crying myself to sleep

By rellypoo Latest Reply 2011-10-24 09:48:02 -0500
Started 2011-10-21 16:28:08 -0500

I went to the opthomologist yesterday regarding my vission problems, and now I have to go and have a MRI next friday as he thinks I may have MS. I cried all night as my mum has MS and I see what it is doing to her. I am so upset everytime I go to the doctors I come home with something new, I just feel like doing what I want, as Doing everything right is not helping, I am stressed to the max, and my blood levels are high. I am sick of this disease and everything that comes along with it and I don't wnat to go to anymore doctors incase I get something else, I am so tired upset and angry,

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Jan8 2011-10-24 09:48:02 -0500 Report

i always tell myself if I don't know what it is,I really don't know what the reality of the situation is yet. It's the truth and then i don't worry about what might happen in the future, I can cross that bridge when i come to it. My glucose levels also get out of whack with emotional upsets.

Harlen 2011-10-22 19:47:16 -0500 Report

You have a right to be upset and angry
Judst think of how it would be if you where not taking care of your self ????
No matter how bad it gets it can alway be harder .
Hugs and best wishes

nanaellen 2011-10-22 14:13:24 -0500 Report

Just know that you are NOT ALONE in all this!! Sorry to hear such news, I too want to just give up and eat what I want when I want it but then comes reality and I know I just have to keep on trying!! Don't give up! I've BEEN saying "I'm sick and tired of BEING sick and tired for a year now. It's getting me nowhere fast!! Gotta just keep on keeping on honey, it will get better it's GOT too!! (And I'll BET ya when your at home having a good cry…SO AM I!!!!) yOUR FRIEND,Ellen :)

GabbyPA 2011-10-22 09:14:44 -0500 Report

Now I know why you were saying you were feeling down. Girl, I am so sorry to hear all that is going on. MS is not the end, and maybe learning from your mom can help you prevent some of what she is suffering from. I know words seem small in the face of such big things.

Cry all you want, get it out and then let that stronger person come back out and take you to new places. It's okay to be angry. That proves you want to keep going. When it makes you mad, it makes you do something. It's when you don't care about it when you have to be careful. We are here to help in anyway we can. Half a world away, but still in our hearts.

RAYT721 2011-10-22 08:12:36 -0500 Report

Dear Friend … I am so sorry about what you have and are going through. I completely understand the fears, feelings and frustrations. You have certainly had some tough battles with your health. Please let us know about the MRI results. I just don't know that I have much confidence in an Ophthalmologist being able to determine MS. Your worry may be putting more stress on your body. I had a doctor suggest that I quite possibly had Malaria. I didn't.

GabbyPA 2011-10-22 09:21:10 -0500 Report

This is so true. I had a friend come to me last week telling me his wife was told she had stomach cancer. The doctor told her this when she had no one with her in the office and told her if she didn't stop crying he was going to take the keys from her. What a jerk.

All that to say that yesterday they got the results from some tests and found out she has a giant (relatively speaking of course) gall stone that is causing all the trouble. The surgery will be relatively death sentence and she spent nearly 3 weeks all stressed for nothing. Needless to say they are going back to the original doctor to share their thoughts with him.

So until the diagnosis is confirmed, I have to agree with Mickey and don't worry more than you need to.

mysteria7130 2011-10-21 20:02:54 -0500 Report

I watched my mother with diabetes and all the things that went along with it. I know your frustrated, And I know what your going through, I do. But you cannot give up. God is beside you. Just let Him in and let Him give you the strength you need to continue. God has a purpose for all of us. I have type II. My mother was type 1. She was on insulin. I had to check her sugar and give her the shots when my dad was not home. I had to clean her up when she could not hold her bowels. And to tell you the truth, I am scared. But I refuse to give up and I will not let you give up. So have your cry once in a while, it will not hurt,then pick yourself up and live moment by moment.I deal with depression, Diabetes, High blood pressure, Esophigitis, and around 15 other things. But Then I remember the serenity prayer and it helps. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." Say it to yourself every chance you get. It is what it is. Acceptance and letting God be number 1 in your life is the key to all things.

Heather44118 2011-10-21 17:53:43 -0500 Report

i agree with the below texts. Wait and see what the results are. We will be here when you find out one way or the other. Relax ( i know easier said than done). You are in my prayers

byrun 2011-10-21 17:26:51 -0500 Report

I agree with Mickey. Please do your best to not be stressed which is much easier said than done. I wish you well my friend.

Mickey/CCHT 2011-10-21 17:20:21 -0500 Report

I am so sorry to hear this. I know you said your mom has MS, but you might not. Don't borrow trouble before it's a reality. If you get the MRI done and it is, then you can cross that bridge when you get to it. Making yourself so upset in advance is only harming you more. I know it's easy for me to say, but i have learned this lesson the hard way. And i still have issues, but because I have Jesus in my life and my faith, i get thru. Might take me a min.but i get there. Please stay strong and know that you do not walk this path alone. Have Faith, You are in my prayers. Be Blessed

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