Time of year.

By sheriden Latest Reply 2011-10-12 19:51:28 -0500
Started 2011-10-11 20:48:46 -0500

I hate oct, very bad memories and flashbacks. I was trying to figure out why I am having so much stress and anger and just found out it is oct a month my devil worshiping sick demented chimo abusive father and his "friends" were out the door on there planed sick stuff can't talk about it but my numbers are up and it is not only stress I have a hard time giving a care about myself or any one during this very trying month even when I do not think about it. I try to go on with life but I have not been able to beat this one month. Now I have T2 and have to find a way as I have never had high numbers like this month. I try relax positive thinking self talk nothing is working. Now like I said I know why now I need any help out there to get through this without killing myself or making self so sick. I know this is allot but thought if you all were going to be able to help I need to be straight. I have lost allot of loved one's and it effects things but nothing like this.

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harry1 2011-10-12 04:41:29 -0500 Report

i'm in the same boat that you are in i hate this time of year. we had 3 family members died this time of year my dad and 2 brothers and i got diagnosed with diabetes in october 5 years ago. i get real bad mood swings, thoughts of doing my self in, i stopped taking all of my meds. and i take off from home and don't tell anyone im gone for a day and a half or longer at times. i finally got professional help i see a psycholoigist who put me on depakote he made a diagnose of borderline bipolar with personality disorder and post tramutic stress disorder. i see him once a month and i have a counsler that i see once a week. don't feel embrassed by going there thinking that you are crazy i know i did but it is nice to talk to someone other than family members about everything that is going on in your life. it may take a couple of visits but it should help you through these rough times.

good luck harry

jayabee52 2011-10-12 03:03:43 -0500 Report

Howdy Robin!

When you find yourself going where you don't want to go mentally, take yourself on a mental trip to a pleasant place or to a time in your life when you had a good time or peace in your life.

Also pray to God who can and will give you the peace that is beyond all human comprehension. I will pray for you to have that Robin.

Blessings to you and yours


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