Scared that the food addiction is slowly creeping back into my life....

LeilaB
By LeilaB Latest Reply 2012-12-15 16:01:15 -0600
Started 2012-12-14 01:06:15 -0600

I'm wondering if anyone else out there struggles with food addiction? I have struggled with it my entire life. Food WAS my drug of choice for most of my life, until last year when I learned that I have diabetes. I quit smoking and drinking about five years ago, and I guess that my food addiction had really become stronger. Over the past year, I have been so proud of myself for "breaking" that addiction, or so I thought. Funny isn't it…when you stop one addiction, others come back stronger. For me it has been shopping and slot machines…ugh…theyy are expensive, but at least they don't harm me physically like food. In any case, I am going through a very, very stressful time right now in my work and my home life, and I have noticed myself slipping back into some familiar patterns and I'm scared. Tonight, I found myself abusing pop chips, intending to eat half of the 3 serving bag, and ended up eating the entire thing, mindlessly. Then, I ate two "sugar-free" cookies…well, my blood sugar was 294 after this! I don't remember ever seeing a number that high, ever! This is terrible, and this is not how I normally do things… I am scared that I might be losing control. It just can't happen. I worked so hard to get control over my eating, and I can't let stress send me right back to where I was, which would be dangerous. Has anyone else been here before????


8 replies

Krystabela
Krystabela 2012-12-15 15:48:48 -0600 Report

I understand what you are saying. At first when I was diagnosed I made simple changes and was able to get my numbers under control. But the holidays came around that year and I haven't been able to bounce back since. I will eat a decent meal and then still feel like I'm hungry and go back for more. Or I will not feel hungry and grab it and eat it anyway. I feel that food has to be one of the worst addictions because it isn't something that you can simply stop and get out of your life completely. We are always surrounded by food and for me it makes it so much harder. I'm at the point now where I'm trying to get it back under control because my numbers have been all over the place. Trying to get into a decent eating habit isn't easy. Do you have issues with still be hungry even though you ate? Would love to know a trick for getting around that.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2012-12-15 16:01:15 -0600 Report

My recent girlfriend had the same complaint, only she claimed she couldn't stomach the taste of veggies. ( she had a severe burn and I stayed with her for a while to help her recover and I was her cook. It made it tough for me and my way of eating.

What I would suggest to you is fill up on veggies as they are not as likely to raise your Blood Glucose readings as carbs would.

( I had Sue load up on meats and cheeses - Proteins.)

Safari4
Safari4 2012-12-14 14:25:42 -0600 Report

R u religious? I'm also a food addict that has followed other addictions I.e. nicotine caffeine prescription pain meds and relationships…always self medicating my PTSD. It can be done w/God's help and my recent diagnosis scared the pants off me…I' m still being good. I don't want all those awful consequences when it's not managed.

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-12-14 07:05:16 -0600 Report

Your comment about stopping one addiction only to start another is oh so true because the process of addiction is a mental one and finds outlet in another path. Along the way, the chemicals in alcohol and cigarettes or food, keep us on the addictive path by reinforcing our need, but the process is the same for all.

Basically, it is: you consume (whatever) and feel better for a while, then feel normal; the next step is you consume and feel better, then you feel not so good so you consume again to feel normal; and so the downward spiral goes as you use more and more of whatever you are addicted to: food, gambling, alcohol, etc. That's why its so easy to "change" addictions. What hasn't changed is the process of becoming addicted. I find this to be very true of carbohydrate use and consumption also.

Like James, I find protein in the morning and few or low carbs sets me up for a much better eating pattern during the day. When I start with heavy carbs in the a.m., I can eat all day. I don't like to do that and don't feel good when I do, so I start by selecting breakfast VERY carefully. Then the food choices the rest of the day are easier for me and much more healthy.

I read a book about 10 years ago just before I was Dx with Diabetes that was called the Carbohydrate Addict's Diet. It suggested when carb consumption goes out of control, that you omit carbs for three days, then add back in low carb items like green beans at ONE meal a day for about a week, then add more back slowly. When control slips, repeat the process. I found the process to be very successful.

Set apart
Set apart 2012-12-14 05:51:40 -0600 Report

Hi you said something to James that reminded me of what my diabetic educator has told me. You mentioned needing enough carbs for your medicine, this may mean you are on a higher dosage than you need. My diabetic educator, tells me we shouldn't have to feed our insulin, check with your doctor in this because this can cause problems. You should need medicine to cover your meals and not food to cover your medicine. Just a thought! I also am wondering what do you like to do as a hobby, I love to read, sew, listen to native American flute music with candles and a hot cup of sugar free apple cider. Take care of yourself, keep cut up veggies in frig for those I need crunch times. There are also veggie chips and straws about 10 grams for 36 straws that's a lot of crunching and you can limit your portions! Take time for YOU!

jayabee52
jayabee52 2012-12-14 02:09:00 -0600 Report

Yes I have Doggier.

The trouble is that we have to eat to live. It is not like cigarettes or slot machines that you can drop them and just avoid them altogether. To maintain life one has to eat in some form or fashion.

I changed my way of eating back in early 2011. I basically followed a meal plan of my own devising with which I experimented and came up with this ~ http://www.diabeticconnect.com/discussions/14...

Now I don't claim to have fallen off the wagon ever, but I was motivated in two ways: 1. I dubbed my meal plan as an experiment, so if I failed, I eidn't fail, the experiment failed. 2. I was highly motivated to get off of any and all diabetes medications, so when I fell off the wagon I got back on quickly because it was IMPORTANT to me!

Perhaps this may be of use to you

Blessings,

James

LeilaB
LeilaB 2012-12-14 02:53:52 -0600 Report

Thank you for sharing! That is amazing, what you have done. I am afraid that my pancreas just doesn't produce enough insulin, or at least that's what my doctors think. You have made me think about it and wonder. A very low carb diet is hard for me because I'm a vegetarian, have been for 16 years, and it can be very difficult to find low-carb choices for me outside of the house, and I'm out often. I think that maybe I have slowly been falling off the wagon, partly because I've been concerned about getting enough carbs for my medicine, which can also be stressful. I think that I started to eat more to avoid the lows, but not much is really needed. I think it might have become my excuse.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2012-12-14 03:35:11 -0600 Report

have you had your pancreas tested for output, please do it so then you won't have to guess or be afraid. You can then know what your out put would be. There are alternatives to meat for vegetarians where you can get your protein.

I happen to believe that meat is a superior protein, but if you are a committed vegetarian I believe there are workarounds, like Braggs aminos ~ http://bragg.com/products/la.html ( but I suspect you may already know about them)

Nuts of any kind also provides protein, and since you are a vegetarian, not a vegan, cheeses and eggs can be a good source of protein as well. You may have to work around not eating meat, but it is doable.

So fill up on proteins you can have. They digest longer and you stay fuller longer. That may counteract eating more to avoid the lows.