Suffering

ShawnVisa42
By ShawnVisa42 Latest Reply 2011-09-29 04:46:23 -0500
Started 2011-09-25 10:32:09 -0500

Hello, my name is Shawn, I had diabetes for 10ys and out of the 10ys eight was very bad for me because my diabetes was out of control for that eight years, 2010 was a new complication for me, In 2009 i was already suffering from bad circulation but never new how bad it was going to get, my diabetes was really out of control, and out of the eight years, I also been riding my mountain bike, back and forth to work, I told doctor this on march 6 2011, that's when I end up on the hospital doctor told me that was a good thing, that I ride my bike like that.

2009 numbness start from my feet to my ankles, I was telling co-workers this, 2010 numbness and stinging, and burning, it was feeling like someone playing a sick game, getting electric shock, hand, feet legs, now 2011 I'm suffering bad, march 6 2011, this what happen to me, I was going home, walking threw the park from work, I was coming from work, all of a sudden I got real dizzy and I start feeling shortness of breath got a little numb, so I had to take my time getting home, I stood there in the park for a while be for I begin to head home, it didn't get bad until I had to go back to work.

Be for I left my apt# my heart was beating fast, I started to get dizzy, and my legs and my arms where numb I sat back down in the chair, and waited a while, I thought I was better, as I was walking to work, I started feeling sick again numbness shortness of breath, feeling week, I call the FDNY then I call my boss to let him know that I wasn't going to make it to work, so I end up going to the hospital I found out my ac1 was 11.

I'm trying to make this short, because it's a long story and you probably have to wait for it on paper back, all jokes a side, Daibetes effected my life, my job, I use work private building, now I work at the desk, where I get to sit down and relax, reason why the took me out of those building Daibetes effected the way I work, if I got in a physical situation, I couldn't stop or prevent anything from happening, I was in pain and hurting 24/7.

Right now I'm still suffering from
Shortness of breath
My stomach feel like I have a not in it
Ever now and then my heart beat fast
I use to b 236 pounds now I'm 178 I think I lost more then 178 I think I no longer weigh 178.
And reason why im like this now is 8ys back, 2001i found out I had Daibetes and cholesterol Db was 545 and my cholesterol 203 if I didn't make a appointment to get a check up, I would of died to.

8ys uneducated about Daibetes and now I'm suffering and feeling a lone, huting who going to help me. My Daibetes is in control now and I'm fighting back, but something else is wrong and I'm going to find out what it is, when I go to a better hospital, that's another story. I'm also here to learn threw all of you, because I'm tired of trying to deal with it myself, if I can find out what's wrong with me maybe I can fix it, I have family and 1 pet who depend on me, I don't want to die, I want to live to a good old age.

Thanks for reading my suffering, I tried write what's was wrong with me, but end up writing a little history about me. I only hope I can write something good later all.


14 replies

MrsCDogg
MrsCDogg 2011-09-29 04:46:23 -0500 Report

Keep coming back here. It's a good place to find support from other people like you. Some days it's the only thing that gets me through. Bless you my friend!

mebetty
mebetty 2011-09-28 03:29:52 -0500 Report

Hi Shawn. I know what it is not to have medical insurance. Now because I collect unemployment I was able to get state aid. But that is temporary. If you are thinking about getting on disability do it while you are working. My brother had to wait two years to be eligible for disabiiity (he was not working at the time when he had a heart attack probably caused by diabetes). Being a diabetic you must get medical attention. Diabetes affects so many important organs and your nervous system.

While I think biking is great exercise, riding your bike inhaling fumes from buses and trucks is definitely not healthy. When you are exercising your breathing becomes more intense and breathing in those fumes is toxic! As Jan8 below suggested, it may be a good idea to see a cardiologist. If you belong to a church maybe you can ask for financial assistance to see a cardiologist. This is a tough situation, but don't let time go by. Try to seek every kind of help you can get. This is definitely not the time to think and sit and wait. Be aggressive in getting the medical attention.

Don't be afraid. Diabetes in most cases can be controlled but needs to be monitored closely. Please keep us posted on your progress.

Godspeed,
Betty

Uncle Lew
Uncle Lew 2011-09-27 16:43:32 -0500 Report

You are not alone Shawn. Many of us like you have multiple problems. In January of 2001 I suffered a heart attack. It was actually my fifth heart attack, the other four were “silent” ones, which diabetics often suffer. Since than it was a continual uphill fight with a very weak heart. A simple cold would put me in the hospital with congestive heart failure. Continued anemia, asthma, and sleep apnea did not help the situation. I have nerve damage especially in my lower legs and feet that sometimes lead to great pain. Thankfully June of 2009 was my last hospitalization. I have health problems but they do not have me. It was a long slow fight but I am winning it. You can win it too.
First: stop thinking about death and dying. Think of your family and pet. Think of the love and joy they give you. Think of a long life with them. It isn’t easy but that will be a giant step on your journey to a great, long life.
Second: get a good endocrinologists. They deal with a very specific set of diseases of certain glands. They are specialist on diabetes. Be honest when you talk to one. Your honesty will save your life.
Three: see if there is a diabetes support group in your area. My support group is as important to me as my endocrinologist. Meet with people that are suffering the same things your are. Face to face is the best way to know you are not alone.
Godspeed. Come back often, it will be exciting to hear how you are progressing and winning. =-)

