DEPRESSION.........HATING it ALL!! Just about given up!!

nanaellen
By nanaellen Latest Reply 2012-02-06 16:46:53 -0600
Started 2012-01-31 13:46:03 -0600

No matter what I do I just can't get a handle on this demon!! Tired…so tired… haven't been THIS depressed since I was a teen!! HATE this feeling!Just want to throw all this crap in the trash and let the pieces fall where they may!! Tired of hearing that ALL this will go away if ONLY I'd lose weight!! At THIS point I'd RATHER be FAT & HAPPY then skinny and healthy!!!! Sorry just had to vent!


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LTennion
LTennion 2012-02-06 16:17:18 -0600 Report

Hello There Nanellen! I'm hoping that you are feeling better about things now that a few days have passed since your post. I am not a doctor, nor do I have any formal medical training, other than my own health issues, but I couldn't help but feel compelled to respond to you. One of my biggest concerns with the medical community is that they do not put enough emphasis on the emotional aspect of diabetes and the toll it takes, on not only the person afflicted with the disorder, but how it trickles down to affect everyone around the diabetic. Every time that I have experienced an issue with my health, I had been in a depressive state. Diabetes is fascinating and yet frustrating all at the same time. Because of this, it is extremely easy to become frustrated and feel guilty and like a burden to those around you. It is very disapointing when so many insensitive comments from well meaning people suggest that you simply loose weight, or get your blood sugars under control (as though thats a "piece of cake..LOL!) and all of your ailments will disapear. Perhaps they haven't noticed our efforts? It's never occurred to most people just how many times throughout the day that diabetics have to make food choices or think about all of the things that can affect your blood sugar. We never seem to get the credit that we do deserve. It is an emotional roller coaster and once I realized that, the easier it has been for me to deal with. Depression is caused by a chemical imbalance and diabetes is also an imbalance of hormones. My depression comes and goes…sometimes it's worse than other times and there seems to be no rhyme or reason. For me, it helps to know that " this to shall pass" but it will surface again. You do the best you can at the time. Distractions can be a blessing as well. If you don't have a pet…consider getting one. Puppies are definitely a huge distraction! LOL! You can take them on walks and they love you unconditionally. It worked for me
Best of Luck on your journey! Keep us posted so we know you're "ok" and can be there for encouragement when you're down

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-02-02 14:24:48 -0600 Report

Hi, Nanellen, we all need to vent our frustration sometimes when the load gets heavy and I think I can pretty safely say that most of us, at one time or another, have felt just like you stated.

Sometimes "happy" connects to feeling successful, so one place you could start to dig yourself out of this emotional pit, is to select one thing you can do today that is a healthy choice. When you have completed it, check it off your to-do list and give yourself lots of compliments about succeeding; let yourself feel how good it feels to complete something well.

Tomorrow, plan one or two other small somethings you can complete and feel good about. As you build a record of success, you will have more energy and your successes will build on other successes and you will get back on top of the process again.

From the bottom of the pit, it looks like you are climbing a mountain and it is sooo hard to get started. A little momentum will take you step-by-step to the top where you can take off in whichever direction you need to go. That may be a move towards weight loss, it may be towards making healthy choices with what you eat regardless of whether or not it results in weight loss.

Be good to yourself and be happy.

buster 47
buster 47 2012-02-02 14:10:44 -0600 Report

I agree with you Tess. nanaellen please just take one step at a time and pray for help from the lord. I know about depression and not losing weight and all the the things you are talking about and i still struggle with them at times but i try to not let them get me down. i am human and i make mistakes but the lord loves me inspite of my mistakes so i just pick my self up and ask him to forgive my short comings and i brush myself off and go again. he loves you to just the way you are so dont be so hard on yourself and dont let others be either.

Tess K.
Tess K. 2012-02-01 10:58:37 -0600 Report

Hello, I too get caught up in the depression. I first thought it was the financial burden I am under but am now beginning to realize my health itself plays a big part in it. I try to look at things one step at a time, try not to dwell on the unchangeable. I know if I start eating properly, sleeping etc. things just fall into place but I am a human being and I want, want, want…so in other words i make mistakes and have misjudgements. I just got to tell myself not to be so hard on my myself and sometime give thanks for what I do have. Diabetes, DEPRESSION and all my other problems have in some odd way helped to make me the person I am. So my advice is take it one step at a time, believe in yourself, put your problems in the hands of the Man Up above.

