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Mickey/CCHT
By Mickey/CCHT Latest Reply 2011-12-11 03:54:15 -0600
Started 2011-12-02 18:04:38 -0600

I'm very scared right now. One of my biggest fears is staring me in the face.

I went to the eye doctor today. Was time for my yearly check-up. I have been noticing, almost like a smudge on my glasses, from my left eye. Now, I was told about 15 years ago that I had a very small catarac(sp?) in my left eye. Been watching it for years and it has grown a little over the years, but not by much. Well, I thought maybe that is what it was. It is not.

I was told that my retina is separating and has bubbled out and there is fluid in it. It is going to require surgery, but we do not know how badly yet. Because it is Friday late afternoon, she was not able to get ahold of a specialist. I will have to wait til Monday.

She wants me to lay down and take it easy. No lifting or any exercises or anything that would cause pressure or trama. I have to work tomorrow! I'm freaked! When I told her I HAD to work, she just told me to take it easy! Right! Not only that, I have to wait until Monday to even find out when I can see the specialist to find out what is the total picture. She said it could be as easy as a small laser procedure, or I might have to have a surgery. I think I'm going to cry.

Thank you my DC family, again, for letting me get this out. The support I receive from all of you is such a blessing. Thank You!

God Bless, Mickey


138 replies

pixsidust
pixsidust 2011-12-11 03:43:22 -0600 Report

I love you Mickey I am glad the Lord Jesus brought us together

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-11 03:54:15 -0600 Report

OH! You are so sweet! I am very thankful also to have you as a friend! I hope we get to meet one day so I can give you a big hug!!! Know that you are loved, not just me, but from a lot of people here. You are an amazing person. I am blessed to have you as a friend!
God Bless you,
Love, Mickey

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-09 21:55:52 -0600 Report

Have an update: Talked to the lady who does the surgery scheduling. It looks like it will probably be January 5th for the surgery. She is going to double check with the Doctor, but she said from what she knew, it would be cool.

And do you know, that with all the outpouring of support and prayers from all of you, it has made me feel alot better. People have shared their knowledge and support, so I'm feeling really good about this. I'm sure I will probably get a little more nerved up the closer I get, but that cannot be helped, I'm human!!! Plus, when you know that Our Savior walks with you, he will protect me. He has so far!

I cannot say "Thank You" enough that will show the depth of my appreciation for all the love and support you all have given me!

MY FELLOW WARRIORS, YOU ROCK!!!
May God's love shine down on all of you and bless you.
With Love, Michelle

margokittycat
margokittycat 2011-12-08 19:20:58 -0600 Report

Dear Mickey I am doing some catching up on here, with the emails and notes we post back and forth, I just read your story and update. I encourage you to do the surgery as soon as possible. We love and care about you and the sooner it is taken care of the better. You are in my prayers. Love, Margo

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-09 00:14:49 -0600 Report

Thank you so much Margo. You are pretty special too! I could not do this with out the love and support of my DC family. I get such inspiration from all of you!
They finally called me yesterday to talk about the surgery. I was at work though and did not get the message until after they were closed. So I'm going to call them back today from work and see what they say. Will keep all of you posted!
With Love, Mickey

Type1Lou
Type1Lou 2011-12-07 12:17:50 -0600 Report

Dear Mickey, I've just read your updates and am glad that they've pinpointed the problem. Like pixidust, I would encourage you to have this done ASAP. The people who love you won't care if you look like a raccoon! Your eyesight is too precious to risk. Sending hugs and good wishes!
Lou

pixsidust
pixsidust 2011-12-06 22:19:10 -0600 Report

Mickey, I would not put this off. You aren't even supposed to lift a gallon of milk. What if it gets worse …tears all the way. If you get it done now you will be fine by xmas. Please do not wait…

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 22:46:02 -0600 Report

The doc did not seem to worried about it. He did allow me to go back to work after I told him what I do. And he did say there is some scaring that is keeping it from going any further. But you are right, I may call and he might say no, we can't wait. I will do what he wants, I would not fight him on it. Will let you know. Thank you so much for your concern for me. It really warms my soul. God Bless you friend!

