It's probably been around a month that I've had time to write, I miss you all dearly! I had to take my husband to the hospital vomitting blood…they did a bronchoscopy and determined that his cancer is back and growing quickly…they give him 2 months. I'm trying to keep it together but everything is just piling on top of me! They are going to let him come home today and just keep him "comfortable". He's beat cancer twice and still he couldn't stop smoking!! NOW he wants to quit and NOW it's TOO LATE!! He saw 2 doctors who both told ME he has 2-6 months but he saw another doctor who wants to start radiation asap to pro-long or MAYBE stop the cancer again. I'm SO confused but I don't want this doctor to build up his hopes because through all of his cancers this is the ONLY time he's taken it seriously!! And poor Anthony is going to be a basket case! He's only 14 and his Papa has been his whole world!! His father terminated his parental rights when I adopted Anthony so in essence Papa IS his Dad!! All I could say to him was we'll get through this together and actually it's a good thing because he'll get to say goodbye and most people don't get that opportunity. I've notified the school so they can get him some grief counseling but not sure what else to do for him?. With all the skin cancer stuff going on with me and I have to take Anthony to see a specialist because the Dr. doesn't think he's growing properly I'm at a complete loss!! Things are just REALLY crazy and coming at me from all sides! Anthony is my pride and joy…I've had him since he was 3 months old and adopted him when he was 2 yrs old. and he's come such a LONG way…He has ADHD-attention deficit disorder…ODD-oppositional defiance disorder…sensory intigration disorder-he can actually pick and chose which of his senses he can shut off just like a SWITCH!! He also has seperation anxiety…and all this due to poor nutrition in his first 3 months of his life!! I FOUGHT his Dr when they wanted to put him on meds but after being SUSPENDED IN KINDERGARTEN 3 times in 2 months we put him on adderall…1st day on his meds and he came home STUDENT OF THE DAY!!!! Needless to say it has been an uphill struggle all the way! He's going to be in High School this Sept. and finally WITHOUT ANY special needs or anything he's doing A++ work in school now And every time I get him on track and doing great his "mother" comes along and does something just to mess with his head and we have to start ALL OVER AGAIN!! THIS time she saw me drive by her and knew I wasn't home and came to MY house and talked to him!! She told him that she got a lawyer and she was gonna get custody back and they were gonna move to Alabama!! And then MADE HIM PROMISE NOT TO TELL ME!! I of course told him that would NEVER happen…but REALLY???? i CAN'T GET A RESTRAINING ORDER OR A NO CONTACT ORDER cause there is no physical abuse or threat of "Emminent danger" EXACTLY HOW MUCH IS THIS POOR KID SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH??? HE'S SO WORRIED ABOUT HIS PAPA HE SAID TO ME TODAY "WE'LL GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER NANA I KNOW YOUR UPSET TOO" I'm trying NOT to cry…not yet…gotta stay strong for the BOTH of them!! I know Mom always says God won't give you more than you can take but COME ON NOW REALLY????? Have to go for my OWN surgery on my eyelids and the middle of my forehead for the skin cancer on May 10th And on top of this I just realized I haven't TESTED in 3 days!!!! NOT GOOD NOT GOOD! PRAY FOR ME AND ANTHONY MY FRIENDS THAT'S ALL I HAVE LEFT TO SAY JUST PRAY FOR US!! Ellen tryin' to smile but can't today!
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