I really need to vent here I hope I dont offend anyone in any way shape or form ok? With that said I will share what is upsetting ok?
1. Husband left again and stinting on money he owes to me.
2. Being treated like a child when its not all my fault.
3. Being alone during the Season of Christmas.
4. Trying not to be upset but too much today.
The husband left again nothing new there ok? This time for a 19 year old plaything. So of course he is stinting on money owed to me so I can pay my bills. Got a notice today, water will be shut off on Monday or Tuesday. No exceptions.
Although I explained about the new job and the checks that I will get before and after Christmas. Oh yeah not having that either. More than likely sitting alone at home.
Then called family member for a loan so I can pay the bill with intentions to pay back said loan. Hence being treated like an idiotic child. Who has no clue whatsoever to manage money. You live on 200 dollars with all the (7) bills in your name.
So the husband is gone off with new girlfriend and I am so tempted to find a male friend so I am not alone all the darn time. Nothing sexual but someone to spend time with and actually know someone cares. But that isnt going to work since I am married. Most men (no offense) want sexual relations. Personally I am not ready for that. I have certain people who want me to go to certain websites to find myself a new man. Not sure I really want too but hate being alone.
Yet with all that said, I am so gosh darn tired of plugging away doing my best to get kicked in the teeth. Certain friends only want to know me when its convenient. Yet if I call to come over to visit or text or whatever, I get no reply or nada. So its so freaking lovely eh?
I apologize for the diatribe of my life of late. Just needed to vent so I can refocus and find solutions to these things. So if anyone would like to post a reply please do. Just please dont take offense or be too harsh in your comments.
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