Katie Suvak
By Katie Suvak Latest Reply 2012-12-11 17:47:25 -0600
Started 2012-12-04 10:56:38 -0600

I want to go cry in a hole my doctors are talking to my mom in a room alone. nothing has gotten better with my diabetes! I'm scared

32 replies

gerry85 2012-12-11 17:47:25 -0600 Report

I am Type 1 since 1990. sometimes it is really stupid with it.
but in my Job as a Male nurse i learned that many people have bigger problems than me.
always say to yourself —> "i control my diabetes, diabetes does not control me"

Set apart
Set apart 2012-12-06 05:39:59 -0600 Report

Hi Katie, wow everyone has given such great advice. I have been a type 1 for over a year now and have usually had control, there days though that no matter what my BG readings go haywire, and I say, "what the heck?". The next day I forget about the day before and start again, I already know what I can't eat, and I am on a CGM, but not kn the pump. I know using the pens I have to be very accurate with carb counting, or else I may over correct or under correct, sometimes it's frustrating because I work out in the field, so I usually carry my foods, this helps! Take care and don't ever give up, like everyone said we are here for you and you're not in this alone!

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2012-12-05 17:27:49 -0600 Report

Hey Katie,

Look at all the great freinds you have here! You are not alone! I see you got some really good advice here, and lots of support. Stay in touch with us. Let us know what's going on with you.


jayabee52 2012-12-05 12:28:04 -0600 Report

Howdy again Katie.

I want to bounce off of Liquorish's post below and suggest to you and your mom a way to possibly fine tune your eating plan to what YOUR metabolism does with your consumption of food and drink.

It takes a bit of extra testing, but I believe that this testing is worth it. I have a notebook which has my foods which don't spike my BG levels and the following discussion I have written up a while ago tells how I did it ~ http://www.diabeticconnect.com/discussions/14...

You'll see the whys and wherefores of this method of finding the optimal meal plan for YOUR own metabolism.

I pray you will consider doing this for your improving health and BG numbers in the future.


liquorish 2012-12-05 06:24:09 -0600 Report

Hi Katie. You sound scared and depressed. How long have you been diabetic? The daughter of one of my friends was diagnosed a little over a year ago. She was very active, skinny, and I suppose ate right, although all teens love their junk food. (Me too, though I am far from being a teen). She was lucky. Her mother is a nurse and her grandmother is a nutritionist. So she didn't go through the guilt and misinformation that some of us went through. So here is the deal. It is not your fault. You had no control over your pancreas not working properly. I probably worked mine overtime because of bad eating habits, but there are too many people who ate worse than me, weighted alot more than me, etc., and they are not diabetic. So, first off, it is not your fault. Second. The complications are scary. They are numerous. But they don't happen overnight. And you can control these. By keeping your numbers as near normal as possilbe, you can keep them at bay. At first, it is hard to keep your numbers normal, because there is so much to learn. And each person is different. One person can eat pancakes and another cannot. Things like that. You have to test before and after eating (2 hours after) to see what foods raise your sugar. You have to plan. Get with your mom, and together, plan meals. Do the work ahead of time on figuring out how many carbs are in something, and how much of that you can have. And measure your foods. And have a good carbohydrate counter. Make sure you exercise. Make it a part of your daily life. Find something you enjoy doing, so you will be motivated to do it. Try to find someone to do it with. A family member, a friend, a neighbor. And each day, when you do good, congratulate yourself. Look iin the mirror, smile, and tell yourself "I did good today." Because diabetes is something you conquer a little at a time. Or at least, that is what I have discovered. Next, plan during the holidays. You won't be able to eat like you used to. Take your own goodies to a party. Sometimes I even take my own meal. But if you will eat a salad, or something like that before going, you won't be so humgry. So you will be less tempted to overeat, or eat something you aren't supposed to have. Sweets are my downfall, and bread. I love love love bread. And this site and others that will educate you and offer help or solace from people who have been there, will help tremendously. Get magazines that deal with diabetes. Also, talk to your mother about the private talks with the doctor. Don't fuss at her, because she might not realize how it makes you feel. I am a mom, and I think I might have done the same thing. Your mom may be scared or blaming herself, or confused about how to help you, and she might not want you to know all this. I would not have wanted my son to know. And I would have been wrong. Because he is smart, and strong, and would have been able to handle it. So talk kindly to her and request to be included in on the talks. About Obama. I did not vote for him either. However, the help is there. Take it. If it fizzles out, o.k., there will be another service out there that you can use. People who work, pay taxes. And part of those taxes are used to help people who need it. Like you. We don't mind at all. In fact, I am proud that Americans care and will help those in need. Alot of countries don't think like us. I am very proud to be an American. So, use the services that are there; one day you will be able to help someone. Get on the net and find every free or discount service you can. And use it. Also, my friends daughter wanted the pump too, but her doctor said no. I think, and these are just my thoughts, that he wanted her to actually see the relationship between food and BS (blood sugar), exercise and BS, worry or stress and BS, and insulin and BS. So hang in there. And when you feel down and out, write to us. There is alot of good advice out there. Good luck. Liquorish