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:12:16 -0600 Report

Okay my friends. They never called me today like they were supposed to, about the appt. And I was super busy at work, as usual! But If I don't hear from them by the afternoon, I plan on calling them. They might be trying to get an answer from my lovely (sarcasm!) insurance! But I will call anyway, because I'm going to see if we can do this in January. It will be easier to have coverage at work, easier to have someone drive my around for 2 days back and forth to the doctor. And I really don't want to look like I was in a bar fight for christmas and scare the kids!! LOL

I have a doctor appt with my regular doctor to check my A1c. Tomorrow will show me if my hard work for the past couple of months has shown any improvement in my numbers!! Keep your fingers crossed for me!!

A bunch of you sent me gifts today and well wishes. I seen them in my email account. But when I came here and got on my profile page, only one of them showed up for me to respond too! So I wanted to thank you, because I can't remember who sent what! Please do not think I am discounting any of you, that cannot be farther from the truth! Please know I am very grateful to all of you for your love, support and prayers. They have made a HUGE difference in how I dealt with this!

God Bless All Of You!
With Love, Mickey

lifedriver
lifedriver 2011-12-07 15:53:45 -0600 Report

God is good all the time. Mickey, I am happy for you. Now you can allow things to manifest and let the healing begin.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-12-06 21:18:14 -0600 Report

that's good to hear Mickey

You know that in your emails there is a clickable link which takes you directly to that particular gift and/or message.

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:55:10 -0600 Report

Really!! I did not know that! I seen some stuff at the bottom, but did really check it out! That's what I get! I ended up deleting everything by accident!! Oh well, live and learn! Thanks for telling me that!
Peace, Mickey

nzingha
nzingha 2011-12-06 20:38:27 -0600 Report

pls listen to ur doc and take it easy…and try to relax.. worrying the say never solves anything.. but thats easier said than done.

Gabby
GabbyPA 2011-12-06 17:10:50 -0600 Report

A plan is more of a relief that you can imagine. It may be a scary plan, but it is a plan. One step at a time and before you know it, you will not even know that it happened. See, there are advantages to being Polish. LOL

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:02:39 -0600 Report

LMAO!! How true is that!!! I'm a Polish Indian, do you know what that makes me??
A fierce klutz!! LOL Just my little joke I thought I would share with you!!

pixsidust
pixsidust 2011-12-06 10:21:54 -0600 Report

When is surgery?

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:04:35 -0600 Report

They did not call me today, and I was SO busy at work that I did not get a chance to call. I will tomorrow though. I hope not to have it until Jan. Only because I do not want to look like I was in a bar brawl for christmas! I would scare all the kids!! LOL
Plus it would be much harder to get coverage and all that. Hope to know more tom. will let ya know friend!!
Peace, Mickey

meowbat
meowbat 2011-12-06 09:35:51 -0600 Report

glad to hear all the good news!!!!! My adopted son is getting the surgery today in one eye. he's getting the other eye done in Feb. You will do just fine. you have faith and we all have faith in your strength. IT all can only get better from here. GRINS&HAPPYS——-Meowbat

SCLWKR
SCLWKR 2011-12-05 17:41:39 -0600 Report

Mickey, Whewwwww, so relieved that you have answers and a treatment plan. Try to not worry about the actual procedure, it is in the hands of the doctors. Give your burden up to a higher power, if that is your belief, and continue to do everything you can to make healthy choices and live well and live long with diabetes. As is my motto, "Keep on Keeping on!" ((Hugs)) Sherrie

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-05 17:32:40 -0600 Report

Okay all my wonderful, caring, loving friends. Here it is in a nut shell:

Doctor told me my retina has peeled away from itself and is rolling up like old wallpaper will do. This has been like this for ATLEAST a few months to maybe a year. There has been scaring that has formed to stop the retina from rolling up anymore, but it does need to be fixed. The reason I did not notice any sooner is because when this happens to most people, it peels from the top down, so the shadow they see is right in their line of sight,or just below. Because I'm backwards( cuz I'm 1/2 Polish?!) the shadow is at the top and I would only see it now and again. And actually I was only conscience of it for about the last month! So…

