My Mom passed 13 years ago today; It was a Thanksgiving Day. I have yet to be able to let it go, and am depressed and crying most of the day, and most of the holiday season. I honor her, this day, Christmas, and her birthday with a new angel added to my hutch, with all the rest of my memories I have; and play the songs all day long;; Spirits in the Sky, Heaven and (this is not the name but how I relate to Eric Claptons' heaven, about the loss of his son) Would you know my name if you saw me in heaven, and cry to that one (and play over and over) the most. It is time to move on, But, I don't know if I can, I need help. I have lost in the past a husband of 3 years, aunts and uncles, even a boyfriend at 19, and my father and grandparent, whom I truly loved. But, never affected me as badly as this and it has been 13 years. What can I do to get through these types of days and except a close loss of a family member. This year is actually harder than most, because I have a brother living with us now, who was also affected very badly by the same thing, and took off for 10 years without any contact; Until I finally tracked him through motor vehicle dept. So part of my dilemma is that I can not express my mourning for fear of how he may react, and he rarely goes out, being disabled himself. Thanks for listening to my ranting.
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