I am tired and getting older

By pbuckle Latest Reply 2012-07-24 14:31:30 -0500
Started 2012-07-02 18:39:47 -0500

I have had Type 2 for about 9 years now. I am now 54 yo. I used to play Basketball 3 times a week and go to the gym but for the last year I have had planters fascitiis and I am just more tired. I work at Quiktrip fulltime so I am on my feet 40 hours a week. I eat what i want and i have decided to live my life and not stare on a diet. Maybe I am wrong but it is MY life.

65 replies

jigsaw 2012-07-13 17:25:55 -0500 Report

Is your planters fasciitis healing? I know its a tough one to heal even without diabetes.
There are many things that I used to do when I was younger that I don't do anymore. Some of these things I did more frequently because i could. So now that I'm older, I find I'm doing things that I didn't have time for when I was younger. I look forward to awakening everyday! My diabetes is always right there with me. So I do a little cardio in the form of a walk, bike ride, or eliptical for about 1/2 hour, and my old buddy diabetes gets tired before I do. My old buddy diabetes is now 18 years old, and I can still kick his butt!!! Oh, I'm 64 years young!

Type1Lou 2012-07-13 13:02:50 -0500 Report

Immortality is not necessarily a good thing. When my 97 year old Mom was near death in 2005, I went back and reread one of the lesser known chapters in Jonathan Swift's Gullivers Travels (Can't remember exactly which one though…sorry). He described Gulliver's visit to a land where, every so often, a child was born with the trait of immortality. He then proceeds to describe how such children grow up and grow older…and older…and older…and older, to the point where any of their friends/family are no longer living and where the language around them has evolved so he/she can barely communicate. Immortality did not equal eternal youth. His point was, that at some point, death may be a thing to be welcomed. (At least, that's what I drew from it and it helped me deal with my Mom's death.) I'm certainly not at that point yet at age 63, and am attempting to manage my diabetes (PWD of 36+years) to avoid complications and insure a good quality of life. Right now, LIFE IS GOOD!

old biker
old biker 2012-07-10 15:05:46 -0500 Report

" It's paradoxical, The idea of living a long life appeals to everyone..The idea of growing old doesn't appeal to anyone" Andy Rooney RIP

jigsaw 2012-07-13 15:55:39 -0500 Report

It appeals to me when realistically speaking, it's much better then the alternative! The better you take care of yourself, the longer you'll stay younger!!! C'mon Old biker, you know that!

old biker
old biker 2012-07-13 16:57:45 -0500 Report

Growing older doesn't bother me..I'm very comfortable with it.I have no regrets and I'll go down fighting. surrender no way " I have just yet begun to fight" John Paul Jones

judy makowski
judy makowski 2012-07-10 14:49:27 -0500 Report

I have just turned 67. Was diagnosed with t2 in 1992 while undergoing chemo for stage 3 breast cancer. ( they said I had less than a year) Note it is 20 year later. I controlled it with diet and exercise, then added oral meds various injectables and now insulin. In between my 15 year old was diagnosed with a borderline personality disorder and bi-polor disease is very self destructive and suicidal a lot. My physical abilities have decreased as with everyone else but I change my likes and find something else that brings me pleasure and exercise. My husband of 45 years passed away 2 years ago because he couldn't or wouldn't fight to live and he died of lung cancer. I recently underwent gastric bypass surgery. Yes at my age. I have lost 60 lbs and the surgery was the easy part. These are only part of my chronic coditions. I have pain constantly. I tell you this not to feel sorry for me or to make you angry. Just to let you know that there are alternatives. It doesn't have to be either or.

I have been a licensed wildlife rehabilitator for my state for 12 years. Have just been told I can no longer take the chance of being bitten or injured any more. It is breaking my heart but I chose to train and work with new people and mentor them. I have 5 rescued rabbits, 2 cats and dog. They are to much sometimes but they are family. My yeard has been turned into a mimi sanctuary for wildlife. A lot of it I did myself and I also had a lot of help. But it brings me joy.

Sometimes we need to evaluate where we are and where we want to be. We can vent and feel depressed (after all we are human) but at some point we must take responsibility for ourselves. I have fought for life and feel I have won. Gave up a lot and gained a lot. Have wonderful memories. No I am not a pollyanna but I do believe in hope. In my mind I am 27 but my body groans at the thought. My mind usually wins and I feel I am better for it.

