Good morning to my fellow diabetics, supporters of diabetics, people just looking for support, period, people looking to annoy those looking for support, and any of you others that I may have forgotten to add. Lately I have recieved a few replies to some of my posts stating that I must be in denial, and that my eyes are closed. Others stating that I'm full of BS, or whatever. Normally I wouldn't write a discussion about this as I really have no need to defend myself. I did start to think that maybe there are people out there that do feel that it has to be impossible for someone like me to be so at peace with a disease like diabetes. Maybe they wonder how it's possible for someone to not have had one moment of anger about this disease. I figured it was time to tell them how and why I see things the way I do.
First of all, I am a realist in life. This is a very important point to who I am. I have always seen things for what they are and not see them from someone else's view point. I have been this way for as long as I can remember. I remember this whole philosophy starting while I was doing the whole church thing. I was raised in an Irish Catholic family, so church was pretty big with most of my family. I went through CCD, first communion, and so on and so on. From the beginning I just was not like the other kids. I was always the one asking questions about pretty much every story or topic we were being tought. No matter how annoyed my parents, CCD teacher, priests, etc., got I kept on asking away. This went on for a couple of years until I started doing my own research and determined that although there are some pretty interesting stories with religion that ultimately I just didn't buy into all the magic realms, and magic men. One of the biggest problems I had was the whole Mary getting magically pregnant. I won't go into more religious detail, as I am sure many of you believe whole hartedly, and I am not looking to upset anyone. I just wanted to show you where my life philosophy began. This belief trickled down into pretty much my everyday life since then. I could never ever ever blindfully defend either political party, and it drives me nuts how many people blindfully and biasly defend there favorite political party with the my party can do no wrong whereas your party can do no right attitude. I look from politician to politician, and actually do my research before I make my decision. Most people have already made there decision 20 years in advance. No matter what I'm going to vote for so and so because he is in my favorite party. This thought process is the reason why politicans are as horrible as they are. When Bush was in office I had some very good discussions with many friends and family. Most of their beef with Bush was his spending habits. I am not allowed to even talk about Obama with these same exact people. When I bring up his insane spending habits there is always some crazy justification made to defend him. I can't do that. If I complain about someone I dislike because of something he is doing then I will still complain if someone I like is doing the same exact thing, and even doing it much worse. I can't blindfully or biasly justify bad behavior no matter who is doing something I dislike. Again, I know that politics is another unfortunate touchy subject. The two no no topics are always politics and religion. I feel it is this way because too many people take these subjects to darn personally, and definitely to biasedly. I am not faulting them. It's just who they are, and if that's what works for them then so be it. I am just trying to explain who I am.
In no way do I feel that I am better or worse than anyone else. I am just different, and I am A-OK with that, and if you are different then you should be A-OK, as well. We are all different, and that's what makes us all great. I do not want to be like anyone other than me, and I hope that you all feel the same way. By that I do not mean I want you to be like me, but I want you to be like only you. Who cares what those around you think! Go with your gut instead of just trying to fit in.
I am rarely one to judge someone else, and I really could care less if someone judges me. My thought process is definitely much different than many many people I know, and since I've had some strange replies about me being in denial and what not I thought maybe it was a good idea for me to explain why I am the way I am. We have learned that I am not religious. I refuse to call myself an atheist, though, because I just feel that that is another group with an agenda. I could care less if the word god is written on my money. I don't believe so it doesn't bother me. Atheists tend to be bothered that stuff, but not me. I actually send my kids to a private catholic school. No atheist would do that. All I care about is getting my kids the best possible education that they can and after a lot of researching we found an excellent private school for them. I also want them to make the decision of whether or not they want to believe in religion or not. I do not feel it's fair for me to take something away from them that they want. When they ask me about my thoughts on it I do tell them how I feel, but I tell them that when they are older and have asked all of their questions then they and only they can decide which path to take on that subject. I am pretty much against organized anything, as I feel that all things organized are evil. Just look at the Catholic church and all of the recent pedophilia and all of the othe nasty history of that church, look at organized government, organized mobs, and so on and so on. Where there is organized then usually there is money. When there is money then there is an almost guaranteed amount of corruption. This is why I am anti-organized anything, unless proven to be uncorrupted.
There you have it. That is me. I am a realist, and it is very hard, if not impossible, to get me depressed or stressed out. I had no control over becoming a diabetic, but I can control it. I am not a perfect person, and most definitely have my flaws, but I always own up to them. I do not think like the majority, and I am perfectly happy with that. If more people started thinking the way I did then I would be OK with that, as well. I am not afraid to ask questions, and I am not afraid to speak my mind, regardless of the topic. I say things as I see them, and I always do my research. If I think I know something, but someone proves me wrong with facts then I openly admit I was wrong, and then take a new stance. I always side with facts rather than my ego or pride. This is me, and I am sticking with it. I laugh a lot, and enjoy life. None of us will ever no when today is our last day, so I make sure to live like today is my last. I hope it is not, as I have to much to do like watch my kids grow, graduate college , get married, and so on and so on. I work for a railroad, so every once in a while I hear about a car getting hit, and what not. In many of those incidents the people in the car do not survive. Many of those that did not survive were pretty much completely healthy people. So that just proves that whether or not you have a disease that no one has any guranteed days of life, so the time we do have is up to us to determine how we want to use that time. I choose to use it wisely by enjoying it. That's pretty much all I have to say, for now. If anyone has any questions then ask. If you have any statements then state them. Don't hide yourself. I am not going to get upset at you. I am not going to be offended by you. I am not going to look down on you. No more of this anonymous nonsense. That just shows me that you are either being dishonest, possibly a jerk, just trying to cause a ruckus, etc. I am always open to open and honest discussions or debates. So long, for now.
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