Hard to stay positive and upbeat

mkhojh99
By mkhojh99 Latest Reply 2012-04-24 16:42:39 -0500
Started 2012-04-01 18:46:28 -0500

when I am blind from diabetes in one eye. Not sure if it is permanant. Will find out in the comming weeks. I was doing so good then bam!!! I strongly encourage people to take diabetes seriously and keep your sugars good. I took care of other people and am paying for not taking care of myself! Photography was my passion but it is so blurry in my one eye I can only see some shadows…and it makes me dizzy and sick to my tummy. If you dont have your eyes how does one work? I am tryin so hard to not be depressed…but this is my own fault. I find myself down and stressed. II do not have any friends so that doesnt help…I have my daughter


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mkhojh99
mkhojh99 2012-04-24 16:42:39 -0500 Report

so I go to the eye doc today due to all the changes my eye is doing…he checks it out then says hey lets do some lazering today its up and running. So Im like mmm ok…he does some but has to stop cuz the blood is still to thick for the lazer to do its job. And theres a lot of blood in the eye…which sucks bad when you can see blood when you look out. If I can encourage ANTONE why to watch their sugars and to see an eye doc…just feel free to ask me about the blood I see when I look out of my eye…or the ppol of blood sittin in my eye which drips when you lay flat or tilt your head back. I may require more then one surgery…man on man…

mkhojh99
mkhojh99 2012-04-20 17:33:44 -0500 Report

so my eye did several things today. Started out good…then might of hemmoraged again because it got all blurry and could see hemmorages again. Then later on this afternoon I was laughing hard and it got even blurrier and now it is speckled with all sorts of blood. Now I really can't see anything out of my eye and when I look out it is super blurry and like my eye is dust covered. Thats how much blood is speckled in there…sigh…having a bad day and to top it off it is my daughters 13th bday sunday!!!!!

mkhojh99
mkhojh99 2012-04-16 12:38:33 -0500 Report

so no eye surgery this morning…got there they dialated my eye and awhile later came in to tell me the lazer isnt working. It was a new lazer and it wasnt worling and they didnt have it set up or put all together yet. So surgery will be in a week or two…he said he would call when its up and running. LMAO!!!

mkhojh99
mkhojh99 2012-04-16 07:45:50 -0500 Report

so this morning I have lazer eye surgery…kinda nervous. The temporary blindiness has caused some issues but hopefully within 6 months it will be clear. If not I will need another surgery to drain the blood…I do hope that maybe some of the blurriness clears some…

MewElla
MewElla 2012-04-16 08:01:37 -0500 Report

You have my thoughts and prayers this morning…

donnaj
donnaj 2012-04-16 10:38:23 -0500 Report

Hi MewElla, know its been a while thanks for the hug, hope life been well and kind to you.had a good report this last doc visit my a1c went from 7.4-6.4 i must be doing something right but i might be in trouble next time cause i might have rewarded myself too much and too long so now i got to work on turning things back around again in the right direction. take care and dont forget to take time to smell the roses along the way

mkhojh99
mkhojh99 2012-04-09 15:16:12 -0500 Report

tomorrows the big day…my eye appt. He will decide to do surgery or I guess maybe have me wait more I dunno. Im nervous and scared…and just praying Im not permantly blind…but if I am that was God's will so will have to learn to adjust…

mkhojh99
mkhojh99 2012-04-10 11:22:54 -0500 Report

so my blindness is temporay and will have lazer surgery on monday…off work 2 days then healing could take 6 weeks to 6 months…lets hopin the sooner the better!!!

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-04-02 14:52:39 -0500 Report

mkhojh, last year I worked with a group of people from 21 to 70 in a peer program. One woman is legally blind. To help her, we wrote everything in a larger font for her during training.

She was able to perform her job duties like everyone else. She has lots of friends and won two first place trophies in the Special Olympics. She also completed an AA Degree in Early Childhood Development. She had started this before she was certified as being legally blind. It took her a year of adjustment but she went back and finished. She lives alone, helps care for her mom and involved in advocating for people with disabilities. Her best friend is totally blind and the two of them area always out and about doing things together.

I think you will still be able to take photo's. Carol is correct your other eye will compensate should your vision loss not return. You can make friends here and still go out into the world and make even more friends. Good luck to you.

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-04-01 19:09:15 -0500 Report

I can share a little of my experience watching my husband go legally blind. He is NOT diabetic. He had retinal separation in one eye which was repaired too late for healing and a macular hole in the other.

He did fine with one eye once he got past the initial adjustment period. About the only thing we found he could not do was to play fast moving games like tennis which relied on his ability to perceive depth. He was allowed to continue to drive though lane changes were challenging, he worked full time, actually no one realized he had lost an eye unless he told them.

If this turns out to be permanent … just give yourself some time to adjust. It is challenging at first, but your one eye will learn to act for two. You will still be able to read, to watch TV, to see the beauty of nature and photograph it.

mkhojh99
mkhojh99 2012-04-01 19:13:49 -0500 Report

thanks…that helps!!! I do wish I had taken better care of me but you get in a rut and then wake up but…you never know the outcome. I sometimes wish I wasnt single but guess God has some kind of plan for me

jigsaw
jigsaw 2012-04-02 07:02:49 -0500 Report

Your very fortunate to have met Carol ! She's a terrific lady with much to offer. I hope you adjust mentally and emotionally as quickly as possible. I can only imagine how difficult it must be! Many of us have more inner strength then we realize!
Hopefully and maybe your doctors can help you. My wife had a partially detached retina, and they were able to repair it with a laser in about 10 min in the doctors office while I watched. I realize it's a different situation, but technology iis amazing and and the advances and their rapidity are surprising.

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-04-01 19:19:28 -0500 Report

It is a really big loss, so let yourself grieve it, but also know that it's something you can live with and live well.

You can make lots of friends online here at d.c. It's not like having someone beside you in reality, but it does help. Don't know if we are friends, but when I finish this note, I'll go send you an invite; just follow me back to be friends here.