Messing up bad lately

melissa1987
By melissa1987 Latest Reply 2012-01-17 23:27:07 -0600
Started 2012-01-11 23:19:55 -0600

So yesterday I did not take my insulin because I was hanging out with friends. It seems like they don't understand I'm a diabetic like I'm seeing this guy n he didn't tell me he was planing on drinking so anyways long story short I end up drinking n not taking it n this morning I took and I was really hungover so I slept like all day n I woke up I guess I was confused or something I take 12 units in the morning n I'm supposed to take 6 at night but I took 12 n 12 today now I think my sugar is gonna be really low tomm. Since I started hanging with my friends I started to feel better but noticed I'm slacking a lot on my diabetes I just wish that others were educated on it too so they would understand.


52 replies

kmk1968
kmk1968 2012-01-16 12:37:48 -0600 Report

hi meliissa , i am 43 years old.i have had type 1 for 33 long years.ever since i was 10 years old. i understand what its like to be 24 years old and hang out and raise a little hell !! but the truth is and i am thankful i figured this out ( i have cousins who didnt and they have died at an early age because of the complications of not taking care of their diabetes ) keeping it together because of diabetes is a pain in the ass sometime but it has to be done ! if you really feel you need a drink or two , please do it it moderation and dont EVER forget to take your insulin. you are too important of a person to not do it. and i dont know your friends ( i dont even know you ) but if they cant understand maybe you can find new friends !

LouellaMarie
LouellaMarie 2012-01-16 03:22:10 -0600 Report

That would scare me! I have been newly diagnosed now for 4 or 5 months and I haven't had a drink in all this time, but I know I'd like to sometime. I have had several hypo episodes and if I don't eat on time, I get really, really shaky! Soooo, I have read that drinking would bring down my sugars, I would suggest discussing this with your dietician though, People who don't know about it probably don't think its a big deal, but IT IS! You need to take care of yourself lady, I hope so much that you are alright, I'm going to try going out with friends, but I am going to try to be very careful the first time, good luck, and take care of YOURSELF! Its going to be an adjustment, thats for sure! Keep some oarnge juice around in case you get too low in the morning! Louella

nycutiebaby
nycutiebaby 2012-01-15 14:19:28 -0600 Report

have you ever thought about going on the pump its so easy and you can drink ect.,.. and it ssmall nobody bwill ever know you have it on and ytou can take it off for tow hrs ect… its so much better then shooting your self up plus ytour a1c leveles will be better think about it im 33 still young i go out drink ect… but evrything is managable with the pump

pixsidust
pixsidust 2012-01-15 17:31:46 -0600 Report

What we do want is for Melissa is to live
and what we do not want is to promote her life threatening life style.
Insulin no matter how its administered can not undo unhealthy living

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-15 16:22:39 -0600 Report

I don't get the difference between the pump n taking shots. Could you please explain the difference?

nycutiebaby
nycutiebaby 2012-01-15 21:05:54 -0600 Report

the pump you have on all the time its a little thing u put in stomach ect… comes in clear or different colors you are on a 24hr drip type thing and you either use it when you eat drink or when your sugar is high u caluate your carbs change it every 3 to 7 days depends how munch insulin u use you will some times forget you have it on i do you take it off for showeres swimming and well u know its as big as a beeper comes in colors or black or silver ect…plus blood meter hooks it all up and u just hit ok your done know touching meter ect i can send pic if you want or i can talk about it more if you want write back k

nycutiebaby
nycutiebaby 2012-01-17 23:27:07 -0600 Report

hi sorry just got to my mail.i upload pic of pump to pics check it out if you want more info you can ask if you want ill give my number if you want look its the best thing that happend i used to shoot up about 16 times a day my a1c leves used to be 17 once i got on the pump my numbers droped you see results right away and all insurences pay for pumps i know alot with this anyway good luck if anything you can ask what ever done alot now on the right path k bye

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-13 17:03:30 -0600 Report

Hey guys… Don't worry about me… I know I can not do this on my own and I'm heading to detox soon. I know I need help now n also mental help. Thanks guys for the support n taking the time to talk to me :)

jimLE
jimLE 2012-01-14 10:02:21 -0600 Report

Melissa..from what little i've learned about diabeties,and if i remember right you have type 2..i agree with ya on going to detox.not takeing you insulin n drinking aint good for ya at all.i do hope n pray that you do pull through this good and alive.and that we do see ya back in here real soon after detox..if you can borrow a pc with internet whille your there.update us on how things are going..

