I've had a rough go at my diagnosis. I'm only 22, not obese, and in fairly good shape. So I'm still baffled as to why I got this scary disorder.
I didn't eat good admittedly…and I wasn't super skinny, but I was always active…anyway that's a different story.
I've had pretty decent BS readings for a while now. My last A1C was a 6.3 I believe? Which is over the normal limit, but my first A1c when I got diagnosed was an 11.5, so I'm way happy with a 6.3 obviously. My cholesterol also came down to normal levels.
However I get too hard on myself. Tonight after dinner I checked my BS and it was 185 3 hours afterword. And of course I freak out…I always do if it's above 140. My doctor basically said 140 was my safety net after eating. So if it's above that, I get really down about this. I just want to be normal. I can't stand worrying about this all the time…I want to worry about normal things like college and boys and money lol. Not what my next BS reading will be..
But that's my life now I guess…
I'm just so afraid when I get a high BS reading that I'm doing bad damage to my nerves and organs. What damage have I already done? Is my pancreas just going to completely give out one day from over-compensating? Will I go blind from eye damage?
I'm only 22…most people with Type 2 don't get diagnosed until they're 40 years old or more. I'm half that age. I feel like I slashed off YEARS of my life. Almost everyone in my family that has passed on lived to be in their high 80's-90's. I want that. But I'm afraid sometimes I won't even get passed 60 with this disease.
I know I probably sound like a drama queen, but this honestly runs through my head every day of my life since I got diagnosed. I'm petrified..all..the time. I love life too much. I just get so easily defeated when it comes to this disorder :(
Any advice will do…anything honestly..just someone else to talk to about this…
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