take 1200 mg Gabapentin three times a day and sometimes that is not enough to take away the pain. I take 10 mg Reglan three times a day because the nerves in my stomach are no longer doing their job of moving things through in a timely manner. I'm having early signs of kidney damage. I suffer from recurring bladder and kidney infections. No one has been able to do anything about that yet so every two months, like clockwork I have another infection.
There is a price to pay for being a bad girl, I am finding out. I really need to get my diet under control. I just don't really know how. So here I am. Looking for help so I can help myself. My appetite has gone bonkers on me. sometimes I'm starving, but more often I don't really care if I eat or not. I know that's wrong. And of course I usually make the wrong food choices.
I often forget if I've taken my meds or not, so not wanting to over do I just wait until next time. And I take a lot of meds, not just diabetes related. My health in general is not as it should be.
So, I'm going to wander around in here and see what I can learn. Maybe find some motivation to spur me on. And share a lot so I can get it all out in the open. Maybe then I will stop being such a bad girl.

10 replies

GabbyPA 2013-07-11 19:55:24 -0500 Report

I just found this discussion and I hope that you are doing better now that you have had a chance to roam around the site a little bit.

Here are some things that help me when I get out of control.

Get back to keeping my journal. It makes me "think" about what I am doing

Organize my meds in weekly pill boxes. That way I see if I have taken them.

Set goals for the day. That way it seems small and I can reach it easier. Once I have started meeting goals, I feel better about my efforts and it makes me want to work more.

Choose one thing you want to accomplish (long term) and focus on just that. You will be amazed at how many other things fall into place when you do this.

Don't forget that you are human and you will make mistakes. Don't beat up yourself over it. Make a decision to change what you did wrong or right what didn't work out. You are in control.

Don't let diabetes define you.

LadyEJ 2013-07-11 15:31:31 -0500 Report

I confess that I haven't taken my dx very serious either. I more often than not eat things that I shouldn't eat. I still indulge in the candies, cookies and things. I know that I need to get it together but like you I've been telling myself I've got time. Thank you so much for this post. You've put a lot of things into perspective for me.

almostlate 2013-05-17 17:07:09 -0500 Report

Thanks, Chopstix, for your reply. I have a hard time with that 'if it's white don't eat it'. I have given up white bread and rice which I love. I am now working on the potatoes. Trouble is, I don't know what to eat in place of them. Do I give up all starches and just eat veggies, fruits and meat? I am eating a small amount of wheat bread. I'm thankful for all advice I get. I am working at this, it just takes time and learning the right things.

Chopstix 2013-05-15 17:35:37 -0500 Report

Do you take a multi-vitamin? You could be missing some vital vitamins and minerals in your diet. Have a talk with you doctor and/or nutritionist. Eating enough vegetables? Protein? How much movement do you do every day? I mean get out and walk a half hour daily. It does not have to be all at once. Half in the morning, half in the evening. Do you eat fruit? It will take time but you need to figure out what foods make your blood sugar raise more than others. Try keeping a log of what and when you eat. Remember, if it is white don't eat it. Back up off the breads also. I'm just saying…

Fefe12 2013-05-13 16:32:38 -0500 Report

Hello. Im going to try and be incouraging, but it may be in the form of a "kick in the pants". First dont label yourself. I hate negative lables. "diabetic foods" "diets" "bad girl" Its not that the words dont hold truth to them but I think our minds use them as a crutch and we then live up to those words. Then that puts us in a whole other pickle.So, now the hard stuff. "why do you let your disease love your body more than you do?" Take some time to answer than question. It can be a hard one. We also need to understand that its a question that we always must ask ourselves from time to time. Life changes, throws us curve balls and we must always reasess what our needs are. But as you are learning the negative affects of not taking care of yourself you still are down about it. Please stop the negative thinking. Where is it getting you? Is it helping you reach your goals, or do you feel defeated by the time you get up in the morning? Take a deep breath. understand life sometimes sucks! But do we have another choice but to move forward. I guess we can choose death and bad health but Im guessing thats not a choice for you or you would not have written.for help.You need to rediscover life. the sunrises, the sunsets, flowers, children playing, a good movie, a bad movie! A hug from someone you love, a new church, The plan joy of being blessed to be alive another day. Dig into what you love to do, change your attitude and love life again. Now look at what you eat. Is it any good for you? Is it really any good for anybody? Ive learned that how I eat now compared to how I ate then is so toally good for me why change. Even if I became healthy tomorrow, I would still eat the same.Im never going back to my old ways. I love how I look, I love how I feel. Im teaching my family to change the bad habits we started and reaching out to my grandchildren as well. Although I was never heavy I am thinner and I cant believe all the compliments i get. I havent gained weight since my diagnosis a year and a half ago. I just lost, and it never came back. Of course I take care of myself, I watch what I eat and found an excersise I love to do. I have two beautiful grandchildren I want to see grow up. I love the evening walks with my husband. See, I almost died when all this disease stuff happened. Im gratful for my illness. It put into motion events that saved my life. I know this is a long answer, I dont mean to be too wordy, but you touched my heart and wanted to let you know that we are all in this together. Think of it as a club. I dont know why we were chosen but for some reason we were. So now its up to us to choose to live or die and how. So stop the pitty party and get moving, take care of yourself, you will have no one to blame but yourself. You will leave a hole in this world if you leave it. So stay here, help us all and make your mark, you have a purpose and a reason, find it and let it loose. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are. We care. God bless.

LadyEJ 2013-07-11 15:35:39 -0500 Report

Thank you for this… Many of the things you're saying I've said them to myself time and time again. I really needed this. Thank you.

almostlate 2013-05-13 17:45:22 -0500 Report

Thanks for your reply, FeFe. If I gave the impression that I was feeling sorry for myself let me clear that up at the start. I certainly know that I am responsible for my own health and I am trying to take action right now. That's why I'm here. For a little motivation and hopefully a few great recipes that I can use to improve my diet. And to meet some nice people that I can share with and hopefully they will share with me and we can benefit one another.
No pity party going on here. Just trying to improve myself and get some control over this thing.
Thanks for sharing your wonderful advice, I will need all the good advice I can get.

amyrenae1019 2013-05-13 08:16:40 -0500 Report

I know the feeling. I was really good at first then went bad :(. One thing that really helps with the medication problem is get a pill organizer. That way you will know if you have taken your pills or not. It takes me about 30 mins once a week to set up all of my medications but I'm glad i do because when i cant remember if i've taken my pill or not it's either in there or not. I'm getting back into it one thing at a time. First was being sure i took all of my meds as prescribed. I got really bad about skipping doses…etc. That was my first goal and so far so good. Just gotta look at what's making your diabetes (and other health problems) bad and be honest with yourself. Take it one thing at a time. My next goal is my food choices. Gonna start by trying to make a schedule for my food. I have a really bad habit of not being hungry all day then over-indulging in the evening. I figure if i make a meal plan and stick to it the best i can, i will make better choices for my health.

almostlate 2013-05-13 13:03:30 -0500 Report

I, too, can go all day without eating then I'm really hungry for my evening meal which sometimes may be at 8pm. I don't like to eat if I'm not hungry.
I'm ready to do what I can now to get things in line. I'm having too many health problems to let it get really out of control.
I'm still terrible about having things my way. Like a child, stomping my foot and I'll do as I please. Well, I now realize I can't be that way if I want to live a good long life. I'll be 60 next month, not much time left.