I have been diabetic for 11 yrs now and this is my first attempt to reach out for help/advice. I was 13 and had a blood sugar of 960 when I was diagnosed, I was never hospitalized. It was a wake up call for my family. In one day everything changed. I would love to be selfish and make this all about me, and up until recently I made sure my diagnosis was all about me. My parents and sister were also impacted greatly by this but were very attentive to make sure I was always okay. I took 2 shots a day and checked my sugar 4, 6 months later I was on the pump. I was extremely lucky to be put on the pump considering some people take 4+ shots and check their sugar 8+ times a day. I talked to 2 different shrinks that didn't help, they almost seemed to make it worse with their ignorance. I was raised in a Christian household, every church service somebody made sure to pray for my healing. For months this went on and for months I was greatly disappointed. With every disappointment I cared less. I stopped checking my sugars and stopped taking insulin. On the pump my highest A1C was 14. I've been hospitalized twice while on the pump. The first time it was so bad I couldn't hold down water and blacked out. The second time was roughly 4 months ago and was caused because of the kidney infection and a UTI, which was caused by my kidneys slowly failing. My last labs showed protein spilling into my urine. My doctor constantly tells me I'm not immortal and that I'm self destructive. I've been lucky that I haven't been in the hospital more than twice. I'm getting tired of checking sugars and worrying about taking insulin for every little thing. I have been doing horrible as a diabetic for so long it is a constant struggle to remember to take insulin or to check my sugar. I have tried to set alarms for reminders but if I'm busy when it goes off I clear it and forget it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
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