Ya know, this is the most amazing site around! I could be so down in the dumps over everything and all I have to do is come to this site and I feel so much better. I actually feel like you all care about what happens to me. On top of it all, tomorrow (November 1) is my birthday and I think…my God, where did my life go? I'm going to be 57 years old and that sounds so damn old!
I know, for me, the holidays are tough and they’re upon us now. All my life, I’ve struggled to make ends meet, like many, many others have done and so far I’ve made it. I look back and think…. I could have done things differently, I could have chosen a different career, I could have done a lot better than I have but I have all you guys to help me now and get through this.
There’s one particular person who has helped me a lot. His first response to me was hard, I thought he was yelling at me too much but I didn’t say anything. In his second response to me, he was apologizing, thinking he was too rough on me but I think I respected him more for that. He told me he cared about what happened to me and I thought…this guy is a stranger; he doesn’t even know me at all and HE CARES??? So thank you Dan V. for being just what I needed then.
Life is so full of roadblocks and I see that more and more in lots of discussions here. We all have our bad times but then we have a good time and that kind of makes up for it. I’m never going to be perfect. I’m me and I just have to accept that. I’m not a pretty woman and that’s ok because I’m me. I have a lot of issues going on in my life and that’s ok too because I have people to help me through them. I have a mother who puts me on guilt trips ALL THE TIME and claims to have everything wrong with her that I have wrong with me but that’s ok too because I have two sisters, a brother, a daughter and future son-in-law who support me when she does that. I have a husband who doesn’t really understand diabetes even though I’ve tried to make him understand but that’s ok. I’ve told him I could die from this disease if I don’t take care of myself but he just doesn’t get it and that’s ok too. As long as I understand it and have you all to help me then that’s ok.
But getting back to the holidays, it’s amazing what they can do to your sugars and I’m not talking about overeating, I’m talking about emotions. I can only do what I can do, nothing more. I will make it through the holidays and when they’re all over in January, God willing I will still be here. Thank you all for letting me vent!
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