By Anonymous Latest Reply 2014-12-31 12:14:29 -0600
Started 2011-12-31 22:02:34 -0600

I haven't made any resolutions in over 30 years-never could keep them so what was the point?! I don't drink alcohol so I'll raise my glass of iced tea to toast to the new year. God bless us all whether you believe in Him or not. Sadly I'm stepping into this new year with suicide in the back of my mind. I never thought I would ever consider it but I don't know if I can face the possiblity of losing my feet/legs. I had a psychiatrist for years but she gave me up because I owed her money, not much, under $100. But after 8 years of being her patient…what does that say? She gave me up when I needed her the most. I can't live here with these circumstances much longer. I have to get out of here in the next three months one way or another. No one is listening, no one is paying attention. Happy New Year

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RebDee 2014-12-31 12:14:29 -0600 Report

We at DC are listening and paying attention. Suicide is not the answer. Where do you live? Is there a mental health clinic where you can go (usually they are free or very inexpensive)? As for losing your feet or legs, it is the lesser of the evils rather than losing your life. Do you have friends who can come over for tea? Someone to talk to? Family? Remember that the start of a new year is like going from one room to another, if you dont like what is going on in one room, going to another will change that. Think positive. We at DC have your back, help us to help you.

Jan8 2014-12-31 11:23:46 -0600 Report

My one shrink gave up on me too. I got right back in there and got a new one. The best I've ever had. If you are having suicidal thoughts even if in the back of your mind you need to go to a hospital. I had many patients who lost legs and the happiest moment was to see them standing with suits on and I never realized they were that tall. We never know what is going to happen to us in our lives but please please don't give up the ship. happy New year to you.

Young1s 2012-01-01 09:33:04 -0600 Report

I just want you to know that I have said a prayer for you. I prayed that you would look upon this day with a new perspective on your situation. I prayed that you met this new day with a change of mind and a change of heart. So, you can see that, as bad as things may seem right now, there is an answer out there waiting for you. You just have to keep looking for it. I prayed that God would wrap his loving arms around you, to heal you and protect you from this sense of despair that has a hold on you. I prayed that your fear of what this disease is doing to you, or may do to you, will become your new source of strength to fight harder for your life. And I prayed that God place someone (family, professional, a good samaritan) in your path to help you through this difficult time, so that you will start to realize that you're worth the fight. Your first step was this post.

I don't think really want to end your life, otherwise you wouldn't have posted this discussion. I don't want you to either. I think you just want to know that someone is still listening to you. That someone actually hears your cries and understands that you are in some serious pain. Well we hear your loud and clear. What your psychiatrist did to you was unconscionable. But please don't punish yourself for that persons displaced values and financial greed. They are clearly in that profession for all the wrong reasons. But for every bad psychiatrist, there are 10 times a many good ones out there who are willing to and can help you work through this. I pray that your find that one sooner than later. I hope knowing that we are here for you whenever you need to talk, vent, yell, etc…will act as a comfort and keep you with us for years to come. Be blessed.