Set apart
Set apart 2012-02-01 05:29:29 -0600 Report

Hello Nana, as I write this I want to say the right words, first of all you are a beautiful person inside and out. Remembering how we see ourselves from the inside out will help us through all of this. When you make the right choice with your foods just take one meal at a time, and especially one day at a time. Don't look at yesterday as a failure because it's already gone, tomorrow is not here yet, but today Nana take charge of your life and health. Exercise doesn't have to be 60 minutes or even 40 it can be accomplished in increments such as 10 to 15 minutes at a time. Three increments of 15 minutes will give you a nice total of 45 minutes of movement. As you make the right choices you won't have to think about the weight it'll start coming off. Nana as humans we become so routine in eating with emotion, everything in life is emotion so we overeat. Keep busy, I read a lot or get on here to check on my friends, I have sugAr free gum with me all the time as to not be tempted with foods so much. You are not alone in this best of luck!

Young1s
Young1s 2012-02-01 00:32:38 -0600 Report

Remember that saying that you liked? "Yard by yard, diabetes is hard. Inch by inch, it's a cinch!" So, today it's hard…that means it's time to fight in inches. Give yourself a break and focus on the most important aspects. Checking your levels, eating right, and taking your meds. Today you don't feel like going for a walk or working out…that's fine. Just get some exercise in tomorrow. It's not giving up, it's just a much needed time out. But then you bounce right back up with a newer and refreshed determination to look diabetes in the face and tell it to get the heck out of your way! It's a never ending battle but it must be fought. And you're going to win. You can do this!

MichaelStice
MichaelStice 2012-02-01 00:03:39 -0600 Report

Hello nanaellen, I was doing some work at the computer knowing I had to exercise and feeling terrible guilt because I was going to blow it off—I was hungry, too. However, I did exercise. My blood sugar was 249 when I began and heart-rate was about 60 b/m. I walked 25 minutes on my new toy that I keep using as my motivation for walking..$2300 worth of motivation. When I finished doing sit-ups and walking my blood sugar was 105, heart-rate 84b/m and 20 minutes later it too lowered to 65 b/m. My diet has allowed me to lose 5 pound this week + the exercise. The point is, I hate exercise; I was feeling tired and somewhat depressed (I am bipolar so I depress easily). when the session ended I was completely awake and full of energy at midnight, I was not hungry and to top all of this off… I am a chef (unofficially, self taught) in Greek and French cuisines (talk about difficult foods to get around). My house is always full of goodies. If I eat more than I should my blood sugar tells on me and usually, at my weakest, I want to just continue eating. Better eating is helping me and the exercises are really good at lowering a bad blood sugar count but I am just starting the routine. My psychology is usually bad until I exercise. My feet turn to concrete when I give half a thought to walking for 30 minutes every other day.
I will go through this one week at a time and let you know how much more I hate exercise and not eating what I want. Just hang in there and we'll do this together and perhaps you too can walk and control the sugar better while eating better. We'll tell on each other when we do not follow the plan… What do you think? Let me know.
By the way, the most irritable, irascible people I have met in my life are usually phlegmatic, unmotivated and thin as a rail… I think it is better to get the weight off slowly and appreciate the journey so my smile is genuine, being pleasant not a plastered on face—putting up with people— because of social protocol…

George1947
George1947 2012-01-31 20:44:55 -0600 Report

I've been there myself… then I take a deep breath and get back on the path to being healthy. Don't worry as much about weight but try to eat healthy as much as possible. You'll be surprised at how things will fall into place when you only look at eating better. You do need to work at it some but you can do it! :)

red flower lady
red flower lady 2012-01-31 15:01:48 -0600 Report

Hi, it is ok to vent, as we all need to from time to time. Diabetes can be very irritating. Taking your meds as prescribed and following what the dr says is very important and you do that with meals in mind. But you know that by getting control of your weight, by adding exercise of any kind and controling your portion, instead, eat several small meals throughout the day will help you to feel better. Get outside and find something to do, this will help with the depression/tiredness as well. Don't think in terms of having to lose weight immediately, but change your eating habbits to make it a way of living and go for walks, dancing, gardening swimming, etc and things will start to turn around. Nobody can quarantee that by losing weight everything will go away, but it will turn things around. You and I both know that when we feel good about ourselves then things look better and seem easier to takle.

We want you around for a long time and ignoring the issue is not an option! I know you can do this and it'll help if you find somebody to do this with you:)

Good luck

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