Yesterday was my One Year Anniversary with Diabetes.
Its the day when the words the Doctor spoke changed my life.
Of course Diabetes was not the only thing wrong.
With my bad eating habits came High Cholesterol and Triglycerides.
I think I was more afraid of that than the Diabetes
after all they said I could have a stroke any time.
My Grandpa had Diabetes.
We were not blood related but it was not foreign to me at least.
I cooked for him. My grandma and grandpa raised me.
He went from Metformin to insulin shots in his 80's.
His legs looked awful…so many wounds, splotchy in appearance
that never healed but… he lived till he was 88.
I stayed by his side till he died, giving him my love and permission to leave us.
He had Alzheimers in the end but knew me perfectly.
I called him Daddy…He was the only Daddy I knew.
Lots of things occurred.
My eyesiight went haywire after a week on meds.
My glasses didn't work
The advise was to hold on, it could return to normal and it did…
I got to experience lows and the lightheaded feeling of fading away.
I learned to shop for balance and taste.
I learned what cheating can do to you.
I got nauseated from my meds and had the trots
I experienced the misconceptions and ignorance that people have
I was helped and then blamed by my family
Truth is I blame myself, but still need a little kindness
when I can't walk comfortably or am feeling sick.
I learned that I cannot take care of the world
and not take care of myself.
I learned to plan and take hold of my day
Rather than the day just happen to me
I learned that I grow when I give to someone else.
I learned I can still be meaningful and make a difference
I learned to be sensitive to how I feel and listen with my inner voice
I learned that I cannot do this alone…
I learned that I needed all of you.
Do you mark the Anniversary, You first knew you were Diabetic?
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