Broke Down Today

By Maggs777 Latest Reply 2013-02-06 23:49:46 -0600
Started 2013-01-23 01:15:12 -0600

I'm usually a very strong person but today I had a major break down and bawled like a baby!! I'm so frustrated with all of this. I am now taking 500mg of Metformin and Diamicron twice a day. I then take my insulin shot at night. This morning my BG was 24mmol. I checked my BG 2 hours after breakfast and I had dropped to 16mmol. I tested before dinner and my BG was 10mmol. I tested again 2 hours after dinner and my BG had dropped to 8.7mmol. About a half an hour later I felt sick and just reallly weird so my husband made me test my blood again. It had raised to 17mmol. That is when I broke down. I hadn't had anything to eat since dinner. I'm still sitting at 17mmol.
The meds I am on are making me feel sick but I know I have to take them. I'm just getting so frustrated because I am doing everything they have told me to do yet I am getting no changes.
I live in a small town 45 minutes from anywhere and I can't drive (doctors orders). It is too cold to go for a walk. I'm getting lonley and starting to get depressed which is not like me at all. I am usually a very upbeat person.
Sorry I just needed to vent and everybody here is always so helpful and so friendly. It's the only place where people understand. Thanks for listening!!

51 replies

littlearl 2013-02-06 09:18:11 -0600 Report

I know the feelin when they told me I had sugar I waz like wht and ill I could think about at tht moment no more German cake no more sweets I waz like no this cnt be! I had to come to reality realize its real and it's no joke ! When my sister pass from it! It made me straighten up quick! I hope one day I can get off the pill cause I know I dnt wanna to insulin! God iz gud so we all have to sick together to encourage each other no matter wht! It shall pass just believe it!

jayabee52 2013-02-06 23:49:46 -0600 Report


I pray you can manage to get off oral medications and be able to manage your diabetes by meal planning and exercise. However Should you need to go on insulin it doesn't mean you have failed or are a bad person as a type 2.

Insulin is merely a tool to get a better handle on your diabetes!

I had been on insulin for about 4 or 5 yrs before I figured out I could manage my diabetes without medications simply by what I ate and avoided eating, I had enough of my own insulin output that I could manage my diabetes in the "normal" range simply if I ate VERY carefully. I developed a meal plan for myself which helped me do it. If you'd like to see it request it and I will send you a link to take a look for yourself.



Mair 2013-02-01 01:45:00 -0600 Report

Maggs, You are human there and keeping diabetes managed can be a bear. I am on an insulin pump and when the darn thing beeps at me sometimes I really am about to throw it throw a window. Just realize you are doing the best you can.
When you have your next check up or call the dr. that you feel sick and sometimes they can tell you over the phone how to adjust it. The meds are not one size fits all. You feel sick for a reason no need to think you must put up with that. I switched three doctors until someone would listen.

We all need to vent from time to time.

Jim Edwards
Jim Edwards 2013-01-30 12:29:26 -0600 Report

Rats! was almost done my post when we lost power! So you know, Metformin makes many people sick to the stomach. Some things that helped me was I took 1/2 after b-fast and he other after eating lunch. Want to be sick? Take it on an empty stomach. Next, OTC meds, especially those for cold and flu will spike your BS. Prescription meds such as statins for cholestrol and steroids will also spike your BS. As a person that has SAD (seasonal affective disorder) this time of year can be tough, especially if you don't get outside and get some sun. Okay, get in your car with a blanket. turn the car so the sun is directly in your face, wrap yourself in the blanket to stay warm. Close your eyes and pretend you are at the beach!

pixsidust 2013-01-26 19:48:40 -0600 Report

What little town are you from?

Maggs777 2013-01-27 09:45:41 -0600 Report

I live in Granton Ontario

CJ55 2013-02-01 02:00:12 -0600 Report

Maggs777… I used to live in the Upper Pennusula of Michigan. I lived in Sault Ste Marie Michigan and cross the bridge to Sault Ste Marie Canada. It was very isolated and cold up there. However, when it wasn't snowing, it was gorgeous.

jimLE 2013-01-26 12:00:00 -0600 Report

by all means.dont be sorry for venting.we all need to time to time..and im sorry to hear that your haveing the issues.i hope that you get better when it comes to them..have you talked with you doctor any about them? if you have'nt please do so..if you have,please do so again.somptin gotta give.and i hope it aint you that gives..

littlearl 2013-01-25 20:55:51 -0600 Report

I understand I broke dwn when they told me I had sugar! I waz like I cnt eat the things I like anymore! Then I realize everything thts gud and gud for u!

