Why me?

By Anonymous Latest Reply 2013-01-27 16:18:41 -0600
Started 2013-01-26 20:50:22 -0600

Okay, well, lately I've been down. I have to get my enbrel shot, and my joints are hurting me like crazy. I've been staring at the ceiling for an hour because I wish I was someone else. I mean, I have diabetes, JRA, low thyroid,low vitamin D, and i have skin issues. I don't know what I did to deserve anything… I just want to be happy, not depressed 24/7.

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GabbyPA 2013-01-27 16:18:41 -0600 Report

Dealing with chronic illness is hard and when you have more than one it just seems to compound the emotions. There are several steps to grieving the chronic illness diagnosis and the final one is acceptance. I think it's a hard one to wrap our heads around. http://www.diabeticconnect.com/discussions/17627-grief-a-necessary-part-of-accepting-diabetes

We are not made sick because we deserve it, it's just what life deals us and there are times it just isn't fair. But until we can change that, we do have to learn to live with it or even in spite of it.

People who have multiple things going on can be an inspiration to the rest of us. You can be a positive influence on those around you and make them realize that life is what you make of it. It isn't going to be like that every day, but the more days it's a positive outlook the less depressing it gets.

jayabee52 2013-01-26 23:00:46 -0600 Report

Your mental health is mainly up to you.

My 2nd wife "Jem" had many of the same "medical challenges" as you do. RA, Systemic Lupis Erithramosis (SLE), heart problems (CHF), Lung problems, stomach probems (Gerd), Kidney problems, (CKD) reproductive problems, had "brittle" diabetes.

On top of it all she had been totally blind since age 14. Yet that lady had such a wonderful sense of humor even though she had all those difficulties.

I am sure there were times she wished she was someone else especially before she had met me.

You may not be able to dig yourself out of the rut (definition of rut: a grave with the ends knocked out) in which you find yourself, so I would encourage you to find a therapist of some kind to help you get a new perspective on you and your situation.

My wife "Jem" was such a therapist for me (and I think I helped her also when she got "down") to help me through my depression which stemmed from my ex wife divorcing me after 25 yrs. Now I am glad she did it because I found so much love in "Jem" it was fantastic. Even with all she was going through in her life. The life we lived made every moment sweeter.