Controlled 2012-07-09 20:16:32 -0500 Report

What's so interesting about all of the replies to your post is that no one here wants to race you for last place.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-07-07 19:48:41 -0500 Report

I totally agree with you it is your life to live as you choose. Have you written a will so the family doesn't fight over your assets after you are dead?

Everyone on this earth is going to get old one day if they live long enough. You can sit down and feel sorry for yourself or you can get up and do something. I am tired everyday and I am 2 years older than you. I am involved in so many things in the community and with my own interest and I don't get enough rest which is my fault.

You can get better and play basketball again and go to the gym. You have to want to get better. You have to want to eat right and live your life to the best of your ability. If you choose to continue down your path, I will be the first to say "he died at such a young age". The first step to wanting to get better is the hardest step you will take. Each day will make it easier. All you have to do is Anticipate Miracles of which, even the small ones count.

mary, the diabetes lady
mary, the diabetes lady 2012-07-07 12:30:05 -0500 Report

My husband is 73 years old and a T2D for over 30 years! If you've seen any of my posts on this web site you know that a little over 11 years ago, he was in bad shape. His doctor told him there was "nothing more I can do for you." He sent him to an endocrinologist and nutritionist. The endo put him on insulin. He started on 5 units and worked his way up to 43 units. He weighted 280 pounds, had severe neuropathy in his feet so much so that he could not walk 75 feet without sitting down to rest. He was miserable and awful to live with. When I told him he needed to exercise, he would give me a very angry look and tell me that he can't even walk and I am telling him to exercise. He wanted (and rightly so) to know what about this I didn't understand.
Make a long story a bit shorter. in 2003 I created a program that we could both live with (after reading Dr. Bernstein's book, "Diabetes Solution"). Within 3 months my husband came off of all insulin and has NEVER gone back. Within 9 months he lost 80 pounds and since has lost another 20 pounds for a total weight lost of 100 pounds. Within about a year, the painful neuropathy in his feet was gone. He was in 2 5K races (walking) and finished. Recently we were in Disney World and he walked from 8:30 a.m. until 11:30 p.m. with only a 2 hour rest in the afternoon. This is a man would could not walk 75 feet ten years ago! People/doctors are amazed at his recovery. It wasn't even difficult! He was never hungry. How could he be when he ate and eats bacon and eggs, strawberries and blueberries for breakfast every day for the past 10 years! There's more to it that just breakfast, of course.
He is off of insulin, off of diuretics, off of pain medication and has more energy than I do! I don't have to tell him to exercise everyday - he can't wait to get to the gym.
Yes, you are right to say that it is your life. But dying from diabetes is one of the most painful ways to check out of this life. Sooooo many things go bad before you are even able to die. Neuropathy is just one…and it is the beginning of things to come. Things like Charcot foot, retinopathy, gastroparesis, amputations…first a toe or two then the foot. Stroke, heart attack, and kidney disease which leads to dialysis ugh!
I am not trying to scare you even though these diabetic affects may scare you. I am telling you the absolute truth! You have the right to live the way you see fit. I just want to you think this through and have full knowledge of the consequences of your actions. You can beat diabetes effects, you can live a better life than you ever thought possible. I know it from first hand experience.
Before you finally commit to eating what you would like, please do yourself a favor and get Dr. Bernstein's book. Also check out Gary Taubes' books, "Good Calories, Bad Calories" and "Why We Get Fat and What To Do About It" you can get these books at the library so you don't even have to spend any money.
Good luck to you.

Type1Lou 2012-07-13 13:06:40 -0500 Report

I loved Dr Bernstein's book "Diabetes Solution and it was a turning point for me in how I began to manage my diabetes! (I first read it 8 or 10 years ago.) Congrats on helping your husband get the good results he did. It's an inspiration!

old biker
old biker 2012-07-13 14:25:34 -0500 Report

Like you Dr Bernstein's book was the turning point for me

DeanaG 2012-07-14 10:40:49 -0500 Report

I have been looking into getting this book, just can't decide on the form. Regular book or Kindle.
Any suggestions?