To fix it the short of it is, they will numb the area around my eye, open the eye wide, cut the muscles that control eye movement to be able to put a "band" around the eye and tack down the retina. Then they will sew everything back together. He said I will be really really sore and it will look like I got into a fight! I will have a patch for one day, and then have to go back(outpatient surgery) and have the patch removed and eye checked. Doc said it will be about 2-3weeks to heal. So…

Now I know what the whole story is, and what we are going to do. Now I can freak about what they are going to do to me!! Not really, I have the Lord walking with me and the love and support of all of you and my family and friends here. I will be all right. All of your love and support and prayers have been great. I will let ya know when the surgery is going down. I won't be able to be here for the recovery time! I'm not allowed to read for that time! What will I do, maybe my daughter can tell me what is going on here, and she can type for me!! LOL JK!!

Thank you again everyone. You are all appreciated!
Blessings to all, Love, Mickey

tabby9146
tabby9146 2011-12-07 09:46:09 -0600 Report

I will say a prayer for you and I am sure it will turn out well, I've read and known about peple to have this, and they turned out well, really. But it is so normal to feel scared. I would too.

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-11 03:34:08 -0600 Report

Hi! Sorry, for some reason I did not catch this post when you did it. Sorry about that!

I thank you for the prayers, they are much appreciated! It's the love and support from all of you that has really settled me down. I'm not so worried about it now that I have the actual diagnosis from the specialist and a plan of attack! I"m sure I will be more nervous the closer I get to that date, but with all the support from my DC family and love and protection from my Savior, I willbe ok! I am a D Warrior!!
Blessings to you, Mickey

reneeramaekers
reneeramaekers 2011-12-06 08:06:20 -0600 Report

Oh Mickey ,,, so sorry youare going through this !!! But glad your going to be ok !!!!
Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers !!!!
Take care of yourself !!!!
Renee

jigsaw
jigsaw 2011-12-06 07:56:23 -0600 Report

Mickey…My wife had a similar situation happen about 3 years ago! She began to see the shadow as you described. She was very scared. Fortunately, I suspected what was happening. I immediately took her to emergency at the hospital. It was determined that her retina was in the process of detaching! To make a long story short, we got her to a well respected retinologist the next mor ning. He repaired her retina with a laser while I watched right in his office! He assured us that he had done thousands of retina repairs, and there was little chance of anything going wrong. The procedure took less than 10 minutes. It's been three years, her eye is still perfectly ok. This doctor (Retinologist) had tremendous on hands experience with detached retinas, and that helped to eliminate risk with the repair procedure.
I hope all goes well with your situation! Feel free to ask any questions, since obviously there are some similar characteristics with your experience…Al

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:18:30 -0600 Report

Thank you so much for sharing this with me. So very glad your wife is doing well!
My retina has been pulling up for awhile now the specialist said.He said if it was fresh I would be having surgery right away(tomorrow!). But because it is older and has some scaring that is keeping it from "rolling" up anymore, we have a little time. I can work and all, but just supposed to be cool and not get crazy. told me no jumping jacks and I told him NO PROBLEM!! LOL
So we will see what happens. Hoping to find out tomorrow if I can wait until the new year because of transportation, work and I don't want to look like i was in a fight for the christmas pictures!! Plus I would probably scare the little ones. My oldest nephew would probably think i was cool! Not worth the street cred though! LOL
Thanks again for sharing!
Blessings to you and yours, Mickey

berrykins0
berrykins0 2011-12-06 06:46:54 -0600 Report

thats good news to hear they can fix whats wrong with your eye. i'm glad to hear its something they can fix and repair so things can go back to normal after it heals.have to up date us on how things are going when ever you can after your surgery when you can. take care and take it easy after surgery.