MAYS 2013-01-25 21:22:17 -0600 Report

These may interest you:

Eating well is one of life's greatest pleasures. Fortunately, having diabetes does not prevent you from enjoying a wide variety of foods. People with diabetes have the same nutritional needs as anyone else. Learn to eat well-balanced meals in the correct amounts, stay fit, and take your prescribed medications, and you can thrive with diabetes.

carlo a
carlo a 2013-01-26 10:29:56 -0600 Report

Yea I must admit my blood sugars have been high like yours for years and now at 42 I must keep them down as my kidneys are like a 60 year olds I'm eating but my urine is high with protein indicating my kidneys can't extract the proteins I felt low last couple of days I too am upbeat bit sometimes shit gets on top of you - at least you know you're not the only one out there that just finds it as frustrating at times but like you say what choice have we got I find rather than not eating eat meat no carbs any tips you've learnt would be help full I'm not one of these that keep exactly at 5 - 7 ha ha

mo91108 2013-01-25 18:27:03 -0600 Report

this may not be very helpful, but since it is too cold to walk, maybe try exercising inside your house, jumping jacks, jogging in place, sit ups, and what not. It can help lower your blood sugars, and it releasing dopamines into the brain which is proven to help with stress and depression. I hope this is helpful, I am a T1 Diabetic so I don't know ho to help you with your medication, sorry but I wish you the best of luck and hope your health improves!!

Set apart
Set apart 2013-01-25 05:58:21 -0600 Report

Hi Maggs, everyone on DC has responded to you with wonderful support. I know how you feel, I've had T1 since august 2011' and my pancreas has also stopped working. Social gatherings are limited for me now, people just don't understand D, we had dinner at some wonderful friends about a week ago and the temperature inside their home was so cold that I spent the evening fighting lows, so had a few carbswith dinner just to stay afloat. I felt kind of left out, although they raised the temperature I was already feeling yucky. Like you Maggs my friends now are limited, but I find ways to keep afloat. I read a lot, exercise is a must, I love to sew, decorate, and painting with new colors or techniques is my new hobby. I fight BG readings, some mornings I spike sometimes it's something I might have eaten the day before or sometimes hormones, stress, etc. I used to be a perfectionist always wanting to be in control, but with D I've learned that there will be days where I just can't control it and have to do my best to get it fixed again and go on from there. You're definitely not alone Maggs, we are with you, every step of the way. My D belongs to me and it is part of me, but I will not let it identify me or take over. It constantly reminds me of it's presence, but I constantly take my meds, try to eat the right foods and I keep going. I don't stress about yesterday, and I don't wonder about tomorrow, but I will fight for today!

pixsidust 2013-01-24 23:33:08 -0600 Report

All I can say is that you and I are a pair. If I could hug you, I would. Its not the same talking here as being there. Your plate is full and the trials numerous. You earned every tear.
I understand… my friend!! (((( Hugs ))))

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2013-01-24 08:28:48 -0600 Report

Hi Maggs,

I am sorry to hear that you hit a rough spot. I see that are getting a lot of great support from your friends on DC and I wanted to jump in and offer mine as well.

Sitting down and hving a good cry once in awhile can be a emotionally healthy thing to do. Sometimes the pressures of life, and the challenges of a chronic condition build up, and we need to let out out the emotions, as well as do some venting. Letting it all out can be very positive thing.

But I also want to mention that the frustrations of living with a condition like diabetes can take an emotional toll over time, and this can lead to depression. When you used that word in your discussion, a caution light went off in my mind.

I encourage you to let you doctor know what's been going on emotionally with you, let him/her know you are feeling depressed. I would also like to encourage you to consider getting some kind of regular emotional support, if possible, through a support group or talking to a counselor. This could help a lot.

I am so glad you are here. I hope you will stay connected with your friends right here on DC. Don't go through this alone.