Katie Suvak
Katie Suvak 2012-12-05 16:26:22 -0600 Report

Wow thank you that is a lot of good advice! I have been diabetic for like 8 years actually..

liquorish 2012-12-05 19:08:47 -0600 Report

Wow, that is a long time. You have probably been on insulin this whole time. I have been diabetic about 17 years, and just this last year started on insulin. I am checking on getting a pump now. You could probably give me some pointers on insulin, cause my numbers keep fluctuating. Low then high then low again. Any pointers?

manapua72 2012-12-04 14:43:10 -0600 Report

I've been a diabetic for 10 years that I've know of … During those 10 years , on and off I would do really well , then do really bad … Finally I got my act together … Did everything I was supposed to do , even took between 5-8 shots of insulin a day … My #'s were still terrible … Just got a pump a few weeks ago … My #'s have dropped and I'm doing well .,,., I hope u can get a pump soon if not@ least the shots u need .,..,,

John Crowley
John CrowleyCA 2012-12-04 11:58:04 -0600 Report

Hang in there. This diabetes is a puzzle. It can take time to get everything figured out. Don't be discouraged. Just keep trying--that's what matters the very most.

Don't ever hesitate to ask questions and learn more. The more you know the better off you'll be.

And no matter what the doctor is saying to your mom, life will go on. You can learn and continue to try and before you know it, you'll have great control. It is absolutely possible.

Katie Suvak
Katie Suvak 2012-12-04 13:14:23 -0600 Report

The doctors wanted to send me to stay at the hospital…but my mom said that wasn't an option

roshy 2012-12-07 16:49:59 -0600 Report

Katie i was 16 when i was told i have type one, trust me i understand how upsetting, hurtful and tiring it can be. i turned over to a pump a year ago but before that i had to make alot of changes, the pump is only a tool , u still have to do all the work, please remember that.

I remember feeling very alone and scared too, the doctors were very judgmental and sometimes didnt even try to understand but the nurses are great. they have more time to listen and will try to be a bit more supportive.

My advice is take little steps at a time, try and test your sugars 2 to 3 times a day. This will prove to doctors that u are making an effort to care for yourself. Ask for support from ur family. When i was messing about my family usually got angry and i caused arguments but they do need to understand where ur coming from.

Trust me taking back control can be very hard and seem impossible but it can be worth it. It puts an end to all ur fears of loosing a limb or going blind or dialysis. You seem like a very smart girl and i wish u the best of luck.

roshy 2012-12-07 17:19:55 -0600 Report

the next step id take wiuld be writing down all the reasons that is stopping you from gaining good control, then writing a list beside it stating all the small changes you could make to help yourself. Once things are written down in black and white it can be easier to think logically. If you get stuck on any you could show the list to a diabetes nurse or even your mom and they could help u . As long as you keep trying and be consistent. I used to get annoyed and give up once my sugars went high when i expected them to be normal but you cant let small things like that get to u!! if u want to talk im always on the site and u can send me message !! but dont worry, things will get better, i was the WORST DIABETIC EVER and i managed to gain control so if i can do it so can u!!

jayabee52 2012-12-07 17:14:00 -0600 Report

They didn't care, or didn't give you feedback about it? Just because they didn't say anything doesn't mean they didn't notice. If they don't communicate, we can put a lot of our own meanings, good or bad, in the silence.