“I never thought this would happen to me.”
“I didn’t think life would turn out this way.”
“If only I hadn’t…”
These are words of disappointment and regret. And I don’t any human being who doesn’t use those words from time to time. Or often. Life happens, and not always the way we had planned or hoped it would happen.
Nobody knows this better than someone who is living with a chronic condition. A chronic condition introduces change, much of it unwelcome. Along with challenges and limitations that can affect daily activities, relationships, and finances, and more.
A chronic condition can bring up all kinds of thoughts and feelings about what you thought your life would be like. How other people are living their lives compared to how you are living yours. At some point, you may have asked yourself the “Why me?” question. Or “Why didn’t I?”
Disappointment is the perception that you didn’t get what you wanted or hoped for. And wishing your life had turned out differently. Like a life without the chronic condition that you seem to have been saddled with.
Regret is wishing you had, or hadn’t, done something in your past, or made different choices. Maybe even choices that might have helped you to avoid your condition.
Disappointment can leave you feeling like your life is out of control, that things happen to you, and that you are powerless. Regret, on the other hand, is giving yourself the power, but also making yourself to blame.
Either way, disappointment and regret leave you wishing that your life was anything but what it is. And they come hand in hand with feelings like anger, sadness, and guilt.
So, the best way to say it is that disappointment and regret are stops along the road when you are living with a chronic condition, but not places where you want – or have – to stay for very long. And certainly not places to put down roots.
Need some help in coping with disappointment and regret when they come up? Here’s a link to an article In Living with Diabetes that might give you some ideas.
Anything that’s worked for you? Need some support?
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