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-14 14:36:02 -0600 Report

Type 1 n does anyone know how to delete this account?

Young1s
Young1s 2012-01-14 16:32:21 -0600 Report

That's your choice to leave and nobody has the right to stop you. I surely won't. But before you go I think you owe Tom, and maybe even the rest of this community, an apology. But especially Tom because your flipflopping caused him to make a decision that is going to be felt in the community for a while.

All any of us have ever tried to do is help you. We're guilty of nothing more than trying to encourage you to take care of yourself, to lift you up when you were feeling down and to keep you focused on what is important in maintaining a healthy diabetic life. And for what? For you to tell some of us to F off one moment, then come back with a half'ed apology for your rudeness the next.

No…we don't have to comment or read your posts. But at the same time, why post them if your not prepared to hear what anyone has to say? We comment because we care. In caring for you, we begin to worry for you and what seems to be a continuation of your self-destructive tendencies. But the fact that you are flipflopping tells me that you are still unreceptive to whatever help or advice we can offer. So, then the question becomes are we wasting our time?

I know I'm going to get all kinds of venom from you for this but that's fine. If any of what I've said sticks in you head I pray that it's the apology for Tom and this one last thing. Take it from someone who's walked this road your on for far too many years, you do not want to get sucked into this lifestyle any deeper. Get out now, while your still young, and get help before this becomes your normal.

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-14 17:55:27 -0600 Report

I have nothing to say! But I will tell u this I decided I am not closing my account because of some people n there rude comments because there is also a lot of great people on here that I like n respect! :)

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-01-13 17:19:53 -0600 Report

Caring isn't that easy to turn off, Melissa, so I'll probably stay a little worried for a while.

I look forward to hearing you have carried through with this commitment, because what I really want to hear is you saying a few months from now that you are doing well and beginning to realize the beautiful person hiding inside all that confusion.

We're in this for the long haul … when you are again happy and healthy.

pixsidust
pixsidust 2012-01-13 13:15:09 -0600 Report

Melissa
My heart is worried for you
You have gone from I think I can do this to drinking with regularity
I think because of your lack of control
You need the strict regiment of the detox center
It may seem like prison
But it will be saving your life
You thought you could do it on your own
Yet you are not and you have no support system
in your choice of friends and boyfriend.
This is not working and so soon after thinking you would try
Please admit you need help and get it
Its a sign of strength to admit a weakness
Be strong!

Set apart
Set apart 2012-01-13 06:03:03 -0600 Report

Melissa you are not a coward with this disease we just have to learn to live life to the fullest while at the same time taking care of ourselves. This disease can be scary and it is because we are the ones in charge to a great extent. Like my dr says keep in touch, let us know how you're doing, but I am the one now deciding what's going to work and what won't. One thing I've learned within the last few weeks is that we can't be passive about anything, we have to be alert and constantly monitoring everything. It's exhausting, but we become stronger as people and we also become the decision makers with out health. Although the body doesn't always cooperate it's up to us and our choices as to how we will feel! Melissa you are special to all of us keep your head up high sweetie and know that we are here for you!

JSJB
JSJB 2012-01-13 03:58:29 -0600 Report

Melissa, good friends who know your condition will not put you in a situation that could put you in harms way. Reconsider who your friends are and start living your life with the changes you have to make. I do not have to take insulin yet and I hope I never do. To do that I have change the way I do things and it is hard because I have been living this way for 69 years but it is working and the people I know encourage me. Again, true friends are there to help you not hurt you

Gabby
GabbyPA 2012-01-13 01:28:13 -0600 Report

You are the teacher. What you do with your diabetes is what you teach your friends about this disease. You will mess up sometimes, but the key is to learn from it and make it work better next time. If people are not willing to hang out with you because you care enough to take care of your body, then they are not worth the hang time.

I am sorry to hear that you don't feel like you have a future because of diabetes. There are a lot of great people out there who have it. It often makes them stronger because they have to deal with it. http://www.diabeticconnect.com/discussions/13838-famous-people-with-diabetes-gary-valenciano
http://www.diabeticconnect.com/discussions/11543-george-richards-minot-unknown-diabetes-type
http://www.diabeticconnect.com/discussions/11624-dominique-wilkins---type-2-diabetic
And there are a lot more...there is a future. Choose to see it, even if just for a moment. It will grow if you give it a chance.

