By gohappy Latest Reply 2013-04-16 18:23:43 -0500
Started 2012-07-01 13:29:24 -0500

I am new to the group, let me tell you a bit about myself. I am 43 yrs. old, and was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes 8 years ago. My a1c at the original time of diagnosis was 8%. I was shocked to be told that I had diabetes, but hit the ground running, lost 50 lbs. and had my blood sugars stabilized in about 12 weeks. My hemoglobin a1c went down to 5.5% and stayed there for several years.
Cut to now… I had not been for my yearly physical exam for 2 years. I had gained 25 lbs. back and fooled myself into thinking that I had my blood sugar under control. Imagine my surprise when the nurse took blood sugar test and it read "325" on the monitor. Yikes. My a1c came back at an astounding 11%.
My Dr. put me on metformin and I have been back to following a strict diet since my visit last week. I am so disgusted with myself and scared. I have moments that I feel strong, and ready to battle this once again, and moments when I want to crawl into bed and cry. I would love to hear encouragement from anyone who has gone through this also. Do you think I have gone too far off track to ever regain control again?

33 replies

Juan M.
Juan M. 2012-07-21 13:36:45 -0500 Report

Your story is so close to mine. I have recently gave the disease the respect and attention it requires and have gotten my numbers back in line. My doctor was impressed, my wife supportive but I felt a great sense of accomplishment! It's a way if life now. Walking, running & bike riding is being looked forward to.

Here's the thing, diabetes can be managed, and easy for numbers to change. When you put in the work of diet, exercise, dr's advice then see and feel results; u get chances to celebrate! Hang in there, take one step at a time and don't take failure as an excuse! I'm pulling for you!

herigoagain1 2012-07-05 19:18:08 -0500 Report

Sounds to me like you're being human. We all do something we regret. That;s why they say hindsight is such a great thing. The important thing here is your realize what it takes and you will get it back under control. We all lose it at some point but what matters is if we wake up to reality before it's too late and it sounds like you have. I was just diagnosed about 3 months ago and it almost sounded like me writing the way I felt when I was told. I feel your pain with that one. The important thing is to make sure you take care of yourself now. My a1c was 11 the very first time they took it and my average glucose for the 3 month period was 260. I now have mine under total control and so will you. I will sure be in your corner rooting for you. I have already come to the realization that this isn't something you can do alone. Thank God for all of you great people on here. You might not know it but you have all made a big difference for me and I thank everyone of you for it. Have a great evening and please take care of yourself. You will do great.

mystikfairy61 2012-07-31 23:05:55 -0500 Report

I was diagnosed in April as well, but since the doctor only has me testing once a day and I haven't seen a nutritionist yet so I don't have a clue on how to decide what and when to eat, mine are not under good control yet. Better than when I was diagnosed, BS was 382 and HbgA1c was 9.5%. Now my fasting BG run from 110 to 150, I never know what to expect. Any suggestion on how to start to really get this under control? Had to change meds 3 times as well and I am sure that didn't help.

Lelebell82 2012-07-05 14:59:18 -0500 Report

Sorry you are feeling this way. I think we all get that feeling of wanting to crawl into bed and cry but I have faith in you that you can start feeling better. This is all new to me and the first month all I did was cry. This community is amazing and supportive and I think we all motivate each other. Good luck and I think you can definitely regain control.

wholegrains 2012-07-04 17:08:07 -0500 Report

people just don't realize how difficult this disease can be. I know had no idea until I was diagnosed with full blown diabetes.

watson4042 2012-07-03 12:49:55 -0500 Report

listen to old biker. what he said is true, you can do it and this is the place for encouragement as you battle back into good bs control.

tabby9146 2012-07-03 09:59:38 -0500 Report

you can regain control it's hard, it will take a little while but you can do it. I think with most people, maybe not all, if you want it bad enough, you can do it. I worry a little that may be how I will be in the future, I was diagnosed in 2008, lost all weight, strict, still fairly strict, though not as much, have not regained any of it, good cholesterol, good blood pressure, good A1C, good BS numbers, but…I sure do wonder how long will this last…good luck to you!

