Well it all starts on over this past weekend.
My daughter who is 38 weeks pregnant knew I was at a Pow Wow an hour and a half away. That I couldnt just get up and come home for her. Well she ranted raved and complained to the point of calling me a bytch to my friend via text messages and phone calls.
Next my brother (native) and business partner who suffers from PTSD did his usual yelling screaming at me because I was sitting on my wee arse eating bon bons doing nothing! LOL Not! I was busy tying the tables to the crates for the ride home. He wanted me to find something but I had told him to wait twice that I would check it out. But No he wanted it found NOW! Then to find out others heard this and well of course first I am to blame. Yet decided later on I wasnt once the whole story was told!
Then get home to find out husband had a hissy fit cause there was no dinner made. Well gee hunny when do you let us know when you will be home? Um Never!
Where another situation flared up between the husband aka stepfather to my daughter. Which started after I had left for classes.
Now all of this made me feel anger, rage, frustrations, sadness, crying and etc. Where I felt like a low life loser who deserves whatever she gets.
Now here is what I did…thought it over. Talked to my friend who daughter harassed over the weekend. I am sorry they dont have the brains Creator gave them to use to help themselves. That is on them They are jealous of the fact I am not dropping everything to handle their problems like I used to in the past. For now I am focusing on myself. To become better. That I am putting myself and happiness along with my own needs first. That I have helped them and if they cant help themselves when I am busy OH Well! Get over it.
I am a good person. Who deserves to be happy. To move forward in a positive way. So now its on them. I am refocusing on staying positive regardless. For their lack of planning isnt my emergency! Missy's saying here! LOL Just love it.
This is written to show you the chaos I go thru. That despite it all I am not going to ALLOW any one of them to stop me from doing what I need to do and making myself happy. A learning lesson of life. So if you think you cant refocus or get out of the nonsense of whatever, just know if I can so can you!
Have a great day!:) For I intend too because it drives those others up a wall! LOL
Now what do you think?
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