Went off the right track

alesiafae
By alesiafae Latest Reply 2012-10-31 13:03:15 -0500
Started 2012-10-23 07:31:40 -0500

Was doing great! Then started eating more desserts, exercising less due to stress and frustration at work. I have gained back 10 pounds!!!! :( I'm so disappointed in myself because I know better! Advice on how to get back on the horse? Encouragement for the down trodden? Please no negativity, I have dumped on myself quite enough. Side note numbers have been fine however.


35 replies

Fefe12
Fefe12 2012-10-31 13:03:15 -0500 Report

People can be so hard on themselves. Then we feel bad and we jump back into all the bad habits we work so hard to get rid of. Ive not had the same trouble as you, but i am in the same boat. This is our life. Its not a game. We have to decide if what we are doing is important or not. How do we want to live? How do we want to die? There is so much in this world we cannot control. But we can control how we take care of ourselves and our families. Ive decided its a mind game. How we eat, what we buy in the store, weather we get to the gym. Its us fighting us. We need to tell ourselves we are bigger and better then this illness we have. Dont you want to live as healthy and as long as you can? Do you want your love ones to care for you when you didnt take care if yourself? WE are important, We are worthy! We know that because as humans we fight for what we believe in. In this group we fight for each other. We've got your back so brush yourself off give yourself that hug someone said to do and try again. Dont ever stop trying. Then again, we wont let you. Good luck

Lakeland
Lakeland 2012-10-28 20:33:51 -0500 Report

I fully understand, i did the same thing, when I first got diagnosed I was scared, I watched everything & wrote everything down I ate, I was so careful on portion sizes, then after each meal I went for a walk to drop my numbers. Now I got good numbers so I cheat, at fiirst I cheated with jello & sugar free puddings, but now it's good desserts, candy. I had lost 40 pounds & gained 30 back. At first I said muscle weighs more, however, I was fulling my self, I need ot get scared again. I'm getting ready for this hurricane & losing electricity, the only thing I could think of at first was the junk foods that don't need to be refrigerated. I thought a little more & figured I'd go out & buy fruit. fruit always spikes my sugars so I'm a little nervous. I made pasta/bean salads to keep in a cooler if the electric goes out but that's alot of carbs. UGH.

Best wishes.
Diane

irisheys122
irisheys122 2012-10-28 18:58:21 -0500 Report

You need a big self hug! Walking the fine line is a tough job & you've been doing well. You've come a long way and it hasn't been easy. So - you've messed up? We all have! Bet you're messing up much less than you did prior to your diagnosis. No more beating yourself up - just adds to the stress. Now you know how far you can & can't go…now move with positivity into the future…remembering your goals and keeping in mind that exercise will actually help you deal with your work stress. I wish you all the best. Keep on keeping on :))

Gabby
GabbyPA 2012-10-28 22:19:17 -0500 Report

I like that term self hug. I like the visual that goes with it. We all need to remember to do that from time to time.

Set apart
Set apart 2012-10-27 07:54:17 -0500 Report

I love all these replies, just know that you're not alone in this! You're only human, when I want something sweet to indulge in will do sugar free pudding layered with sugar free whipped topping and walnuts! Oh and I set this up in a dessert cup! It's great and BG numbers stay within normal range. Keep snacks around that will help sugar free gum, sugar free hard candy, cut up veggies, etc. This helps me! I also will treat myself to a new shirt, lipstick, or something's that makes me feel good! Meditation and exercise are great, will motivate you to do well! Good luck!

doggier
doggier 2012-10-26 23:45:32 -0500 Report

Like the song Yesturday is gone and today is all we have. Don't worry about yesturday worry about today.

awakening2health
awakening2health 2012-10-26 14:08:00 -0500 Report

staying on track is a constant task! MINDFULNESS is a great tool for accomplishing this. MINDFULNESS is obviously a state of mind, but it is also a technique or a tool that can be learned and cultivated. Check out MBSR - Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction. Watch out though! There is a side effect! Happiness!

Linda crutch
Linda crutch 2012-10-26 11:29:35 -0500 Report

I think the majority of us 'fall off the bandwagon ' at times, but we realize the affects and go back to what we know is a must!!

Young1s
Young1s 2012-10-24 23:15:25 -0500 Report

Hey there Alesiafae. I am in the exact same boat you find yourself in at the moment. It seems like with all the hard work we put in to change our habits, a moment to ourselves should be a rewarding break. Unfortunately not so much.

Just want to say that you are not alone in this. Please don't consider this as a failure but a test of will. And an opportunity to do it again. You've proven that it can be done, so now what would you do different to get to where you want to be again.

For me, I will be less obsessive and more creative with my foods. But more importantly, will be more active period. That was where I was truly lacking. But I recognize it and will continue to work on it.