Maggs777 2013-01-24 09:18:25 -0600 Report

Thank you so much for your reply. It meant a lot to me. I tried to speak with my doctor about feeling depressed and completely stressed out when I initially went for an appointment. I felt like I had a UTI which is how they discovered I had sugar in my urine. He didn't really listen, told me I was more than likely diabetic, gave me a sheet to go for blood tests and sent me on my way. I went back for a follow up a week and a half later. He hadn't even read my test results to know that my pancreas had stopped producing insulin at all. I tried to talk to him again about how I was feeling. He brushed me off and sent me to get some insulin. Here in Canada our doctors are paid by OHIP so they get as many patients as they can in. It is becoming obvious that people are choosing to go to our emergency centres because the care is better. The waits are now 8-10 hours long.
I just have so much going on in my life. I went to work everyday and put on a happy face trying to not let anyone see how I was really feeling. With all of that and then finding out I have diabetes. I really thought it was no big deal and I could handle it but I guess I was wrong. I have always been that person that people see as being strong. I have suffered in silence I guess and all of a sudden everything has come tumbling down.
I don't have any real friends that I can talk to because I don't really let people in. I have a ton of people I consider aquaintances but no real friends. I don't want to really bare my feelings of failure on the internet so I will stop there but thank you so much for your kind reply!!

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2013-01-24 15:58:06 -0600 Report

Hey Maggs,

Thanks a lot for following up with me. I really appreciate it.

I am sorry to hear you have had to advocate for yourself with so many barriers thrown in front of you, including a doctor who doesn't listen. Really sorry to hear this.

It sounds like you are indeed a very strong person. And it takes a lot of strength, and bravery, to admit that you are not invincible, as none of are, and that you need some help. We all need to break down and ask for help from time to time.

I have to tell you something. I am always recommending that people talk to a therapist, not only because I am one, but because I see the value. But I am also made aware, over and over, that this is not always feasible. Mental health care is not readily available to anyone who needs it, not in the US, and I suspect not in Canada.

There are a lot of ways to get support. I hope you will connect with someone who can be a real friend to you, who can list to whatever you want to talk about. But I can also say that you have a lot of friends right here, including me, who are here for you.

So I am looking forward to staying in touch with you.

Take care of yourself!


Ms. DAT 2013-01-23 17:51:54 -0600 Report

Hi Maggs! I really empathize with you because I've had some days like that before. I allowed myself to cry it out then I began to look at the positive side of things and that is that I have Life today even though I don't feel my best but I will not give up, well maybe let go for a few minutes to get it all all but not giving up.
Since it is cold then do more to keep warm as possible cause the winter weather can make havoc on your emotions and decrease appetite. So if possible have your husband to cook a big pot of chicken soup with fresh vegetables to help in the times when you don't feel like eating much but it works.
I cooked some last week myself and when I spoke with another diabetic friend whose blood sugar is up and down as well she was cooking her some chicken soup too and couldn't wait to eat it, so I hurried up off the phone so she could eat, cause once she looses her appetite it's gone until the next appetite meal stimulant comes along!! haha!!
Just know this that YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!

lacat87 2013-01-23 14:06:58 -0600 Report

Very curious…what is the difference with how you keep track of them and some of us using the other way of measuring our BGs? You're using mmol and some of us are using the other measurement. Is there are a way to know, for those of us who don't use the same measurement, how to figure out what your numbers are compared to the other way of getting the BGs?

jayabee52 2013-01-23 16:49:16 -0600 Report

You could put this link into your favorites, so you have it when you need to make conversions between the two metering systems ( we are needing it more frequently nowadays) ~

It may also be useful to put "mg/dl" behind our BG numbers so everyone knows what system we are using.

A couple of weeks ago someone posted that their BG was 20. I and several others told her to get to the hospital ASAP. We thought she was having a severe hypo. But she was using the mmol/l measurement and 20 mmol/l is rather high.


old biker
old biker 2013-01-23 13:06:01 -0600 Report

Hi Maggs..First things first, Take a deep breath let it out and smile..I am a PWD type 2 for 12 years now. Like you I am on oral meds and a nightly shot of insulin. Trust me I know how frustrating bringing your numbers down and keeping them stable can be.
It took a good month when I first went on insulin to find the right dosage that brought my numbers down to where I wanted them. And even then my numbers had a tendency to spike for no reason. A friend gave me a book called Dr Bernsteins Diabetes Solution it was a real eye opener..I came away with 2 lists one of the foods I can eat and a List of the foods I should never eat.
At this point I know what works for me and that is diet, exercise meds and an attitude that won't let me quit once I set a goal ..When the weather gets to cold for me to walk outside I have stationary exercise bike that I bought at a thrift shop just for those days.
Just remember stay positive and smile.Mountains are conquered with small steady steps not giant leaps..It might take a little while to get things figured out, but you will

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2013-01-23 13:37:43 -0600 Report

Good points Biker. You can't let every spike get you down. You have to work to maintain numbers and you can't get over a mountain with a single jump. You have to slowly climb to the top cheer and make your way back down to level ground.