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:21:14 -0600 Report

Thank you my friend! I will keep ya posted. They did not call me today, but prob trying to work it out with my wonderful insurance!! I will call tomorrow after my other doctor appointment to see if we can do it in January. don't know if doc will let me wait that long. We will see!
Keep your fingers crossed for me tomorrow. Going to get lab results, going to see if my A1c has come down!! All this hard work, it better!! LOL
Talk to ya soon!
Peace, Mickey

June Tademy
June Tademy 2011-12-05 20:57:38 -0600 Report

I have just finished my prayer of thanks for the great report. I will continue to do so. You are very strong in your faith, I like that. Take care and God's Speed, He will be holding your hand all the way!!!

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:23:12 -0600 Report

AMEN to that! Thank you SO much. I very much appreciate that. More than words can say. I walk with the Lord, so I know I'm good. But being human, that darn fear tries to creep up, but I just kick it to the curb!!
Keep your fingers crossed for me tomorrow, Going to get lab results, and hoping my hard work has shown up with a lower A1c #
Blessings, Mickey

June Tademy
June Tademy 2011-12-07 10:37:13 -0600 Report

Yep I will do so, I have to take labs soon this month and also hoping for the best, we will do fine and yes we are human and we do have fears and will continue to have them but all will be fine, we will just keep on keeping on. Good luck to you and God's speed.

Young1s
Young1s 2011-12-05 19:29:23 -0600 Report

Okay so now you know. Now you can scream, ahhhhhhhhh. Phew. Did the doc say if this is a routine procedure because it sounds a little more to it than the laser. Thanks for the visual by the way. Lol I hope this happens sooner than later but will miss you while you're gone. You are in my prayers.

Oh yeah. You still need to be careful of straining your eye. But I don't need to tell you that. Nevermind me. Be blessed.

Oops Mickey, I didn't mean to post this anonymously the first time. I was typing it wiith my cellphone keyboard so I guess my fingers slipped. :p

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:27:03 -0600 Report

Your all good!! No Problem!!
Doc told me i could work, just take it easy. Told me no jumping jacks, and I told him NO problem!! LOL
It will be a little more intense than a quicky laser thing! They are actually going to cut all the muscles that move my eye! Hope he doesnt drop my eye!! LOL JK Gotta laugh about it, better than crying!
Don't know when the surgery is going to be, have not heard yet. Will call them after my other doc appt tomorrow. Hoping for my labs to show a lower A1c #. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Thanks for all your support friend. You are great. Bear Hugs and Love, Mickey

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-12-05 18:40:38 -0600 Report

That's great to hear you have a plan of care and that things are in progress to heal your eye.

Do you know that it is beliveved that the apostle Paul's "thorn in the flesh" (2 Cor. 12:7-10) was that there was a problem with his eyes? (from variouis other remarks he made in his letters)

My prayers for you continue.

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-05 18:43:44 -0600 Report

Thank you very much my friend! Will keep ya posted!
With Love, Mickey

Set apart
Set apart 2011-12-06 10:44:47 -0600 Report

Mickey, I am so glad that you have a plan, I am telling you this place is addictive! Here you are going through all of this and one of your worries is that you will miss out on what's going on here with your D-family. You're truly an amazing woman, your faith also is what will carrry you through this. Your heart is strong and your faith is what comes from something we do not SEE - it is the strength within us - so let yourself be heard. I believe that nothing happens without God's hand in it, so let his plan continue. Blessings and Hugs!

