I find, lately, the most trouble I have with this disease is finding relatable ground with a non-diabetic. Or even with someone who has Type 1.
I'm the only one in my family who has Type 1. I had a grandfather who died of complications from Type 2, which it's been ten years since he died and I'm just now realizing what that could mean for me; though some would say I'm not managing wisely, I do the best with what I'm given. Otherwise, family members are clueless as to what's even going on in the world of diabetes; am I the one to educate them?
The friends I've made may ask questions, and I do the best to answer them, though I know I don't have all the answers. It's not like I'm asking them to care when they don't seem to. I just don't want it to be something ignored.
Work is probably the hardest obstacle I've faced in dealing with others. When low blood sugars arise, they would be ignored by even the highest of managers. When asking for help from coworkers to cover me for just fifteen minutes in order for me to fix a low, they tell me they don't think anything is wrong with me if I'm able to talk to them. It's so frustrating!
I'm not ashamed of having to test myself in front of someone, or to inject myself. This is who I've been for as long as I can remember. I've had my ups and downs, complications and accomplishments. I just don't want to feel like I'm in this alone. Even when I make mistakes, I don't want to be judged so harshly for "doing it wrong."
I realize this is quite the rant, but I had to get it out in the open somehow. I hope this is a safe environment to do so.
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