What is written in my Heart

TsalagiLenape
By TsalagiLenape Latest Reply 2012-02-27 20:13:21 -0600
Started 2012-02-24 23:52:00 -0600

What is going on with my body has a direct link from my heart. So what is written on my heart? The names of those I love held and has passed on. Those who I know and miss everyday. Those who I only know thru the internet and websites. Those who have made me the person I am today. Those who have stabbed me in the back. Those who have treated me badly. Those who are in great pain physically and mentally as well as spiritually. My heart is not whole you see. For things and people have a piece of my heart. Some unknowingly and some who knew but choose to toss it away. Yet no matter what I love them as they are flaws and all. Why do I love my enemies more it seems than my friends or family? For they need love, compassion, understanding and patience more so. Yet that does have a limit in only to protect my self from their type of abuse. SO I do what others have said not to do. I can lay my head down at night and know I did what I felt was right not what Others feel is right. Perhaps they will never see this love I have for them in my heart but alas for me I dont know how to be anything else than that. When this woman with bf and son (she is the one my husband cheated with on me) needed a home, a friend, someone to help her other children and etc. I opened my home, used my resources and knowledge to help and benefit. Not for her per se but her children who deserved to have Mommy. Many said I was wrong but I thought if I was this way, I'd hope my enemy would help me in my hour of need. I apologize for not being or doing what others and etc want me to do and etc. I can only be me. Which I am learning to do and become a better one at that. So now you all know you are in my heart to. Hugs


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pixsidust
pixsidust 2012-02-27 00:54:41 -0600 Report

The spirit of rejection is one that wounds us to our core
You must rise up and caste off receiving that rejection
God sees you even now and so great is his love of you
Bask in that love and the love we each have for you as well
You have thrown your pearls before swine
and those swine have trampled them.

Temi in your wisdom close the door to those who trample
recognise that your home where ever it is
must be one of emotional and physical safety
Be prudent to whom you open the door for
there are those who always have problems
and they destroy all around them…Swine
Open your eyes to see whats before you

Do not seek acceptance or approval from those
who blindly trample…they see you not
You are better and must treat yourself as better
God loves his daughter and we do too

Young1s
Young1s 2012-02-25 19:24:06 -0600 Report

Temi, this is all any of us can do. It can be a hard thing to follow your heart when your head and others tell you otherwise. But what matters is doing the right thing and, as you said, being able to sleep peacefully because of it. I feel that our actions and in-actions, our deeds and misdeeds can only truly be judged by God. So, if doing what you do feels right to you then do you (as the kids are saying nowadays). You are an amazing person with a generous and loving soul. Don't ever let anyone make you feel differently.

Set apart
Set apart 2012-02-25 09:34:40 -0600 Report

Temi, This is soo beautiful, as you are. What an amazing woman you are, it takes a Divine person to forgive. Forgiveness does not come easy to all, yet as we forgive it does not mean the pain goes away, nor does it mean we are condoning the other person's acts. What this means Temi is when you place your head to rest at night you Have given it back to the Creator himself! Thank you for this reminder to myself! Louise

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-02-25 05:15:37 -0600 Report

Temi, you are a lovely, loving, and caring person. Yes, in opening your heart to those who have wronged you, you also open yourself to the pain that comes with that betrayal, but also to the deep sense of satisfaction that you have helped someone who was in need.

When we tell you to take care of yourself, it is because we, too, care about you. Sometimes, when only knowing surface information, you will get surface level responses. Sharing more specifics/details, as you did here make the situation more clear. I admire your response and your caring. How can I not admire a woman who opens her home and heart to someone in need, to help the adult and the children? No doubt, while bringing you a sense of peace and joy, it will also bring some additional chaos of dealing with your ex both for yourself and for her. That does complicate your life, but it also completes the circle.

I think what is most important is what you said: I can lay my head down at night and I know I did what I felt was right. When you are walking with creator, you do make unusual choices because she encourages us to look beyond the obvious, the material. Her's is a long range view steeped in love, acceptance, and encouragment. You can't go wrong with her as a role model. Your heart is right; your choices sacred.

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