old biker
old biker 2012-07-03 06:44:24 -0500 Report

OK!!! Take a deep breath, hold it count to 10 and let it out..Now repeat after me I did this before and I can do this again..
Next you need to come to terms, that you have diabetes, a scary reality, but no means the end of the world, and to handle this and control it requires a life time commitment to your well being and health.
The steps you take today is just a foundation to build on..Make this your wake up call. Most of us have had one.
When you hit the ground running this time, don't stop, and don't look back..Remember even when you stumble you are still moving forward. And if you slow down and need a push remember we are all here behind you.
Much luck and good fortune on your journey thru life

wholegrains 2012-07-04 17:09:57 -0500 Report

profound brother! thanks!

elba237 2013-04-16 18:23:43 -0500 Report

I am type 1 diabetic since 37 years. Of course is not easy and most people just think about this like an obstaculre for us to avoid sweets. But of course it is more than that. Only us can make ourselves more strong than this condition (I decide not to call it as an illness cause make me feel depress :) ). Our actitude, our own decisions will make us to deal and to control the conditon and all the challenges it bring to us. We are behind you to push you to go on. I know what I am talking about, more than 3 decades of fighting make me learn a lot. I do control this and we can help you control it too.

TsalagiLenape 2012-07-03 07:14:19 -0500 Report

I agree with Old Biker! He saysit best and take time to remember that you will succeed. No worries and we will help whenever we can. Hugs

Nick1962 2012-07-02 14:56:17 -0500 Report

We all slip, if we didn't management would be way too easy. But now you know where you tripped last time and can avoid that this time. Try to make your #1 priority yourself and make this a job you'll get good at. It's never too late to try again, the only failure would be not trying.

gohappy 2012-07-02 07:43:00 -0500 Report

Thank you for the words of encouragement everyone… I appreciate your support more than you could ever know. Today is a new day, and yes… as Just Joyce said…I will anticipate a miracle as I work toward my goals. I will keep you updated on the progress!

Set apart
Set apart 2012-07-02 06:00:35 -0500 Report

Welcome to DC, it's so hard with D not to get down at times. For me when this happens I realize that I am letting D win and that's not ME! For example for dinner yesterday we had a nice cookout with friends. These friends are tuned in to a lot of changes in my diet, we had fresh and grilled veggies, turkey burgers, and I didn't touch my German
Potato salad. What gives though this morning BG way too high, trying to problem solve was it the time we Ate, the dip I had with the veggies, the two slices of cheese I had. We all can fall off the wagon and not want to do this, today I will work hard to relieve my body of the toxins I ate! Please do not give up you obviously know all the strategies to beat this and not not let it control you, so GO TO IT and know we are right behind you! Good luck! Keep us posted!

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2012-07-02 02:44:45 -0500 Report

Welcome to DC. You already know how to fight diabetes, sounds like you're ready to keep engage the enemy again and keep battling to win.

cmonte1995 2012-07-01 19:26:24 -0500 Report

I was diagnosed 3 years ago. I know how you feel. I lost thirty five pounds I count my carbs and my a1c is still out of whack. It's better now that I take 1000mg of metformin every day. I just hate taking all these pills everyday. Good luck !

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-07-01 17:59:50 -0500 Report

If you have not been for a physical and gained weight I think deep down inside you should know what to expect when you finally went to the doctors.

You can get back on track by doing what you did 8 years ago. Hit the ground running. You have to eat properly and exercise. Diabetes isn't a game it is an illness that requires a change in lifestyle which in turn requires vigilance and perseverance.

There is no point in being scared or disgusted with yourself. Crawling in bed and crying isn't going to get you back on track. All of this will not help you regain control, it will delay your taking complete action.

Get up, Get out, and Take Action. You already started by following a strict diet. You can make meal plans fun by changing recipes that you like, adding your favorites seasonings, or trying something new that you think you might like. Just make sure it won't have an adverse effect on your blood sugar.

Go out and get a new hairstyle or cut, treat yourself to something new after all you are going to be a new person once you are back on track. Start exercising even if all you do is take a walk twice a day.

I typed on a colorful piece of paper "I control my diabetes. Diabetes does not control me" and put it on my fridge to see every day. It is above my "Anticipate Miracles" magnet.

I fell off the wagon almost two weeks ago when my beloved dog died in my arms. My blood sugar numbers were all over the map. I still am not eating properly however, these days the weather is playing a roll. It is just too hot to eat a hot meal and I am almost sick of salads.