I think far to often people want things quick, fast and in a hurry. When you live this way you end up frustrated and angry because what you thought would happen didn't.

You can get as much exercise in the house as you can outside. This means you can exercise regardless of the weather. Saying you can't go out and exercise is simply an excuse for not doing it. When you begin to limit what you can or cannot do, you put yourself in a rut.

You have to stay positive and not sweat the small stuff for if you do, you have no energy for the major problems that comes with life. I stopped being frustrated over my numbers and panicking every time there was a spike or a low. I patiently waited for the spike to decrease and the low to increase to normal range. When you panic it only makes things worse. This means that diabetes is controlling you and you are not controlling diabetes.

Maggs777 2013-01-24 08:40:10 -0600 Report

I am not making excuses for not going outside. Yesterday our weather was -28 degrees celcius. The day before was the same. I never said I wasn't doing anything in my house. My post wasn't about exercising it was about the fact I am stuck in my house everyday by myself. If the weather was nicer I could walk down to the park with my dogs and sit on the picnic benches and just enjoy being outside. I have a treadmill and I use it everyday. In fact I have lost 20lbs in the past month and a half. I exercise as much as my body will allow. Some days it is more than other depending on whether or not my legs will co-operate.

Joyce you always give such great advice on here and I certainly appreciate it very much. I just felt that comment was a jab at me and it bothered me so I felt I needed to defend myself. I hope I haven't upset you.

Maggs777 2013-01-23 11:12:22 -0600 Report

Thanks so much everyone!! I knew coming here was the right choice!! I am very greatful to have somewhere I can vent and nobody is going to judge me!!

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2013-01-23 10:43:51 -0600 Report

Maggs frustration is the breeding ground for even more frustration. I am a top of the class graduate of the School of Hard Knocks. Things are not always going to have the result you want. That is simply one of the realities in life.

I make jewelry. One morning I started a necklace, after it was strung, I dropped it on the table. Took a while picking up all those beads. I strung it again and learned I left out a bead and had to take it apart. After getting it strung, I actually cut the wrong wire. Beads all over the place again. Started over and dropped it yet again. Finally I cried "uncle". A necklace that should have taken an hour to make, took 2 days. I had to stop and reassess what I was doing. I was so frustrated I yelled at the beads.

When things don't turn out the way you want them, step back, look at the situation and start over using different techniques. If your numbers are not changing, look at what changes you can make with food and exercise.

You can be in a room full of people and feel lonely or alone. This is a state of mind and can be changed by changing tactics. It is freezing cold here but I put on layers and walked around the block. I came back in and had a hot cup of coffee and was fine.

I cannot drive either because of doctors orders but I live in a major city with public transportation so I am not stuck at home. If you live in a small town, do you know your neighbors or made friends with them? Invite someone over for coffee or afternoon tea if they are at home like you. That would help with the feelings of loneliness. If you don't have a Kindle or Nook, download the free app and then join EReader News Today and take advantage of their free books. I know they are available for Kindle, not sure about Nook. Find something to do with your time. I read, listen to music, watch a good movie or put together a jigsaw puzzle (I only put together puzzles of 1000 pieces or more) Go on You Tube and learn a hobby with help of a video or exercise to videos.

Finally, I know Metformin will upset your stomach. I eat half of my dinner take the pill and eat the other half. It no longer bothers me so I can take it with or without food. Good luck to you.

10fluffy35 2013-01-23 07:08:10 -0600 Report

I don't know if this will help you or not. When I started taking Metformin I had
stomach problems. Because this has to be taken with food, Dr. told me to eat
half my meal, take pill and finish meal. This pads your stomach. I have no
more problems. Take care and be strong. Good people to help you here.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2013-01-23 11:23:02 -0600 Report

The first week I was on Metformin, I was talking to a friend who has been on it for several years and that was the first thing she told me.

