I hate oct, very bad memories and flashbacks. I was trying to figure out why I am having so much stress and anger and just found out it is oct a month my devil worshiping sick demented chimo abusive father and his "friends" were out the door on there planed sick stuff can't talk about it but my numbers are up and it is not only stress I have a hard time giving a care about myself or any one during this very trying month even when I do not think about it. I try to go on with life but I have not been able to beat this one month. Now I have T2 and have to find a way as I have never had high numbers like this month. I try relax positive thinking self talk nothing is working. Now like I said I know why now I need any help out there to get through this without killing myself or making self so sick. I know this is allot but thought if you all were going to be able to help I need to be straight. I have lost allot of loved one's and it effects things but nothing like this.
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