You can do this. You know you can. Always ANTICIPATE MIRACLES. I believe that you will be back in control within the next 6 weeks. Take small steps and keep increasing those steps and when you go back to the doctors for your next checkup, you will be surprised and you can celebrate the joy of being back in control. The best of luck to you.

red flower lady
red flower lady 2012-07-01 15:27:44 -0500 Report

Well done the first go round, and don't worry now just get back into the groove. YOU can get it under control again and then practice daily maintenance Important to do bg checks even when bg numbers are running good over periods of time, so as not to get this kind of shock. Meal plan that includes counting carbs, portion control along with exercise and any meds you take along with bg checks are going to get you there, so start today and take back that control:)

Good luck and you'll get there!

MAYS 2012-07-01 14:29:26 -0500 Report

You can never go too far as long as you are alive and haven't experienced any major complications associated with diabetes.
You managed it once (diabetes), and you can do it again!
From experience you know what must be done, and you can do it again.
Your key word is "again!"

A few adjustments and modifications may be necessary, some major, others minor.
So let go of the fear, toss away the disgust and let's start with implementing a plan of action to manage your diabetes.
Think about the things that you used to do do manage your diabetes before, how much of that applies now?

How much do you know about diabetes?
How well are both you, and your doctor, working together towards managing your diabetes?

Diabetes management is very personal because it has to be catered to the individual, what works well for one person may not work at all for another.
So take your time, don't worry abouy a thing, especially the extra weight that you have put on, it tends to happen to diabetics, it's one of thopse things that we must monitor, the more weight (fat) we have the harder the management of diabetes.

We are all here to help, and to be helped by one another.
Up and down moments are common for diabetics due to the effect that diabetes has on our endocrine system, so on those days that you feel strong enough to move a mountain, do so, and on those days when you can't settle for moving a grain of sand or two!

Just don't lose faith in yourself, you did it once, you can do it again!


Controlled 2012-07-01 14:00:48 -0500 Report

The first thing that I can tell you is not to feel disgusted with yourself. Try to let that feeling go. It won't help to motivate you to do what you already know you can do. Regarding how you feel. I am certain that nearly every response will tell you they felt the same way. I was absolutely stunned. At that time I was also feeling physically ill all the time. I slowly learned what to eat and by and large knew what not to. The next several months was learning with abject amazement the amount of awful things that are allowed to be put in food for the sole motive of extending longer shelf life and corporate profits. Many of the things that I formerly thought were healthy were in fact not.

It took a while for my tastes to change but ever since that time, and for at least three consecutive A1C's, I have been 5.4 or less. I have managed to maintain "normal" BG without meds after learning how and what to eat and exercising. Many of us here have done that. Many more maintain healthy BG using medication and either way works. It's not a contest. Whatever works to get and keep you healthy is the best thing for you personally.

You absolutely can help yourself. It's normal to be afraid and doubt yourself. Make small changes at first. Read information here and elsewhere. I don't like having this condition. I don't like micromanaging every single thing that I put in my mouth. I could probably ease up and in time go on medication, but I prefer not to. At least with this condition, you can have a huge effect on your own health and that is not true with other conditions or diseases.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-07-01 18:19:16 -0500 Report

Controlled, I am trying really hard to get my A1C to 5. My doctor told me if that happens I can control my diabetes with food and exercise. I am waiting for that day to come. It will be my personal miracle.

The one bad thing I have done was stop eating wheat or multi-grain bread. I got to a point where I could no longer stand the taste of it and it made me ill just thinking of eating it. It is a psychological thing. I went back to white bread but I limit that to one meal.

I chose yesterday to be my free day for the week as I didn't have one at all during the week so I had French Toast for breakfast and a fried chicken wing for lunch. By the time I got home. I was too hot to eat and when I did eat it was only cream cheese and crackers. Today I was back on track only I didn't eat lunch. I had salad for dinner. It is way too hot here to eat anything hot late in the day.

Once you fall off the wagon it isn't always easy for some people to get back on track. This is something you have to want to do. I think everyone regardless of the illness can get off track. Vigilance and perseverance will get you back on track. I agree with you. This condition can have a huge effect on your own health but it is something you can control if you choose to do so.

Very good post.

Controlled 2012-07-01 18:49:55 -0500 Report

You're absolutely right. It is difficult to get back on track. I don't have any qualifications to speak about your personal health management; but some of us here would say it's no big deal that you stopped wheat or multigrain bread. There's always something else. Other than that, be careful about skipping meals.

We all get to our goals in different ways. You sound like you are motivated and taking care of yourself.