JSJB 2013-01-23 04:23:03 -0600 Report

Sometimes venting is just as good as meds. so vent all you want. I too get depressed when I take my BS readings. One day I am at 95 and the next day it is 120. Even tho they are in the normal range, I would like to see them around the same range. All I do is look at my diet log and see what I had to change. You are on a great site with plenty of people to give advise. There are days when I am on this site just reading and learning. Good luck

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2013-01-23 11:21:34 -0600 Report

JSJB you want them to stay in the normal range. If you are doing something good why mess with it? You know what they say, "If it ain't broke, don't fix it".

MAYS 2013-01-23 04:07:56 -0600 Report

Cheer up!
It could always be worse!
The one good thing about diabetes is this, as a chronic illness you at least have the opportunity to manage it, you can manage it to a greater extent than other chronic illnesses, some of which you cannot mamage on your own or at all.

The stress of dealing with a chronic illness, or the stress of life itself can be onerwhelming at times, crying does help, it is not a sign of weakness but rather a part of the healing process,

A plan of action (a realistic approach to your problem) is your next best move.
Seek out the help that you may need, don't use it as a crutch, but rather as a cane to help support you on your journey, a clear understanding concerning what you are now going up against is also in order.

Although your situation in life is "unique" unto you, you are not the first, or the only person who has had to deal with this, in short "YOU" can do this!
For what it's worth, life is worth fighting for, and the ultimate goal in life is to be happy!

You have found a great support group here at "DC", work along with your medical team, ask questions, learn as much as you can and cry if you must.
Take life one day at a time and it will get better one day at a time, if you encounter a setback remember this, there is always tomorrow!

Be good to yourself!

Lady.Grantham 2013-01-23 02:24:06 -0600 Report

I know how you feel … I don't live that far away from people but because of other health reasons I pretty much stuck at home unless someone drives me somewhere !!! I have no friends they all kind off left when I became sick and I couldn't work anymore and I got this good old clich type answer we do lunch … I am still waiting … It's been 2 years … so if you ever need a friend I am here for you !! :)

Maggs777 2013-01-23 11:07:07 -0600 Report

Thank you so much for that. I really appreciate it and I'm sorry your so called friends are not there for you. Joyce is right they were not really friends to begin with. I am also here if you need someone to talk to as well!!

Lady.Grantham 2013-01-23 12:07:15 -0600 Report

Thank you so much Maggs :) you are very very sweet !!! I would like to add you as a friend but I haven't figured out how to do that yet :(… Lol I am technically challenged on top of it… Lol

jayabee52 2013-01-23 02:06:36 -0600 Report

Vent away Maggs! That is part of what we're here for. I pray you'll feel better Soon!

One thing, I disagree that you HAVE to take your medications. If you feel one of the two oral medications is making you feel ill I would not take one for a couple of days. If you start to feel better, you may have found your culprit. If you do not get relief by stopping the first, then stop the other and take the first and if you feel better then it is that one which may be doing it.

the Diamicron is not available here in the US, but there are a significant number of people who are sickened by Metformin. Sometimes they are OK with a lower (starter) dose and only have problems with it when dosages are increased.

I did when researching however note that with Diamicron it listed kidney or liver problems as being a contraindication for taking the medication. There is an article on the medication here ~

And it does list stomach upsets as a side effect.

So Please contact your prescribing physician to let Dr know about this tomorrow.


Maggs777 2013-01-23 11:10:45 -0600 Report

The reason for being on both medciations is as my doctor put it "We are going to hit you hard with meds to get those numbers down". I have to double the dosages in a week. She told me she was keeping me on a short leash because my numbers have been so high for so long if she doesn't see a dramatic decrease she is putting me on insulin 3 times a day. She wants to know if I can manage and control my numbers with meds alone during the day and the insulin at night.
I have a feeling if I call she is going to tell me to continue the meds!!

jayabee52 2013-01-23 16:33:04 -0600 Report

However if you are puking your guts out that is no way to live. Do the investigation I suggested and determine if one or both of those meds are doing it to you. Then TELL your Dr that this is not working for you and it NEEDS to be changed. I don't think that things are so different between these two medical systems that somehow the Dr is your boss! I know I needed to grow a backbone in dealing with my Drs.

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