Glad to hear your numbers are still good. Can't say the same for myself.

alesiafae
alesiafae 2012-10-25 19:30:55 -0500 Report

Oh I'm sorry but I'm so glad I've found some people who are just as imperfect as myself. I'm a perfectionist and I hate when I fall short. Ill encourage you in exercise and you help me with my snack cravings. Deal??? :) thanks for your candidness!

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-10-24 21:01:31 -0500 Report

My sister was in a supermarket and discovered an aisle dedicated to diabetics. I went to the supermarket and was literally in diabetic heaven. I found all kinds of foods low in carbs and I found sugar free cookies. I read the labels on each item prior to purchasing. When I want a dessert, I make sugar free chocolate mousse or pudding or have sugar free cookies or cake. Well last night and tonight, I had a small slice of lemon pie but since I went outside and walked around the block I am not worried about spikes.

I think we all slip from time to time. However, because I stay on top of my numbers I treat myself to a real treat from time to time.

alesiafae
alesiafae 2012-10-23 21:30:24 -0500 Report

Thanks Harlan but for me that's how I got off by letting myself have a little of what i enjoy. It turned into everyday a little and then now 10 pounds. Maybe I just have to do cold turkey all the way to be successful. I don't know, I wish I could find the happy medium.

Proud Army Mom
Proud Army Mom 2012-10-24 14:34:13 -0500 Report

Oh, and one more thing - reward yourself (non-food) once in a while - I like to go get a pedicure (of course be careful with your feet!), or when I lose weight, buy something new because my clothes are too big now :) Or maybe my hubby and I will go do something special like a visit to a museum…

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-10-24 21:07:51 -0500 Report

Proud, I agree with you. Treat yourself to something special that does not involve food. I make jewelry and rarely make pieces for myself. I took a large Citrine stone and wire wrapped it into a ring. I get a lot of compliments on it. I would love to go to get a pedicure but have not got the nerve. There is a woman who does pedicures for diabetics but she is over 90 minutes away and it is not cost effective to make that drive just for that. I think my next treat will be to our Aquarium.

Proud Army Mom
Proud Army Mom 2012-10-24 14:29:53 -0500 Report

Hi Alesiafae - that's exactly how I am - I have to be completely committed and disciplined or I will slide. And good for you that you have recognized that about yourself! What works for me is to stay very rigid with my workouts (at least 6 days a week, 30 min high intensity cardio and then some weight training) and also with my food choices (very, very low carb, veggies, lean protein, fruit, SF pudding (my little treat). If I go out, I order a salad with some kind of protein like shrimp or chicken or I'll have a steak sometimes. The key for me is to make myself and my health the priority, even if I have to be a little selfish.

Don't let this small step back discourage you - you can do this! :)

Gabby
GabbyPA 2012-10-23 18:12:38 -0500 Report

I have been struggling with this myself and every morning I wake up with renewed determination. If I start my day right, with a salad or eggs for breakfast, I usually do pretty good the rest of the day. If I start out badly with cereal or a sandwich...it is hard to keep my eyes on the prize.

I also found a new place to hike, and it is more fun than the neighborhood. So looking for something "fun" to exercise with helps me a lot.

We all go there, the trick is to find a way out of it before it becomes the "new" habit.

draco59
draco59 2012-10-23 09:33:08 -0500 Report

Hi,
don't be so hard on yourself, most of us do it from time to time. Just keep a positive attitude, try and leave the stress at work (easier said than done lol), I meditate to relief stress. Just move froward, whats in the past is over, just take one day at a time…
Good luck
Brian

alesiafae
alesiafae 2012-10-23 21:28:07 -0500 Report

Brian you are so right. I'm back on the bandwagon. Determined once again but still working towards my goal. The encouragement means alot!!!

byrun
byrun 2012-10-23 09:21:10 -0500 Report

I fall off the "D"-wagon occasionally and sometimes I jump off but, I then have to climb back on and get back to doing what is necessary. We are all human beings, we will have our weak moments and we will make some poor choices in our lives. We gain wisdom from those choices if we survive them. I think I read that on Dietcherry's profile page. I like what it says about each of us. We are survivors. I'm glad your #'s stayed in a good range. So, climb back on with the rest of us and please help us when it is our turn to do so. Well wishes for you, my friend.

Harlen
Harlen 2012-10-23 08:59:12 -0500 Report

Hello
First forgive your self its ok we all slip from time to time .
As you sey you know what to do and how to do it just get back on the bike and keep going, work at it and you will get there .
One thing that works for me is I let me have a little of the things I cant have and that keeps me from going off on the deep end lol But if I dont let me have any of the thingsthat I like I will go and for a short time I will enjoy my self way to much lol lol
Let go and pick up where you dropped off and alll will work out .
Best wishes
Harlen

Nick1962
Nick1962 2012-10-23 08:07:20 -0500 Report

It happens, we all need to take a break from time to time. You already know you have to get back in the game and you'll feel better once you do.
You've had your fun now, break time's over.