How I deal with pain

old biker
By old biker Latest Reply 2012-06-17 21:09:34 -0500
Started 2012-06-02 13:31:53 -0500

Out of the night that covers me. Black is the pit from pole to pole. I thank whatever gods may be. For my unconquerable soul…In the fell clutch of circumstance. I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeoning of chance. My head is bloody,but on bowed…Beyond this place of wrath and tears. Looms the but the Horror of the shade. And yet the menace of the years. Finds, and shall find me unafraid…It matters not how strait the the gate. How charged with punishments the the scroll. I AM THE MASTER OF MY FATE.!! I AM THE CAPTAIN OF MY SOUL!!
William Ernest Henley (1849-1902) Henleys testament to the indomitable human spirit. A promise of hope above all trials.
Recently I became aware that there was members of our community. That not only deal with the daily challenges we all face in our fight with diabetes but are also dealing with serious chronic pain.
Pain comes in all levels and peoples threshold of pain is different..There was a time in my life i was living in the fast lane..I had fast horses,,fast cars,,fast motorcycles, and yes a few fast women and yes I crashed and burned with them all, causing some degree of pain.
My motorcycle wreck took me where i hope I will never go again..Understand that motorcycle insurance is different than car insurance. If I am riding a passenger Their medical costs are covered mine isn't unless I am carrying a separate insurance rider..They don't tell you this.
One minute i'm flying down I-85 and the next minute i,m opening my eyes in the ER room..After much poking,prodding,x-rays and a scan.I have a mild concussion.a dislocated shoulder a few bruises and what they called a hairline fracture of my pelvis and they were sending me home (no insurance)..They gave me a few pain pills. They had given me one shot of morphine when I got there and now 3 hours latter when they went to move me from the table to a wheel chair,it took 2 more before they could move me.. Days later when I exhausted all the pain pills they gave me..In a moment of insanity where I thought I might be able to get off the couch my education in pain 101 began..I am talking about pain that stopped my breath,stopped any thought of moving,made me sick to my stomach and wanting to cry..Me and my bed pan lived on that couch for weeks..Back in high school one of my teachers required us to memorise the poem Invictus, I never forgot the words and never realized how powerful they were until I decided to role unto the floor and crawl my way to the bathroom.
The words of that poem screamed in my mind over and over and over again. It gave me the strength to fight the pain and block it.. Those words served me so well in the following months..Every stage of my recovery was aided by those powerful words.. To this day any time I have dig down deep to deal with pain those words are the first thing I reach for..
To those of you who struggle with pain every day, or to those who just might want to pass a sticking point in a exercise routine when you want to quit,,recite those words over and over and over..And pretty soon you will start to believe them and next thing you know you are there..I so sincerely hope this helps those who's mobility is hampered by pain every day..Stay strong and fight the good fight

19 replies

troublemaker27 2012-06-05 22:59:20 -0500 Report

i feel like i need to drink again i can do again if i want to i know i shouldn't but i don't know what else to do to myself.
i feel like i need a mike's hard lemonade i don't know what else to do to myself i just feel so blue help me please thank you

Caroltoo 2012-06-06 00:05:03 -0500 Report

Sounds like drinking has been a problem for you, Troublemaker. Hope you found the motivation to skip the drink. What's happening with you?

troublemaker27 2012-06-06 11:00:13 -0500 Report

hey there well i did skip the drink sorry about that i just lost my friend paul to a heart attack on monday afternoon at age 35.
so i said some ugly stuff about not liking myself.
i just wanted to die.
sorry about that.

Caroltoo 2012-06-06 20:36:22 -0500 Report

No need to feel sorry about expressing how you feel. You lost a friend and that is very hurtful … leaves a big hole in our hearts when it happens. Hope you find peace with it and give yourself time to grieve. Just take care of yourself while you are doing it.

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2012-06-06 18:40:53 -0500 Report

Losing a friend suddenly is a very painful experience. It takes awhile to sort through your emotions. Don't be too hard on yourself during this time. Remember his love and support of you when you have 'ugly' thoughts. It has helped me to hold friends who are no longer here close when times are hard.

jayabee52 2012-06-06 18:17:36 -0500 Report

Sorry to learn of your loss.

A loss like that often throws us into a tailspin and sometimes we say some things that when thinking better we'd not say. Please be kind to yourself!

pixsidust 2012-06-04 11:39:06 -0500 Report

Thats a powerful poem.
The words paint a picture that one can feel as they read
So does the pain of your accident.

How are you now?
Were you Diabetic then as well?
Was there any clinics or other sources of aid?

techguy87114 2012-06-02 20:16:11 -0500 Report

Awesome post. I know the poem invictus but it's not memorized. Great that you have been able to commit it to memory. Thanks for sharing !

Best ,


old biker
old biker 2012-06-02 20:29:47 -0500 Report

Thanks ..It is one of the advantages of growing older..I can't remember what I did yesterday..But I can remember words to songs and poems from 50 years ago…What was I just saying? LOL

Caroltoo 2012-06-02 15:07:45 -0500 Report

I have read but not memorized Invictus, but a similar thought process and will to do what I had to do to get well, has taken me from 3 months flat on my back because of 2 breaks in L5 (major weight bearing vertebrae of the lower back) to a happy and successful life.

There were sure low times and much alternative care treatment after I became disgusted with my orthopedic doctor who, one day after he had been treating me without much success for 2 years, told me to "just get used to the pain." I was on Workman's Comp at the time so my response was, "No, have no desire to get used to being in agony, I will change from orthopedics and pills to chiropractic and help."

It took almost 8 more years, but it has worked for me. I still do chiropractic care for my back, but my pain level has decreased to a range from none to annoyance level with the occasional sharp pain that means a special appointment to relieve some tension.

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