Normally it helps me to be here, esp. when I am depressed, but today; NOT
I am having a very hard feeling; filled with depression; self-doubt, and guilt. I feel I hurt someone's feelings here and I can't let it go. I sent them an email, but have not heard back. But, maybe it is just me. I have a mental illness, and some other problems that make me less than aware of what I am doing at times. Not that I am trying to make excuses, and it is kind of personal; but might explain some of the things I do wrong, and why. You, see, It all depends on who is on the computer that day, when I wake up. Cause I never know who might pop in and take over, or when. I have a severe problem with MPD, Although I have 43 splits; there are only about a dozen that come forth regularly. You may not be a believer but if you know anything about mental illness, esp. with extreme circumstances, you might. You have to live it, experience it, everyday like my husband does. I know that this does not belong here, but in a way it does, because I know all too well what mood swings and other problems that arise when depression is involved. Who knows; I might even be able to help someone. I have been through years of therapy and even taught some Mental Health Aid and Psychology classes, for incoming students in their chosen field.
But, so today, I am depressed. If I am lucky it will only last a day; If not, well, it could go on for a while.
But; however; I have not learned how to get out of depression yet, after all this years. It is like a rut so deep that you just do not have the energy to climb out of it. So; what do you do when you feel so bad?
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