watson4042 2012-07-14 10:56:13 -0500 Report

i, too, was trying to decide on kindle vs nook. but decided instead to get a tablet. my samsung galaxy tab is great! when not a home i have all the advantages of my desktop plus a large reading supply handy to use. even have games on the tablet. to me it's the best of both worlds. check it out for yourself. :)

MoeGig 2012-07-05 21:58:12 -0500 Report

You're describing a "cross" we all have to bear as diabetics, and if we carry it properly, then we can have a "near normal" life…if we don't, we pay a "really big" price. That's the bottom line. Try to think of any other disease you could have…once sentenced, little you can do can change the outcome. Diabetes is unique in that, the outcome is 90% up to you. I mean, that's just the way it is! Been T1 since 1965 and still going strong through shear fear. I am sure you can do just fine…good luck.

ston3xc 2012-07-05 13:03:01 -0500 Report

Wow! You sure opened up a can of worms! But I hear you about living your life (in the good diabetic way) and being tired of all the advice you've already heard. Here's my two cents - try and find Polysorb insoles in finer drug and shoe stores. cost about $20. Also get your male hormones checked. Men don't think about that as much as women, but it does make a difference. If your testosterone is low, you will feel tired and old before your time. Hope this helps! Hugs to you!

pixsidust 2012-07-04 11:54:29 -0500 Report

Its easy to not want to take care of ones self. I understand. A diabetic friend said to me when I first found out "that every time your blood sugar is high it becomes sticky and your vital organs take a "hit". The long reaching side affects are terrible. Amputation is nothing I want nor organ failure. You do feel more tired when you eat too many carbs. That goes for people who are not diabetic as well.

I am coming up on 17 months as a diabetic. I am 56 and am in constant pain from the neuropathy. I dream about doing better and believe with will power I can regain mobility, lose weight and live life better. Its starts with what I eat. Get some good shoes for those feet. Take time to plan your life…perhaps consider it your meal plan. I am 56 and there is no need for us to be old before our time. Love yourself. You are worth it. You just have to believe it.

Set apart
Set apart 2012-07-04 05:52:35 -0500 Report

Gotta share I came home yesterday had 6 visits with my families and some of the hardest. Little children depending on moms who are going no where sleeping all day, their home such a site, so on, possibly drugs, etc… I was tired it was late no plans for dinner. I picked up some fast food for hubby, thinking I'd eat the tuna I have on reserve for enmergencies. I ended up eating fast food from Dairy Queen thinking yeah it's breaded, but itbhas chicken, EXCUSES etc. To make a long story short, fasting BG this morning was 203 whoa! It's my fault I did this to myself. I will exercise now and work to get back in track. Numbers like this scare the you know what out of me! Take care, yeah we can give up, my doc keeps saying something about trial and error when it comes to insulin. Easy for them to say, it's me feeling the pain. As I get closer to my one year anniversary knowing this will never go away sometimes put a knot in my stomach. Lots of summer celebrations around me, this is so hard sometimes I know it! Good luck my friend!

dietcherry 2012-07-18 19:50:32 -0500 Report

Hey sweets! Dont be hard on yourself about a spike like that; over alll these years, Ive spiked PLENTY and Im still standing with no complications. Its when our BG stays high over an extended period of time that damage will begin to happen slowly but surely. You are doing great and it gets easier as time goes by, trust me!! One more thing—-Im very proud of you :-)

Set apart
Set apart 2012-07-19 05:43:16 -0500 Report

Renee, Thank you so much for this it means more than you know! You have such a way with words and your experience is greatly valued. You are one in a million!

dietcherry 2012-07-19 10:23:59 -0500 Report

Youre welcome and thank you! It means so much to me to be able to reassure those coming behind me that they are going to be alright :)

locarbarbie 2012-07-03 15:52:53 -0500 Report

I have plantar fasciitis also…today it is especially bad and can barely take a few steps, the pain is just incredible! I did great managing my diabetes for about the first year and 1/2, lost 50 lbs and was feeling pretty good. Then, even though I was eating the same, I started inexplicably gaining and gaining the weight back. I am now back to where I started, however these last 6 months or so have been so frustrating I have pretty much said the hell with it all and ate horribly. I am due for my labs and I am terrified at what my A1C will show.
I feel so lousy that I have decided to chalk my bad eating to experience and start over…drastically. I have come to the conclusion that the bad diet is the reason for my plantar fasciitis, maybe having something to do with a build up of uric acid due to glucose?? I am 55 and feel I am too young to give up. I am sick of feeling sick and sick of feeling sorry for myself! Here's to a new beginning…hope you can jump on board!

