Depression and diabetes

By Mohratiso Latest Reply 2012-01-13 20:16:52 -0600
Started 2012-01-09 09:36:01 -0600

Hello everyone. i have just joined diabetic connect and have so much to talk about ask etc i dont know where to start. i was diagnossed with diabetes type 2 just over a year ago and went straight onto metformin and glebenclimide, the first 3 or so months were terrible as i was depressed and felt sorry for myself, i eventually accepted that i had to change my lifestyle and things seemed ok. for a few months i ate right and exercised, of late (since august) i have binged on all the wrong foods and almost feel like i am on a self destructive tip, is this normal???? and please dont judge me :-(

15 replies

watson4042 2012-01-13 20:16:52 -0600 Report

no one will judge you, but we will support you. i was told just a few months ago take i had diabetes. i have to admit i really haven't changed my diet that much, at least not like i should! but i do make some effort to be good. my numbers are all over the place. and when i'm feeling sorry for myself i eat chocolate pudding and hot french bread with real butter. still need to start the exercise stuff but i'd rather read and play games on the pc. i know from reading the dc family posts that i'm doing everything wrong! i need to practice moderation and portion control…just like everyone here will tell you. i must say that i'm kinda glad to hear that someone else is doing it as badly as i am. i'll root for you & you can root for me and maybe together we'll do it right this time around?!:)

eristar 2012-01-13 06:27:03 -0600 Report

Hi and welcome! I've been diagnosed as a type 2 for about a year and a half, and have been on this site for close to a year now. I know all about slipping back to eating those things you crave!!!!! My numbers were good enough that I was "naughty" a lot over the holidays. Now I am having trouble getting them back into check…I learned about my diabetes before spinal surgery - they could not perform the procedure until my numbers got into some sort of normal range. Now I am only on metformin, but I am hoping I won't have to go back on insulin to get me back on track! In other words, yes, I think you are normal!!! :)

allicatblue 2012-01-13 05:46:40 -0600 Report

hi i also had started out great and then kind of fizzled. but im getting back on track myself. no judgement from me it can be tough but your amoung friends here

red flower lady
red flower lady 2012-01-10 22:44:48 -0600 Report

Hi and welcome. I am so glad you came here as you can get the help you need from some really great people, and no we don't judge. I would love to help you, but I have always been a type 1, juvenile, so my situation differs from yours. Good luck

Jim Edwards
Jim Edwards 2012-01-09 13:54:09 -0600 Report

Only the innocent ones can judge you and cast the first stone. I would not be in the front of that line! One of the tough things is that medicine for diabetes seems to work differently on different people. It isn't like ibruprofen where if you have pain, almost everybody feels some relief. Doing an about face on life style is not easy. Keep working at eating the right foods as much as you can. When you fall, get up and do it again. This is not for wimps! hang in there. Jim

Mohratiso 2012-01-10 00:47:22 -0600 Report

thank you very much.. u r right, it's not easy but it's doable and i can't give up. I'll keep at it :-)

jayabee52 2012-01-09 11:13:55 -0600 Report

Howdy Mohratiso WELCOME to DiabeticConnect (DC)! Sorry you qualify for inclusion in our "little" family but since you do I am glad you are here.

I would expect you will find warm, loving people who care for you. I've been here for 3+ yrs because of the people who are part of this family. No, I won't judge you, and I doubt many people will here. I expect you will be warmly welcomed and loved here.

You ask is what you experienced after your diagnosis (Dx)"normal"? Yes, for many people it is. Different people have differing reactions to being first Dx'd, and yours is one of those reactions. I had a similar reaction myself to being Dx'd about 16 yrs ago. My wife (at that time - now my ex) threatened to divorce me if I didn't start taking care of myself. I took her seriously and she didn't divorce me over that issue. She divorced me years later over other issues, and my diabetes was one issue among several.

After the divorce, I then decided to chuck my self care (which wasn't actually all that great) and decided to try what is called "diabulemia" ( more info on that here ~ ) which is trying to lose weight by going into a Ketoacidosis state. IT IS NOT RECOMMENDED! I really didn't lose that much weight because I was a Type 2 and it is DANGEROUS as someone doing that (usually a Type 1) may fall into a coma or even die!

Yes, after first Dx I was depressed also. Many of the folks who come to DC after being newly Dx'd are depressed. But quite often that depression is short lived due to the friendliness and helpfulness of folks here.

But you DO have the ability to do this and do it well. I myself have been for the last 11 months managing my diabetes by eating a low carb high protein meal plan and avoiding breads and things like it. I keep my Blood glucose (BG) levels at or near the normal range, my last A1c is 5.5, and I have lost something like 50 lbs since Feb 2011. Is it easy? NO. But it is worth it to me. You may or may not be able to do this, depending on your pancratic output level. But one has to be in the right frame of mind to do it, and I wasn't until Feb 2011, ( about 15 years or so. ) I would not expect that you be ready right now either, but the option is there should you want to take it eventually.

