So just being diagnosed I feel overwhelmed. One min I am fine and think I'm a mother of soon to be 4 children I can do this! The next I'm thinking omg what if I cant? What if I mess up? What if I have to give myself shots in the future? Can I really do that with my bad fear of needles? How bad does it hurt to check my blood sugar? Ugh I feel like I'm bipolar. I'm scared honestly is what it all boils down to I guess. Why me? I'm a whimp. I don't know if I can handle this. I don't want to give up my food. I am such a picky eater I feel like I'm going to starve trying to be healthy. I'm whiney and negative right now can't help it. I just feel so depressed. Doesn't help I'm prego and my emotions are out of control right now. People I know just keep telling me you will be fine stay posative your going to get through this. But that's not what I want to hear right now I want to hear that it's o.k. to be scared and that someone understands. Don't try to fix me just listen to me let me express my fears! I love my family and friends so much but right now I just feel like they don't get it. I'm trying really hard to appear strong and together but on the inside I'm falling apart… Well at least I can vent here! Have my first appointment with the dietition tomorrow hope that will help calm some of my fears.
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