Controlled 2012-07-03 16:35:18 -0500 Report

Great post. I can't believe there's even a single one of us here who hasn't felt exactly how you described. I really admire when people maintain a positive outlook. I've even read where people have said, "diabetes ended up being a good thing for me". They are speaking in terms of their current behaviors and how they now are taking care of themselves. Let's be perfectly honest. Having a higher mortality rate, feeling fatigue and exhaustion frequently, having to be solemn about most of the choices in life that many others (most others), can be carefree about; taking medication and suffering side effects that can be worse than the condition you are treating can be depressing. But guess what; you're here.

If blaming or pointing fingers worked; I'd be healed. While we're all free to disregard medical or other advice and in the final analysis are responsible for our choices, take a look at what Armourer just posted. It's great to see that he's acknowledging his role in his care and I'm sure we all wish him better health in the future. Like him, I refuse to join the discouragement fraternity. I'm glad to see your post too. You are "too young to give up". As far as I'm concerned, that applies to any age. Try just one good thing each day; even if that's only to stop something that isn't helping you.

I'm glad that you're willing to "start over" and take care of your health. Maybe in some small way, this site and the choir of voices here are helping you too.

locarbarbie 2012-07-03 17:16:14 -0500 Report

Thanks…absolutely D/C helps to keep me grounded. I basically was just so frustrated with doing everything "right" and still gaining all this weight. Even my Dr. is stymied…I have been tested for MS and Hypothyroid (have another test coming up) and came up negative. My last a1c was 5.8 but I know it will be much higher this time. I will be adding in a lot of foods/herbs to help with insulin resistance in addition to lots of organic veggies.

Armourer 2012-07-03 15:05:47 -0500 Report

I've had diabetes now for 15 yrs and for a good part of it I had the same point of view as you have right now. I'm 57, can hardly walk and facing a big battle on a short road on kidney problems. All because I wouldn't change my course of 'doing it my way.' Only time will tell if I changed my view in time. But . . . do it your way, and hope you have better luck then I.

Degibu 2012-07-03 08:04:56 -0500 Report

Yes, it is your life. Live it as you wish, or not live it at all, it's entirely your choice. HOWEVER, doctors (worked for them for 11 years) have a moral obligation to tell people what to do for whatever disease they have, of course, all the while knowing that a VAST majority of patients aren't going to do a DAMN thing they say. Now, while eating whatever you want will pretty much get you nowhere except a hospital be, I guess it doesn't matter to you, since you're counting on whatever insurance you have to cover the costs, not realizing THAT is one of the HUGE reasons this country will NEVER have any type of univeral health care. The outrageous costs of paying for non-compliant patients doesn't allow any left over $$ for those of us who DO take care of ourselves to have some type of coverage. So you go on, go right ahead, eat what you want, do what you want, just hope that you've planned your funeral and taken care of any family you may have by providing them with some type of life insurance. I'm sure all of this offends you, but I don't care. In my opinion, your way of thinking is extremely selfish and self-centered. Care about other people much?

mariantlibrarian 2012-07-03 15:24:33 -0500 Report

ok, as a type 1 diabetic that cannot seem to get her bg under control I take some offense to this. I am, however, wondering, if you are saying that all the other countries that do have universal health care coverage have 100% compliance by their patients?

Degibu 2012-07-05 07:49:37 -0500 Report

Please don't take offense at that. It's not the way it was intended. I know lots of people who have trouble getting their #'s under control. I get truly pissed off at people who don't TRY. Those who don't take the meds, don't listen to the doctors, don't eat the way they should. Sometimes it just takes getting on the right meds. Now there is also a condition known as Insulin Resistance. That could be a problem for you, I don't know. I would speak to your doctor about it. Now, one other problem with this country and universal health care is that we're just too damn big. While Canada is huge, it's population is small. England is a small country also, just to name a few. I'm sure they don't nearly have 100% compliance, they just have fewer people to cover that's all. So again, sorry if I offended you. I certainly didn't mean to.

pbuckle 2012-07-03 05:31:53 -0500 Report

You have missed the point. I have not given up. I have friends who are diabetic and I know how tough it is. I take my meds and watch what i eat. I am just saying I am tired of the Professionals telling us what we HAVE to do. Jayebee52 get off your High Horse you know NOTHING about me or my life. I do not judge any of you. I have just made a statement. We have our own life and our own battles. Do not think YOU are better than any of us. I know what lies ahead and I will keep going but on MY terms.