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:28:55 -0600 Report

That was so sweet. It brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for all your kind words and support. They really go along way!
Keep your fingers crossed for me tomorrow, getting labs back and hoping my A1c has come down with all my hard work!!
Peace, Mickey

SCLWKR
SCLWKR 2011-12-05 17:42:35 -0600 Report

Mickey, Whewwwww, so relieved that you have answers and a treatment plan. Try to not worry about the actual procedure, it is in the hands of the doctors. Give your burden up to a higher power, if that is your belief, and continue to do everything you can to make healthy choices and live well and live long with diabetes. As is my motto, "Keep on Keeping on!" ((Hugs)) Sherrie

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-05 17:53:57 -0600 Report

I'm with ya! I'm leaving it in the Lords hands. I can't stress over it, it will not help me at all! But that whole human factor keeps kicking in and so when I start thinking of it I try and think of something else. Being a warrior, we have to save ourselves for the big battles, not the mental warfare! That just has to be put aside so I don't waste my energy on something pointless!!
And yes, that is my belief, that is if you are talking about our Father God!! I have faith like a child!! And it is AWESOME!!
Thanks again for being here for me! You are so very sweet and caring. Don't change that, it is a blessing here!
With Love, Mickey

lisaloo2429
lisaloo2429 2011-12-05 11:17:07 -0600 Report

I'm sorry to hear that sweetie, I am praying for you right now. Please keep us informed and we will continue to pray for you.

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:30:00 -0600 Report

Thank you so much! How are you doing? Have not talked with you in awhile! How is your sister doing? I pray everything is ok. Hit me back when you get a chance, ok?
Peace, Mickey

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-05 08:53:07 -0600 Report

Hi everyone, just wanted to let you know…I just got the call to go see the specialist! Yeah! Going in this morning at 11:30, will let ya know what happens!

Thank you everyone for your love, support and prayers. They are appreciated more than you know! Love to all, Mickey

granniesophie
granniesophie 2011-12-05 14:06:53 -0600 Report

woo hoo! that's great news. now you'll know whats going on and get it fixed. fingers crossed its easy to fix and you heal really quickly :)

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-06 21:31:10 -0600 Report

Knowledge is always good, I think!! LOL
How is your mom doing sweetie? I pray she is good. It is a sore surgery to have, so I hope it went well. Been thinking of her.
God Bless you both, Mickey

pixsidust
pixsidust 2011-12-05 08:49:41 -0600 Report

Lord
Let this day go well.
I pray the doctor is empathetic
The news good
The answers simple
Surgery if needed quick
reasons found for why
and Peace
Peace in the heart of Mickey
To Trust and feel safe
Favor with her employer
Finances that are abundant
Support for her care, and that of her child
In Jesus Name

Elizabeth is laying on the table as I write this
underneath is my dog Ruby.
Ruby has been mine for 11 years.
She lived on the streets.
The neighbors in the area all said she just ran free
She is short like a welch corgi
with a curly plume tail and a round puppy head
looking more like a lab puppy.
She was afraid to approach a food bowl unless you backed away
Now she is the most good natured animal
She has welcomed each addition with a roll of her eyes
and a wag of her tail.
She follows me from room to room…

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-05 08:51:48 -0600 Report

You are such a good friend to us all! I really appreciate the prayers! you are wonderful! God Bless you everyday! With Love, Mickey

Jan8
Jan8 2011-12-04 17:15:24 -0600 Report

can you call off work and relax? When it comes to your health you come first.If you were told to lay down just do it until you can see a doc. You don't want the retina to detach any more than it is already. So many of us have been told work comes first and foremost. It doesn't. You do.

Mickey/CCHT
Mickey/CCHT 2011-12-04 20:57:33 -0600 Report

I did go to work on Saturday, but they got someone to come in and send me home. While I was there my on co-worker did all the big stuff to get ready for the day, and I did the computer work! Since then I have been home chilling! Just waiting for the call tomorrow!

Jan8
Jan8 2011-12-05 06:17:06 -0600 Report

I am happy you took good care of yourself. Many problems can be avoided or lessened.

saber32
saber32 2011-12-04 07:58:55 -0600 Report

time for my yearly check-up in jan 5 2012 my eye docter called me yesterday to need to change the day fron jan third to the 5th of jan for my eye check up . and said please bring the your computer glasess with you i was reading your papper work i think im going to change your glasses to a stronger lenses and move your apointment too .

berrykins0
berrykins0 2011-12-05 12:19:32 -0600 Report

good luck to you my eye appointment went well about a week ago. third time around after being told i have diabetes.thank goodness.

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