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-12 20:58:58 -0600 Report

listen I'm drunk right now n some of u guys don't understand that I am 24 … Stop judging me try being my age n single, no job, no future ahead of me because of this stupid diesese … I do not need detox I'm doing good on my own with the benzos so let it go! I appricate the support but there's a couple people that have no idea! Thank you to the guy the is 25 n knows how I feel

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-13 01:01:01 -0600 Report

My nephews r the only one keeping me alive!
N if u guys don't hear from me for awhile please email my best friend/sister crystalmoore23@hotmail.com small n tell her I love her n her beautiful kids n the rest of my family just doing the cowardly way out n I'll always be with them

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-13 12:28:01 -0600 Report

Sorry guys I was a little to drunk last night

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-01-13 13:10:55 -0600 Report

That you were, and we love you anyway.

That's why I don't drink much — nothing holy or judgemental about it — I'm just afraid of what I might do if I were to access my dark side.

You see, what you may not know about me is that I went from the top of my career a year ago to having spent the last year caring for my husband who is dying of Alzheimer's. Poor man is deaf, blind, in a wheelchair, and can't get to the bathroom or wash/dress/care for himself. This isn't fun and it is immensely sad to see someone I have loved for 35 years dying one brain cell at a time. I feel like my life is one hold while I care for him. It is an act of love, but, in and of itself, emptying bedpans isn't really a challenging way to spend my day.

Like you, I want to be out living and doing; have to keep reminding myself that time will come again and for now this is what I need to do and where I need to be. Keeping my spirits up is a day-by-day choice and, occasionally, becomes a minute-by-minute choice. Sometimes life sucks, but there is always hope for tomorrow as long as you hang in there long enough to see tomorrow's sunrise. Nights are dark times for the soul for many of us; a time when we really need to exert caution and self-care even more than in the daylight.

For anyone other than Melissa who is reading this: yes, I know about respite care and help. One of my most recent positions was managing a portion of a statewide mental health agency where these services were offered. It doesn't really fit for me right now for a variety of reasons … but may in a few more months when we get closer to the hospice stage.

Young1s
Young1s 2012-01-12 21:39:49 -0600 Report

I understand full well how you are feeling. A) I was the same way at 24 and then some; except that I didn't have diabetes and I was a new mother. B) I have 2 daughters nearly as old as you and I'll tell you what I tell them. "This is your life to screw up or succeed in, which one is it going to be." All I can do is pray that I have given them the tools of better judgement to do what's right, most of the time. I hope your parents have done the same for you.

Yes you are young and should be able to live your life as you see fit. By all means do. But be prepared to accept the consequences of your actions in the long run. You are now and you will always be a diabetic. No running away from it. The sooner you come to grips with that, the better off you will be. The fact that you posted this discussion and are checking in on it tells me that you want to do the right thing. BTW: Nobody's judging you, we're merely warning you. I'm praying for you.

Old-n-Grey-n-Wiser
Old-n-Grey-n-Wiser 2012-01-12 21:39:14 -0600 Report

Melissa, if I am one of the people here you feel that don't understand you, just say the word and I will stop responding to You, sorry and if the case be Good by

Tom

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-13 00:55:49 -0600 Report

Yeah u r the one oldandgrey .,. I have so much respect for the others but ur comments just give it up

pixsidust
pixsidust 2012-01-14 15:37:34 -0600 Report

People respond because they care probably more than your friends because it does not seem they help you.
His intent is to get you to think and save yourself out of love and caring. To lash out at someone who has Your best intent is wrong,
at someone who takes the time "to care" is wrong.
Whether you feel understood is not the issue.
Hurting a kind soul is…
An apology would be the right thing to do

j adam
j adam 2012-01-12 20:39:52 -0600 Report

Melissa I know how you feel. It took some time to tell my freinds but whin i did i found that they got on board and help me with this. some of them have come with me to my classes so they can learn more. I have have them watch me when we go out and that helps alot. you might find that if you realy talk to them that will help you and if not then they are not true freinds.

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-01-12 20:21:52 -0600 Report

Hi, Melissa,

Like your new photo; concerned about your choices.

Since you have acknowledged issues with alcohol and Benzo, this is so dangerous for you. I know you know that, so can only hope you will care enough about yourself to get back on track quickly.

We all skid around and make mistakes when we are trying to make changes, but if I blow my diet, I gain a few pounds. If you blow your sobriety, you could end up dead. Somehow, they don't equate.