Type1Lou 2012-07-13 13:12:12 -0500 Report

Jayabee is gracious enough to share his experiences and what has worked for him. If you choose to disregard his solutions, that is entirely your choice but don't denigrate him for sharing methods and tips that have helped many here.

Wound Lady
Wound Lady 2012-07-05 08:56:29 -0500 Report

You have the wrong attitude. Don't get mad get happy. Things in life are not prefect let alone people. Where is all that anger coming from. This is the most loving group of people on diabeticconection you would ever meet. This is a discussion to help each other. No one is trying to make any one mad just help and give what has worked for them. Add cimmamon to your daily life to help control your blood sugar. I take 2000 mg caplets with every meal even when I'm sick. I have been off Actos for 3 months now and only taking Mediform 500mg twice a day and Lantus 20 units. All persons on DC will be here to help you if you ask. I'm a wound care nurse at a hospital and see the damages of diabetic to feet.
I'm a little like you about the Dr. telling me what to take so I have been in control for a long while of what I take.

Controlled 2012-07-03 14:13:28 -0500 Report

I don't think Jayebee52 was judging you, nor am I. Whether you're honest enough to admit it or not, there must be a motivation for you to post on a site where people encourage each other to be medically and nutritionally compliant in living with, recovering and controlling health conditions. If you're convinced that "Professionals" are telling you what you "HAVE" to do, then find another professional. If you think that you know more than them, then go ahead and address your healthcare on your own. Had you merely stated that you are frustrated or discouraged, I'm sure that you would have received a different audience. If you don't care how people respond, why post here at all?

You have posted by and large the same comments for a while now. So, go ahead and ignore your "Professionals" but don't be surprised when you return to post here and state that you aren't doing well that people will be honest enough to point out to you that you brought much of this on yourself.

You can respond to my response in anger or make disparaging comments if that's what you're really looking for. You have now established that you don't want "Professionals" telling you what to do, and as I mentioned, if you won't take their advice, why see them? Similarly, if you don't like how people respond to you, why post here? Hopefully you have vented, if that's what you're doing, and now can decide what is best for you.

This is a "support" group. Many of us have established relationships, albeit virtual relationships, with the knowledge we will probably never meet in "real" life. That takes time and contribution. I hope you accomplished what you hoped for when you initially posted and subsequently responded. I don't see how you have benefited or even expected to, with what you have written.

granniesophie 2012-07-03 05:46:34 -0500 Report

As long as there are doctors they will continue to tell us how to live! You are the only one who knows your own body and how it reacts to things. It is up to you to decide how you will accept, or not, your Diabetes.
If you reread your statement above, I think we all DID get the point you were making, perhaps it was the statement itself we were reacting to.
It's certainly okay to vent here, we all do it, and we support it other with that, but your statement made us all feel like you had indeed given up on doing the right things, and so got us riled up enough to tell you to cut it out.
Yes, we will support and help and listen, no one here is better than another, but you need to understand that statements like the one you made are counterproductive and lead us to believe that you just don't care about yourself, and we don't like to hear that.
You don't know what each of us is going through either, perhaps you should ask-we all have stories, we all want to give up sometimes, and we all say so and accept the support as it is given, and we all get that sometimes we deserve a little kick in the pants because the statement we have made is not really what we meant to say and we needed to perhaps say more…
Lets not jump on people for responding to a statement as it was written, that is extremely counterproductive too, and certainly those people can sometimes give the best help and advice. They have been through what you have, and more.
As I said before, don't kid a kidder.

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2012-07-03 03:08:49 -0500 Report

My Dad used to say it was no fun getting older, as he dealt with the consequences of a few chronic conditions. ''But it sure beats the alternative''.

DeanaG 2012-07-13 11:53:17 -0500 Report

Getting old isn't for sissys!!

dietcherry 2012-07-13 11:56:18 -0500 Report

Deanna could you please go to your inbox and tell me if you got the 2 messages I sent you! I posted on your profile too I need to know if theres a problem b4 Alliance leaves for the weekend!!

