so i havent been updating anyone of my living in about two years.. sad i know im very sorry…
i was on top of the world only to come crashing down and just be stuck for the next year..
somewhere down the road of me always on here saying things about myself and bringing me down i learned somthing.. i dont know how it hit or why it didn't sooner lol .
i learned that every moment your sad is every moment of happiness that youll never get back.
i've learned that in this world of deception you can only hope and dream but you should always live life to the fullest and make the most of what you have..
live with no regrets
and love yourself because no matter what you look like age shape color or size its the inside that counts and guys lovee a girl with alot of self cofidence.. or maybe i am pretty lol yup im sitill trying to figure that out about myself
i moved out had a place where i had 8 roomates with two jobs and was doing fantastic well some way. i fell into debt and had bill collectors thrown and at me lost my job and then got ill with a sickness that the doctors didn't know what it was told me i had maybe a month to live… then on christmas day it went away and it was left alone..
i was force to either live on the streets or back with my mom so i choose her
things are tough and bumpy and just not good
shes looking for excuses to kick me out it kinda hurts that we really grew apart.
my diabeties is bad right now i cant control my sugar levels and now lost me meter so i kinda gave up and figured if i go into a diabetic colma atlease ill go happy.
i can honestly say i have lived life to my full advantage lol
i wouldn't mind going at this time..
only thing im missing is the family part of my life but im not to worried about that
if it wasnt' for my two best friends i would have commited sucide a couple months aho but i stayed strong anf got the help i needed
but for now i cant afford any of my medications because i was cut from medicade it kinda scares me that the only medicne i really need which is my metforman i cant get and havent taken anything since july..
life goes on though.
i know this is long but hey im back :D
also i never got the chance to thank everyone on this cite for so much encouragement and you guys have all been so much help through my journey of diabeties and my many other mental illnesess
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