Please, share with your friends. If they support you, great. If they don't, painful as it is, find new ones. To not make a choice to take care of yourself, is to make a choice to put yourself in serious jeopardy from drugs, diabetes, and lack of insulin.

Hoping you make more positive life choices. Want you to still be there to talk to.

Carol

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-13 01:04:58 -0600 Report

Honestly get what on track my life is way to messed up to fix now even my health

pixsidust
pixsidust 2012-01-14 17:17:57 -0600 Report

Its time for Rehab
Let others who may control you actions and limit your freedom
bring you back to the living

Dixiemom
Dixiemom 2012-01-14 15:13:31 -0600 Report

It's only too late if you let it be. Everyone slides backwards a little in this life, But remember, life is what you make of it. I have grandchildren your age, and no they don't have diabetis but could as I have it and so does their other grandmother. I keep after them to remember to eat right and cut back on the carbs and junk food. Try and surround yourself with more positive thinkng friends, or just educate the ones you have and you may be surprised by their reactions.

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-01-13 01:10:24 -0600 Report

Just keep trying, Melissa, and know we all love you! I had times when I was 15 and 16 that I wanted to take my life too. I saw no hope, no path, no way out. Thankfully, I was too cowardly to try, and, as a result, I had the time to create my own path out of my wilderness and, to my amazement, found that life has been good. That is why I have hope for you, despite how hopeless you feel right now.

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-13 01:28:21 -0600 Report

I just wish I wast a coward n I'd be in peace,,, I love my nephew so much to put him through it… Hes the only one holding me back

Caroltoo
Caroltoo 2012-01-13 02:45:58 -0600 Report

As James said, Hold that thought!

You might be at peace, but you love your nephew and HE would NOT be in peace … he would be angry, hurt, upset, feel lost, wonder what he did to make you take your life, and eventually might even hate you. You know that's not the issue, but the point is that he does not know that and would take all that on himself cause that is what kids do when they lose someone they love.

Your are right; you don't want to do that to him. It would be as unfair to him as what has happened to you is unfair to you.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2012-01-13 01:57:14 -0600 Report

stay with that thought melissa. love your nephew and hold back please!.

I had thoughts of suicide most of my life. My life had become a mess, I finally had a perfect "out" with my needing dialysis, all I would have to do is stop my dialysis treatments and I could drift away. But after thinking more about it I thought about the message my giving up would send to my 3 sons (whom I love with my life). So I continued my treatments.

Had i stopped my treatments and died my whole life after that would be gone - would not have happened.

Many of my problems were solved eventually, and I met and married another fantastic lady, and had a really good life with her (until she passed peacefully in her sleep in July 2010) Meeting and marrying her changed my life for the better. No more thoughts of suicide. I now have a comfortable amount of money coming in every month. I strongly suspect that once you get through this dark place in your life, things will improve. Perhaps not all of a sudden, but slowly and gradually.

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2012-01-12 20:09:12 -0600 Report

Hi Mellissa, you are playing Russian Roulette with your life, you can either throw it away or change it for the better. Until you explain to your friends what Diabetes is and how it will affect you, they won't understand. They will either choose to listen to you or not. It will be their decision. Always remember that everyone you call "friend" isn't your friend it they can talk you into destructive behavior. You can still go out with friends as long as you take your insulin, eat properly and don't drink the night away.

I went on a cruise with a group of friends. My roommate was a lady I didn't know. She got up before me and took a double unit of insulin so she could drink the day away. I was in the shower when my girlfriend came into our cabin and found her on the bed. She too is diabetic and recognized the signs and got her juice. At the time I was not diabetic but I knew the signs. This woman was 50 years old and an RN so she knew better. Had I not been in the room or if my girlfriend had not shown up when she did, this woman could have possibly died.

Melissa, too many young people today equate drinking with having fun. You can have loads of fun without drinking yourself into a stupor. You risk your friends abandoning you or being harmed. They don't know what to do if your blood sugar drops while you are drinking and they could do nothing or take to long to find out what to do.

Please go to detox and talk to a diabetic educator to help you understand what you need to do as a newly diagnosed Type1 diabetic. Educate your friends and if they aren't interested, they aren't your friends. A true friend will be by your side through thick and thin. Good luck to you and I wish the very best for you. I have faith that you will get through this.

