Not really looking for pitty, and I know life isn't fair…if you don't want to read my rant then please…certainly don't. I don't know where else better to let it out than here. Diagnosed T2 in March 2011. The dr probably told me my a1c at the time, but it was foreign to me…no idea what it was. Well…I'm quite a medical procrastinator…just had my second bloodwork done this past…Monday? Haven't heard back yet, but I'm expecting it won't be good. I very much want to change and control my food situation…I also very much want to exercise…and I've griped of this before, but I have little to no time in my life for making such changes. I used to work out quite a bit, but that's when I wasn't a parent. My two boys, commute, work…suck up my day. If I want to work out at 9/10pm…then great, but I don't. My number haven't gone below 200 in…I don't know how long. Yes, it's my fault. This would've been so much easier had it interrupted my life at a time when I had some time. Time to make changes…back when I was actively working out because it would've been much easier to just continue (now with a bigger purpose) than to figure out how to fit it into my schedule. Time…it sucks…and it grows less and less the older I (we) get.
I will be surprised if he doesn't tell me I have to start injecting…do I want to…no. However in the back of my mind I think…I might as well to get to healthy, non-destructive numbers. I'm not a talker…another reason I'm writing this. Online…typing it out…no biggie…talking to someone…have a hard time. Talking to a diabetic nutritionist or educator…I could probably do that…if I had time to go. This bloodwork I had done was supposed to have been done in June/July…of last year. Even my eating schedule is tight. My wife works in the evening, so we don't eat our dinner (boys eat earlier) until, quite often, 9pm. Morning fasting test doesn't even seem relevant (or fasting really) since we eat so late.
Again…I don't need responses…not looking for pity. I know it's all up to me to get ahold of this. Just frustrated and had to get it out somewhere. Thus I sit here at work ranting. If I tried to do it at home I couldn't get a sentence out without 8 interruptions and it would push it out 20 minutes to get a sentence in. Ugh…March 5th follow up with my doc. I also expect a nurse to call from his office telling me to come in sooner…once they see my numbers. I'll shut up now. Back to work.
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