DeanaG 2012-07-13 12:15:18 -0500 Report

I just received your messages and went and logged out and then logged back in with no problems.

old biker
old biker 2012-07-03 09:17:12 -0500 Report

Youth is a wonderful thing!!! to bad it's wasted on the young :-)

Wound Lady
Wound Lady 2012-07-05 08:43:32 -0500 Report

Yes youth is a wonderful thing but so is older & wiser. You are as old as you feel and I feel 29 today.:)

CJ55 2012-07-07 02:40:38 -0500 Report

Lol. Good for you Wound Lady. I wish I felt that young today as well.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :-)

Wound Lady
Wound Lady 2012-07-24 14:31:30 -0500 Report

Hi! Hope you are feeling better on this hot day in Oklahoma. I'm a little warm. Been in the 100's + for the last few weeks.

locarbarbie 2012-07-03 15:32:02 -0500 Report

Isn't that the truth!…I sometimes wish that I could go back and do it all over again, but with the knowledge and insight gained over the years.

old biker
old biker 2012-07-03 15:48:12 -0500 Report

But that would take the fun out of it..They say you learn from your mistakes, well if that's true I should be a genius by now..LOL

flgrammy 2012-07-03 00:33:45 -0500 Report

pbuckle you sound like you have given up trying. Unfortunately the only one who will pay the price for not following your diabetic plan is you. Take it from me, I am a type I diabetic for 23 years and the complications of this disease are setting in at an alarming rate. Please reconsider for your own sake. This is not a road I would wish for anyone to walk.

granniesophie 2012-07-02 23:30:15 -0500 Report

May I repectfully say-don't kid a kidder! We all have issues, we all want to live our lives, and we all want to give up and just not do it anymore. But ya know what, we suck it up and continue on. We all have things that make us want to live, so we do, No one can tell you that you shouldn't feel like this sucks once in a while, but there are people out there worse off than you and they want to live, and they do just fine.
And who says you have to be on a diet anyway?? Eat what you want, just a whole lot less of it, and not all the time, and balance it with stuff thats good for you.
And so what you work 40 hours a week on your feet on the time. Be grateful you have a job and one that provides insurance at that. Many here don't have insurance, or even a job for that matter, and would be more than happy to have what you do.
No one can tell you not to feel sorry for yourself once in a while, we all do, but then reality sets in, we put on our big girl panties and move on. I suggest you do the same.

GabbyPA 2012-07-02 21:40:37 -0500 Report

The only thing for sure about life, chronically ill or not, is that it changes. So it is our choice to make it a fun filled life and a long one or to do things that can shorten it. We can do everything right, and still get sick. We can do everything wrong and live to be over 100.

So I suppose doing what you want is okay, until what you want is to wish you had made better choices when you had the chance. Giving up is easy. Living with giving up is a lot harder.

mammaG 2012-07-07 02:59:17 -0500 Report

Like the above remarks. My b.s. is all over the place and I've decided to quit blaming myself, and take a smaller portion next time. when I stress to much b.s. go up so that tells me its time to chillout. foir me the calmer I am The better life goes

jayabee52 2012-07-02 20:02:56 -0500 Report

Are you expecting us to try to talk you out of your opinion, or are you simply trying to bring down those of us who are managing our diabetes successfully?

Posting things like this repeatedly, I suspect it is the latter. I am truly sorry for you! But I am not going to lose any sleep over your self-destructive course.

The fact of the matter is we are ALL getting older.

Wound Lady
Wound Lady 2012-07-05 09:06:32 -0500 Report

Good Morning Top of the morning to ya. Had 3 cups of coffee for ya this morning. Why can't every one be happy with what God give us and work with what we have? Hope you are starting a good day and will continue good health.

herigoagain1 2012-07-04 19:43:00 -0500 Report

I agree with you. I have days where I might be depressed over my health issues but then think of how my wife sat day and night beside my bed while I was trying my best to die from cancer and my depression goes away. I hope everyone on here has the love and dedication from their loved ones that I found in mine. I agree we are all getting older but that doesn't have to be a bad thing. There are a few perks from getting older..Have a great one jayabee. You are an inspiration.

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