You've probably heard enough of me for a while

I pray this has been helpful to you and non-judgmental on my part.

To your better health

James Baker

PS please accept my friend request. That way we may be enabled to "talk" via the DC inboxes.

also we do have several folks from the UK here fairly regularly. Folks from Tazmania, Great Britain, Scotland, Ireland. So where are you from? (I am in Las Vegas NV. I got the hint from your using the name Glibenclamide for what we call here in the USA "Glyburide"

Mohratiso 2012-01-10 09:26:16 -0600 Report

awwwww thank you for the support, warm welcome and not making me feel judged. You have also opened my eyes :-) I live in Botswana (Southern Africa) hence me using a different name for the meds… my weight isn't so bad (64kgs) just that my dietician says i have to lose centimeters round my waist and that is not an easy thing to do but i know i can do it. i've been tryong to accept your friend request but it says the link is not available?!?!?

jayabee52 2012-01-10 10:30:18 -0600 Report

puzzling! You might want to tell one of the CAs about it Those people showed up in your "friends list" when you first signed on to DC. They'll get their tech ppl to check it out!

pixsidust 2012-01-09 10:57:42 -0600 Report

Everyone has to feel some sort of sadness
discovering you have the disease
I grieved. I cried.
I told everyone I cared about how I felt about them
Basically saying goodbye , just in case…
My Doctor also said I could have a stroke at any moment
My triglycerides were 1051.
I felt so vulnerable and frightened.
Then I embraced my disease and changed my lifestyle
I ate right as you said you have done
I brought my numbers down in a huge fashion
Have I cheated from time to time…yes

I think the important thing here is
that you make yourself important

Many, myself included have felt unimportant when someone
we care about rejects us or treats us poorly
I have never felt like I truly fit in with the "in" crowd
Even when I was thin
Feeling on the outside can make one feel unimportant as well

You have to decide that you are a priority again
You lost that some how, but by reaching out I think
that you want that again.

Try giving yourself small goals to reach
so you have something to feel good about.
Give yourself some Joy!
Perhaps its to test regularly or walk.
Keep a journal to track where you want to be
and where you are that day marching towards that goal
I am going to keep a weight journal
Believe me as I see each pound come off thats Joy!
another goal is to limit your carb count
Be realistic or you will set yourself up for failure though

I am sorry you are sad and it seems you feel bad
about falling off the apple cart…I do as well
You have a chance to change all that
and we will support you, every step of the way.
Won't you modify your kitchen and begin again?

Today will soon be yesterday and a thing of the past.
Tomorrow will be a better day and you can make it so
with your new friends here at Diabetic Connnect

Love to You, Christy

Mohratiso 2012-01-10 09:32:14 -0600 Report

:-) i am glad to see that i am not alone in this battle, there are times i have thought i am losing my mind!!! thank you for sharing as well as the tips… I lurve the idea of keeping a weight journal, i'd like to lose 6kgs at the most and at least 8cms around my waist… ive signed up the gym and just need to make time to go, i started walking last week and not only am i sleeping better but my mood is getting better… soooooo i'm going to start recording my weight today, how often do you suggest we update it, weekly? enuf about me, where are you?

sweetkyfirefly83 2012-01-09 10:36:42 -0600 Report

Mohratiso, I can tell you that when I was diagnosed I did the same thing. I think I was in denial that I was actually sick. I was only 22, and I felt I was too young to be sick. I would take my meds when I was supposed to, but then I would binge as well.

Im 28 now, and until recently I still acted like I wasnt sick. Alot of my friends didnt know I was even diabetic. It took me being hospitalized with a high blood sugar level to realize that I was sick and had to take care of it.

So I understand how you feel completely. I have moments where I feel broken, damaged and like a burden to my family, but in the end, I know they would rather have me as I am, then not have me at all! :)

If you need to talk, hit me up.

Mohratiso 2012-01-10 09:43:16 -0600 Report

are you serious about being hospitalized? thats my greatest fear, my sugars are hardly ever too high as the medication keeps it at the right levels however sometimes i go hypo and that scares me lots… i have a 3 year old son so last thing i want is for him to lose me at such a young age coz i am not looking after myself… on another note, which part of the world are you in?

sweetkyfirefly83 2012-01-10 22:15:58 -0600 Report

I am in Kentucky USA. And yeah, I've been hospitalized a total of 4 times since I was diagnosed. It sucks. My 8 year old remembers not being able to wake me up. My one year old is too young to know.