By madsan16 Latest Reply 2012-08-21 19:28:33 -0500
Started 2012-08-07 01:34:38 -0500

I always feel like I'm being constantly judged. I'm a sophomore in highschool now. I always am scared where I should put my pump(omnipod). During school dances, if I slow dance with a guy, what will he do if he accidentally touches my pump? Will he be grossed out. Hiding a pod is hard in todays clothing. I always have that bump sticking out through my clothes. I'm very self concious with my diabetes and if I will be judged. In 7th grade a girl took my purse and poured it out on the floor. She jumped on all my things and damanged my pdm to my omnipod really bad. Girls at school would call me "a stupid diabetic b*tch" if anyone has any relating stories. Or people similar my age please comment.

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roshy 2012-08-21 19:28:33 -0500 Report

Hi Madsan,

Firstly, welcome to the site. Its great to have teens on the site who share their stories with others!! I have a few pointers for ya and if by the end of it you want to ask anymore questions please do!!

You need to report these inccedents to a teacher. The damage to your equipment is dangerous, costly and to be honest these girls have no idea what they are damaging and how serious it is. I was a teen growing up with t1 and i went through alot of the same issues that you are having at the moment. Name calling and finger pointing can be hurtful but just remember everyone goes through phases where they are judged, whether your over weight. or talk funny, of have freckles, if your too shinny or too tall, it doesnt matter what you are teen girls will use it against you to make themselves feel better- which is extremely sad. However having a pump is something that you should be proud of. It takes an intelligent, brave and well organised young person to wear and use a pump. Its keeping you safe and alive and remember, many people who have t1 can take up to 4 to 6 injections or cant afford a pump. I remember when i was switchiing to a pump i wanted an omni pod so bad but i was soooo pixxed off because they arent available where im from.

As for dances and people being 'grossed out', there is honestly nothing gross about it. All people see is a small plastic device. And once you find a guy who is interested in you, all they care about is you, not your pump!!!

Have you joined any social diabetic groups aimed for your age in your area? Having a diabetic pal can be brilliant because you have someone to share your thoughts and feelings related to your own personal experiences. I have no diabetic pals so i found it hard to get my friends to understand how hard and frustrating it can be but i joined my local diabetes group and now that i have a group of people who have been there, done that and worn the t-shirt i feel a bit better knowing that im not the only one!!!

Take care and be pump proud!!!

Lots of love, Roshy!

IronOre 2012-08-15 22:07:19 -0500 Report

Well don't assume that all of your peers know nothing about diabetes. I am certain that some of them out there may have a mother, father, sibling, or cousin that has diabetes and won't think anything of it when they see your pump while they are dancing with you.

Nick1962 2012-08-07 20:09:50 -0500 Report

Can you stand a guys perspective? The ladies have all been right on the money so far, but the garbage you're experiencing now will come to an end. It's the immaturity of high school. Some people like yourself have to grow up a little quicker. I can pretty much gaurantee that by the time you make senior, if someone tries a stunt like dumping out your purse they'll get a beat down from someone. It sure won't happen in college either.
As for boyfriends, i have a co-worker/aquantance who's T1 since her teens (she's late 20's now). She isn't shy about her condition and "shoots up" anywhere anytime. Her new husband doesn't seem to have an issue with her condition, and quite frankly, the rest of us look out for her. I only work with her once a month, but I enjoy that day because our group makes better choices for lunch because of it (which benefits me too).
So I'm pretty sure what you're experiencing is only temporary. With science these days, I'm also hopeful this won't be a life-long thing for you either.

KG66 2012-08-07 18:22:43 -0500 Report

I actually lost one of my best friends because she couldn't deal with me having diabetes and her being normal… isn't that silly? As for dating, well you will find a guy who will care no matter what! When I first met my boyfriend I was scared to tell him, and when I told him I was getting the pump I thought for sure he would leave but he doesn't care! He likes me for me, diabetes and all!

GabbyPA 2012-08-09 16:21:48 -0500 Report

And that is the way it should be. If you have friends who leave you because of being diabetic, then they really are not friends you want for long. That kind of shallowness is just how some people are. You have found a jem!

dietcherry 2012-08-07 13:22:26 -0500 Report

I went through it in 7th grade. Before I was even released from the hospital, the principal announced over the PA system my T1 diagnosis. My first day back at school the boy I had crushed on all year approached me and said Eww you take shots! I entered the Girls bathroom and a group of them fell silent from their whispering and stared at me guiltily. I held my head a little higher that day.

Be exactly who you are…always! My Grandma used to tell me that not everyone was going to love me in this life wether I had D or not. Your time here on earth is precious so dont waste it on unworthy people. Hold your head up, turn the other cheek, and be friendly. You will be admired for your ability to do this and others will seek your company—-trust me. Having D has instilled in you a strength of purpose and know that those folks who may judge you would stumble in your footsteps if they had to walk a day in your shoes. Claim this!

Will a boy be grossed out by your pump? Maybe. It doesnt make him a bad person, anymore then it makes you a bad person for wearing one. Seek first to understand before seeking to be understood. If anyone asked you about your D, educate them! Ignorance is often what drive others to judge and condemn.

Most of us have experienced bullying for a myriad of reasons; this too shall pass. In the meantime, develop your strengths and find things you enjoy and you will be united with others who enjoy the same things. Good luck and know that we are always here to lean on :-)

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-08-07 11:28:05 -0500 Report

Mads you are still young with a lot to learn. The one thing you have to learn is that not everyone in life is going to like you, love you and some will hate your guts. The most important fact is, there is nothing you can do about it.

You are a victim of bullying and if you don't report it to the principal, the guidance counselor and your parents, it is only going to get worse. Nothing you are going to do is going to make them like you. I was a victim of a bully elementary school and middle school. I stopped it once I got tired of it and beat the crap out of both bullies. By no means am I advocating for you to do this. Violence does not solve problems and can only make them worse.

You have to develop your own friends. Keeping in mind that not everyone is really your friend. They might like you but they are not a friend. Your friends should share the same interest as you. People will like you for who you are and a true friend isn't the one who takes and never gives. If you get a chance, watch the following movies Mean Girls, Sleepover and A Cinderella Story the message they send might help you. Both deal with friendship and lack of self confidence. To make friends in school join a club that is something of interest to you or ask about starting a club.

As long as you are self conscious about your self you are going to have problems through out the rest of your life. Self consciousness is very visible in all of what you do. You worry about what people think of you, if you look good enough or if you will fit in. I know because I went through all of that. You have to learn to be confident and assertive. I learned this and it wasn't easy.

There is nothing you can do about the pump. Explain why you wear it to the person who takes you out if you choose to do so. I agree, you can't hide a pump with the style of today's clothing. Besides he may be overwhelmed by your beauty and smile he may never notice the pump.

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