Discouraged and Disappointed

By aveedazane Latest Reply 2011-11-15 08:03:50 -0600
Started 2011-11-14 11:18:49 -0600

I have been a diabetic type 2 for 7 years, probably longer had the doctors tested me for it way back when. I am so disappointed in myself because I just can't seem to control my sugar urges. I would rather sit around and just munch on anything that has sugar or salt or both all day and not eat one healthy thing. My A1C this month was down 8.1 from 9.5 but I have no idea why. I love salads and fresh veggies but I just can't seem to stay away from the sugar. I've thought about hypnosis but on a fixed income their cost is out of the question. I don't know what to do. I watch my brother in law slowly kill himself for the same thing I'm doing, why didn't I learn my lesson from him? I have 3 beautiful grandchildren and a wonderful bunch of kids but still, I suffer. I also have bi-polar disorder with rapid cycling and major depressive disorder for which I take tons of meds for. Yelling at me doesn't help, it makes it worse. Is there someone out there that has these issues? I've been to nutritionists and classes, (heavy sigh) what do I do. FYI on the diabetes end, I am taking metformin 2X a day; Novolog flexpen 38 m 3 X day and humalog by syringe at 90 m every evening. Help!!!!!!!

6 replies

Mickey/CCHT 2011-11-14 18:47:02 -0600 Report

I feel for you. I work in a field were one of the top two reasons for kidney failure is diabetes! Yet i still did not do what needed to be done. It took my body giving me a wake up call that i finally said, ok, i am going to do this. No one can tell you, or show you anything to make you do it, you just have to decide this is what you want and fight for it. Is it easy? NO!! I have had a couple of slips, and i'm still working out what is going to work best for me. But I refuse to give up or give in. I want to be around for a while to be here for my family, and i want to do this not feeling bad or having lost digits, limbs, or eyesight because of D.

I did not go on a diet, i am on a lifestyle change. A change to feel better, look better and be better. I pray that you find that strength in yourself to join me! I will be here for you! You do not do this alone. We are all here and the Lord walks with you.
God Bless, MIckey

Uncle Lew
Uncle Lew 2011-11-14 15:09:56 -0600 Report

I used to get the urges. I was a chef and baker for almost 30 years before becoming disabled and love absolutely decadent comfort foods. I know the foods I like and how to create them exactly to my taste.

I have worked out a system with my endo that allows me to satisfy and even prevent these urges by including these foods in my meal plans and compensating with units of Novolog.
My last A1c was 6.1%. I will be getting the result for my latest A1c Friday which, due to illness, will be in the 6.2% to 6.3%.

See if your doctor can include some of these foods urges in your meal plans. By satisfying these urges in an orderly way you may find you will have less of them. I know that has worked for me. And the best part is most of the uncontrolled urges are gone.

I became proud of myself when one day I realized I have all these great foods (and candies, cakes and such) in the house and I have no compulsion to gorge myself on them or to even nibble. They are no longer sirens tempting me but are just things in my meal plan.

You can do it too and become proud of yourself.
We are all rooting for you.
Good luck and Godspeed.

MEGriff1950 2011-11-14 13:43:28 -0600 Report

Ave I no longer has those huge sugar urges. After I got a meal plan from the dietician and started following it my cravings went away. I will indulge in an apple fritter as part of my breakfast sometimes counting those 30 some carbs to my meal count. I was the biggest choco-halic you have ever met. I do not watch tv fortunately. A person can be overstuffed from a meal but those tv ads make you want certin types of foods, they are good at their job. Another bad thing is those magazines in the drs office, Lose 30 lbs overnight and on the same page is a recipe for a triple fudge chocolate cake…what signal are we going to catch the mose. The third culprit undermining our good behavior is at the store check out stands with rows of candy or other sweet treats.
You won the fight over the big C, the big D is much easier to win the battle with. If you stick with your meal plan for a week or two then your cravings will change when you eat healthy.
Good luck,

GabbyPA 2011-11-14 13:42:12 -0600 Report

Oh my, we are twins? When I get off sugar, I am fine, but it is a hard road to get on. Here is a good video that I found that helps a lot. http://www.diabeticconnect.com/videos/898-how-to-beat-sugar-addiction-tips-nutrition-by-natalie

Getting through the withdrawal is hard. Cold turkey works best for me. I can do well until I take that bite when someone offers me a taste...When will I just say NO? Also, if you can keep it for just 3 weeks....then you have a good chance of getting off of it. Not just sugar, but the carbs in general.

aveedazane 2011-11-14 11:20:37 -0600 Report

One more thing, I am a cancer survivor having had lung cancer. Exercise can be difficult at times because I had half a lung removed but I do walk my dogs 3 times a day for 10 minutes. (heavy sigh)

aveedazane 2011-11-15 08:03:50 -0600 Report

Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. I know I need that more than I need accusations and criticism. That only makes it worse for me. My family thinks its helpful, mostly my mother thinks it's helpful. I don't want to hurt her feelings, she's 85 but as soon as she does it, I'm in the back room somewhere (birthdays) eating a huge piece of cake with as much frosting as I can scrape that was left. I think I know what an alcoholic must feel like because I stash candy and cookies and even whole cakes in my room where no one goes but me. I have been able to get off sugar before and lost 60 pounds, that was before I was diagnosed and I was younger. Being 57, it's harder to lose the weight now along with all the meds I take too. Since I was Diagnosed, I've put on 75 pounds. I look at that picture of me and I don't even recognize myself. As long as I stay away from it completely, I did it, but the second I put something sweet in my mouth it was down hill from there. I'm so ashamed and so discouraged and disappointed.
Maybe someday, I can be as encouraging to someone as you have been to me. thank you all for your support. Eva