Young1s
Young1s 2012-01-12 13:13:03 -0600 Report

Hello Melissa. I want you to take a moment to reflect on the past day and your actions, and ask yourself if it was worth it. I understand your desire to be with your friends, or even to want to drink with them, but at what expense? Your health, your life, is too precious to throw it all away on a night of partying.

I agree with you, in that it would be an ideal situation to have your friends understand the things you're faced with right now. But how much of that is on you? Have you talked to them about your D or explained to them how important it is to take your insulin? You can't expect them to be mind readers. Over time, if you still feel that they aren't at the very least trying to get it, then you might want to analyse the true nature of your friendships.

I'm sorry if it seems like I'm coming down on you, I'm not. I'm just worried for you and would urge you to consider a few things. In the long run, the consequences of many nights like that in a row, will be far greater than waking up with a hangover and a tinge of guilt the next day. Hopefully this episode will get you to see how important it is for you seriously reconsider going to rehab. Friends/boyfriends come and go, but you only get one crack at this life. Whatever future it brings you starts with the decisions you make today. Be safe and be blessed.

roshy
roshy 2012-01-12 12:40:40 -0600 Report

Hi milissa!! i was 16 when i was diagnosed and i think it is one of the most difficult stages to be told you have to adjust your life accordingly to your diabetes. It becomes alot easier to act like your friends and forget about taking your needles or BGs but trust me, it is sooooo hard to break awaey from this habbit as you get older, that can be potentialy very damaging to your health.

I would advise you to speak openly about your needles and BGs to your friends. Educate them yourself. If they are good friends they will be willing to listen. Tell them all about highs and lows and how to treat them. It is aspect of your life, although not a very major one but it needs to taken care so you can go on with the rest of your life.

Have you reserched any teen diabetic support groups in your area?? youd be surprised what kind of groups you can find!! Being able to relate to someone your same age with the same condition can be agreat healp!!

Dont beat yourself up when you let things slip!! just make sure you learn from the mistakes!!

Best of luck dude !! any other questions sure send me a post!!

YOurs truely

Roshy!

door331
door331 2012-01-12 11:28:26 -0600 Report

Hey Melissa, I am 25 and have been a type 1 for 20 years. I had to look at your profile to understand that you were only recently diagnosed in 2011. Obviously there are many things you will need to adjust in life but I won't tell you that you can't drink. You can, but you will need to learn how to do so without dangerously affecting your health. As for educating your friends there is really no one better able to do that than yourself. It will take some time because after all you are new to this too but if you share the knowledge that you learn eventually (hopefully?) your friends will help lookout for your well being.

Since you are on a 30/70 mix am I correct in assuming you do not use a sliding scale and carb counting? In all honestly I would talk to your doctor if this is something you could change, I am not sure what treatment options you have available in Canada.

Two tips I have for consuming alcohol as a diabetic is that heavy alcohol consumption will actually Lower your bloodsugar. So prepare to have something on hand to prevent that. The second thing is to avoid sugary cocktails. It is more difficult to adjust for these since they will make your bloodsugar skyrocket and then plummet later due to the alcohol.

There will be a lot of trial and error to understand how insulin, food, booze, etc all effect your body. I would try to reduce taking chances with food and drinks you aren't sure about until feel more comfortable with your treatment system.

the best of luck to you! if you have any questions feel free to send me a msg.
-Eric

melissa1987
melissa1987 2012-01-13 01:07:41 -0600 Report

Thanks Eric ! Atleast there is someone that understands

roshy
roshy 2012-01-13 20:57:25 -0600 Report

melissa, many us understand exactly where your coming from. I went through years of scared, isolated, hatred, angry resentful feelings, all due to one thing, DIABETES!!

i hated being the girl who injects , who tests her blood before she eats, who cant eat sugar or shouldnt drink and everything else along with the misconceptions with the disease.

I hated the fact i have it for life AND it was up to me to control it. It was me that would suffer the concequences along with my family and my friends who could see the disease slowly crucify the outgoing, fun loving person i used to be!!! It got to a stage where it took over my whole personality and there was no turning back.

I hated the needles so i didnt take them. I knew my sugar levels would be high so i wouldnt bother testing them. I knew the doctor wouldnt be pleased when i attended appointments so i didnt go . Family members knew i was struggling and tried a number of things to help but knew i wasnt ready to deal with it. so things eventually got worse and worse until i decided to take responsability for myslf!!! i was 16 when i was diagnosed and it look a long time, a lot of pain anger and unpleasant experiences for me to finially say enoughis enough.