onefunblonde57
onefunblonde57 2011-09-27 00:07:49 -0500 Report

HELLO SHAWN…WHEN I READ YOUR MESSAGE HERE, MY HEART JUST REALLY
WENT OUT TO YOU, IT IS SO DIFFICULT SOMETIMES TO GO TO THE DOCTOR
AND FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS,AND TRULY WATCH WHAT WE EAT. MAYBE YOU
CAN GET A BOOK FROM THE DIABETES ASSOCIATION…SOMETIMES FOR
FREE, OR LOW COST…AND MAYBE THAT CAN HELP YOU WITH MEAL
PLANNING,AND SEE EXACTLY WHAT YOU MAY BE DOING WRONG. SOMETIMES
WITH JUST A FEW LIFE STYLE CHANGES…WE CAN FEEL A LOT BETTER.

I WILL SAY A PRAYER FOR YOU
GOD BLESS YOU SHAWN…

MEGriff1950
MEGriff1950 2011-09-26 13:38:36 -0500 Report

Hello Shawn, I am going to be gone for a month starting tomorrow. Do not feel that I am ignoring your posts. While I am at my sisters I will not have the internet. I am inviting you to my friends list.
Take care,
Mary

Jan8
Jan8 2011-09-26 09:02:05 -0500 Report

Hi Shawn, Good for you for getting your diabetes under control. See a cardiologist to rule out any heart problems. at least you wiill know if there is a problem that can be adressed Go for it! You have nothing to lose. I think diabetic connect is the best thing ever! We are always here for you.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-09-25 13:01:50 -0500 Report

Shawn, WELCOME to Diabetic Connect!

I believe you have made a good choice to join us here on DC, because you don't HAVE to be alone (unless you really want to be) there are (or so I've heard recently) nearly half a million members on DC.

One of the things I would encourage you to do is Go easy on yourself! Please. Don't beat yourself up over the years you could have controlled your diabetes but didn't. To tell you the truth, my first few years weren't all that wonderful for me in the way of control either.

ShawnVisa42
ShawnVisa42 2011-09-25 20:59:28 -0500 Report

It's not that I beat myself up, then again I kinda do, I have no medical insurance , it's hard. For me because it seem like I can't get no help unless I get on disability, I love to work, but the way I feel, that's what it look like I'm heading

MEGriff1950
MEGriff1950 2011-09-25 12:03:52 -0500 Report

Wow Shawn it is such a horrible shame that your medical professional did not help you to gain control over your diabetes a long time ago. I am only guessing but to me it sounds like you might have other underlying medical issues that are either caused by or affected by your diabetes.
Has your dr done a total blood work up on you? Not just for your diabetes. Many members here go to endocrynologists who specialize in diabetes.
My first A1C was 12 or 14 somewhere in there and I was not ill from it. There are some meds that can help control the neuropathy and not just mask it with pain meds. If you can possibly find a new dr I think it would be to your benefit.
Just because some one has capital letters after their names does not mean they are good at their profession or even that they care.
Do not apologize for venting here. Take the space that you need, we will listen.
God bless you and keep us posted,
Mary

ShawnVisa42
ShawnVisa42 2011-09-25 22:06:12 -0500 Report

I've been to two hospitals, they did blood work, they did ekg, they gave me x-rays, and for some reason they couldn't find anything wrong with me, telling me it can be a psychological problem, cause by stress from the job.

I even told them I been riding my bike for 8 years, could riding my bike with out a bike mask cause this shortness or breath, they couldn't give me a answer, they never heard of that happening, I been riding my bike for eight years behind busses, cars, trucks, breathing foul air, I really don't know what's causing this issue with the shortness of breath, but I need to find answers.

I'm thinking to my self that they really don't care, I was charity work to them, and since they was paying for it, they didn't do anything for me, because I had no health insurance, they did me no justice, they just kept me over night did. Few test, and send me home in the morning. Some some of doctors and nurses were in turns
and if I had a psychological problem why they didnt they send me to a psychologist ?

So now I'm going to another hospital, Montefior hospital I had look them up, I did research, that hospital specailize in people with Daibetes so I'm try there.

MEGriff1950
MEGriff1950 2011-09-25 22:53:12 -0500 Report

Good for you Shawn, I am glad that you found another hospital to go to. Being without insurance and having a chronic disease on top is really bad. My dr used to get mad because I could not afford my meds when I did not have insurance. The only reason that I was able to see his is that I was on workmans comp, so he did not charge the diabetic part of the visit. Every year the medical aid for the lower income gets worse and worse.
I pray that soon you will receive the medical care and treatment that all Americans deserve. Shawn you are not alone. Take time and go through some of the many previous posts by people in similar circumstances as your. I have learned a lot since coming to DC and you should be able to find a lot of useful information.
Take care as Shawn and May God watch over you and yours,
Mary

ESTHERK
ESTHERK 2011-09-26 17:17:26 -0500 Report

I am a new Member to this site. I am 50 years old, and I was diagnozed with Type 2 diabeties November of 2009. Twice I have experienced blurry vision. I now have two pairs of glasses——one for close up and one to see far away. I wish that my eye sight would return to normal. I hate wearing glasses.

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