I deemed myself the worst diabetic in the feckin world because thats how i saw myself. I used to feel so scared at night time because i knew my shitty behavour would get me into seriousl trouble and i didnt know how i would cope when things got even worse down the road. I asked my self questions like "how will i deal with an aputation, or blindness or how will my family deal with it"? and its all down to my bad choices.

But after a DKA wake up which landed me in hospital i changed everything. I took control of what was my responsability . diabetes can seem like a lot of hard work at times but when its under control its the best feeling in the world when you feel like your in the drivers seat and things are finially working because you are making them work.

Im your age and i know how shitty things can be trying to live with this. Diabetes is a major thing to live with but it doesnt give us the right to give up on what else is important in the rest of our lives. Take one step at a time. Dont kick yourself over bad past behovour. You cant change that. But you do have the chance to change your future. YOur only 24!!! you have a lot more to give and to gain. Diabetes is only a condition .. You have a whole live to live!!!

All i can say is messing up is normal, especially when it comes to diabetes. Remember that you are only human and control is a proccess, you will eventually gain control over diabetes over time if you choose to .

I came from a life of distruction, denial, anger and fear which originated from the diagnosis of one disease, im now at a stage of acceptance, responsability and accomplishment , if i can do it, anyone can. Best of luck and please keep intouch with everyone here. Alot of peope are realy struck by your post and care for you.

If you ever want anyone to talk or listen to you can post me a private message.

all my love

roshy

Jan8
Jan8 2012-01-12 06:28:19 -0600 Report

Real friends love you for who you are. I know bwhaha! But, it's true. I take my insulin pen in my purse and go to the BR to give myself a shot. Yes,you need friends as much as you need your insulin.

Old-n-Grey-n-Wiser
Old-n-Grey-n-Wiser 2012-01-12 06:26:43 -0600 Report

Melissa, you are your worst enemy right now, until you really want to change your life it will be the same. You have to start the change by changing yourself to the better, not living life in the care free self destructing manner that you do now. I apologize for being so blunt and probably sounding like your parents, but it hurts to see someone with a future throw away their life with a few bad choices. Some of us here really do care what becomes of you, maybe even to the point of adding unneeded stress on ourselves through worry about you. You know how to contact me please do!
Tom

red flower lady
red flower lady 2012-01-13 20:53:03 -0600 Report

Tom, you are absolutely correct and no amount of help from us will help, until she is ready to change her life and stop blaming diabetes as the problem:)

Set apart
Set apart 2012-01-12 06:14:18 -0600 Report

Hi Melissa, I guess you are trying to just live, but as a newcomer to all of this I just want to reassure you that you are not alone. With this you also need to surround yourself with people who love you and will respect you no matter what, this means that you should be able to share and educate them about the person that you are. If they are true friends thet will stay at your side. As for boyfriends and companions there are good men out there who do not need to have a drink to have a good time. My husband checks on me all the time, in my sleep I can feel him touching my face and neck go make sure I am not sweating, etc. So take action and be proactive with yourself, you come first! Blessings and good luck!

jayabee52
jayabee52 2012-01-12 04:44:50 -0600 Report

Howdy Melissa! Sorry to hear you are having trouble with messing up.

How badly do you want the benzos monkey off your back? I don't want to scold you, (you're to big a young woman for that anyway). but you need to do something you don't want to do, sign yourself into detox, to get clean, sober, and healthy.

Then perhaps you can be more picky about your boyfriends and pick one who knows about your diabetes and won't put you in situations where you are more tempted to mess up.

Continuing to ask God in prayer for that good outcome for you.

James

EDIT: I submit this article posted recently on DC for your consideration. See it here ~ http://www.diabeticconnect.com/discussions/14... and please read the replies to the post. Some of them are really good insights. (especially turning them into postitive statements to tell yourself)

watson4042
watson4042 2012-01-12 00:12:03 -0600 Report

you know better than to do this to yourself! if your friends don't know about diabetes then it's up to you to teach them. if they are truly your friends they will understand and not push you to do activies that are harmful.

pixsidust
pixsidust 2012-01-12 00:09:52 -0600 Report

I wish I knew the right words to say
to tell you to make yourself a priority
and to get clean…detox and stay clean
You have to really pick your friends especially boyfriends
who are mature enough to support you to be your best
Who want your health and your life to be long